posted on May, 14 2012 @ 02:43 AM
I know now what exactly is keeping me from my goal. I lack communication skills needed not just to write, but also to communicate with others. It's
even apparent in this post. (ironically)
One awareness I arrived at, is that when I try and communicate and write a paragraph, I tend to confuse people especially when emotions are involved.
Maybe because I use words unnecessarily or have the lack of transforming large amounts of information into a summary or a simple sentence.
What caused me to have this awareness? A bunch of misunderstandings with friends critiques on writing forums, plus an article Rejection. Yes, I got
my first author rejection. But because I was aware other authors have been rejected for the same reasons, I was mentally prepared for it and it paid
off. It gave me an awakening I needed and became aware of my main problem.
For years I have been working on a project. The project is in fact lined from beginning to end. (this means the story and the body is already
finished, I just need to write it professionally). What kept me from finishing this project was not just lazyness, but also because words do not
naturally flow from me. I have a vivid imagination, I can play scenes in my head in forms of a movie extremely clear, hell most of my time I spend in
dream world or daydreaming or inside my very own story, while listening to some music that would spark up an idea or replay a scene from my story.
But forming words from those scenes is science to me. They are still abstract. But not only am I trying to perfect the style, I am also trying to
devlope a new technique to get the readers hooked, much like J.K Rowling did with Harry Potter. So now I am forced to go back to basics. I have to
re-learn from the bottom. Sentence structure, verbs, paragraph structure, coma's semi colons etc.
This is my weakness, and its one I want to strengthen. If you take a moment and see that in reality im extremely shy, and take for account that i
spent many years isolated by myself without truly communicating with others. Plus spending time in forums using words like "lulz" , "wat" or in
online games like World of warcraft using made up sentence structures like "Lfm sunwell pst." You tend to butcher the english language to a point
where it becomes confusing inside the mind.
So the only thing left, is go back to basics, re-learn the english language and start over from 0. A wise person once said to me, "Sometimes you
have to fall to make it out". That person was right, and it is because when we fall or fail, we become aware of our strengths and weaknesses. And by
becoming aware, we can further improve on them. But one thing I realized, what I have been doing was trying to patch the style I had. This didn't
work for me, as it became confusing.
Question I have for those who are published authors or have an extremely high grip on writing. If you had to start over from scratch. How would you go
about it? Personally, I found quite a few ebooks on writing. There are alot of free ones out there. So I have the tools necessary to improve. But
would like to know how would you go about improving?