posted on May, 12 2012 @ 11:21 AM
reply to post by Xaphan
Oh Gosh, i hope those "sucidial" feelings where fleeting...seems this has been a hell of rough time for Op and many sharing in this thread. I haven't
thought about suicide outright, but this past week I have barely been able to eat, and I have never had an eating disorder or wieght issues, so not
sure why my body is re-acting this way, lol, the dogs like it cause whatever I have prepared to eat I take a few bites and give them the rest.
The break-up is already painful enough, but for myself, what is really "eating" at me so to speak is that the last words we spoke to each other were
angry and hurtful, and it just feels so unresolved for me. What if one of us died? Does he know I will always Love him even if I had to stand my
ground on matters I just couldn't live with?
The way he seems to need or want to deal with this is "no contact" or further discussion between us, and so far I have not tried to contact him, after
10 yrs of "craziness" we both know, "enough is enough"...but damm, it's brutal........lol, he was my "crazy bastard" and I guess I was his "crazy
bitch"...when we were happy, we were Happy, we were really happy, but when it was bad, it was a "nightmare", and as dysfuntional as it gets.
He's the one that turned me on to ATS, and taught me so many other cool things, he also taught me some really "bad" things too....anyways, thanks for
listening to my morning "melt down" I have to get my self together and get to work soon. Hope everyone has a a better day today, then
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