posted on May, 17 2012 @ 08:31 AM
Hey all, I just woke up and am surprised and very appreciative for all the kinds words. I think the most shocking thing is I just never saw this
coming or thought that she would ever do this. Our anniversary was last month and it was really great, very romantic, even the day she left we were
making long term plans for the future. My son isn't her biological son so at least I don't have to worry about a custody battle, but he's only five
and he's known her since he was two so to him she is his mom. He keeps asking where she is and at first I didn't know what to tell him because when
she left she didn't contact me for several days. I tried to explain to him the other day exactly what was happening, that mommy and daddy weren't
going to live together anymore but we both still love him and he looks at me and asked who was going to be his new mommy and that was pretty
heartbreaking. His biological mom is basically a deadbeat, she has three kids with three dads and two she abandoned while the other was taken from her
custody by the state after our relationship had ended. She just disappeared and my (ex)wife knows this and always made a big deal about how she'd
never do that and blah blah blah.
I honestly never thought that she would do this. I have a theory, see when we met she wasn't working. I got her the job working for the same company
I did (same company, different stores). Now, she's 23 with a great paying job and for the first time in her life she is truly independent. I'm
thinking she just got sick of domestic life and wants to be her own independent woman and live a "carefree" single lifestyle. I could be wrong, but
when I met her she was kind've a party girl and I have to give her props for accepting me with my son and being a really good mom. That's why this
whole situation kind of blindsided me because she seemed really mature and gung-ho about being a mom, but maybe she's just a great actress. All I
know is she made a commitment to me and my son, I wasn't just a live-in boyfriend. She left with no reasoning aside from "I'm just not happy
anymore" and made absolutely no attempt to talk about it or work things out. To make it all worse, she left us with nothing, she even closed out the
bank account and the main reason I sent my son to my mom's is because there wasn't any food in the house after a couple days and he didn't need to
be there in that environment.
On Monday I sucked up my pride and went to apply for food stamps which wasn't a very fun ordeal. I really don't like the idea of being on welfare,
although I'm not against the premise in general I just don't want to be on it. My mother worked two jobs raising three kids just so we wouldn't
have to be on welfare so I think I just inherited some of her pride. At the same time I've been paying taxes since I was working at the age of
sixteen and every time I make a purchase so I do feel that I've paid more than enough into the system. I left my company on good terms, thankfully
and I'm going up there today to try to get back on.
Oh, also a weird thing happened at the welfare office. I was in line to get my card and the woman who was processing us was just going through like an
assembly line, she was real quick with each person, no small talk or anything. When she came to me she started to hand me my card then stopped. She
looked at me and proceeded to tell me how "He" told her to tell me not to dwell on the past and not to let a bad relationship get me down. She
talked to me for a couple minutes and everything she said just made sense and matched the situation I was in exactly. Although I was raised in church,
I kind've fell out of the whole religious scene but that was like someone smacking me in the back of the head and waking me up. I just don't know
how she knew my exact situation, even the person who interviewed me didn't get the entire story. Anyways, enough of my rambling, I'm off to go job
hunting, thank you all and wish me luck!