What I hate about this world.
I hate the fact, that I am judged upon for feeling bad in situations. Sometimes I can't help it. People tell me to let go. Without further analyzing
that maybe the person has over 100 things in their mind. I am aware people have it worse than I do. But pain is pain. No matter which way you look at
it, it shouldn't be there.
I hate the fact that people reject others out of fear and assumptions. If you assume things about a person, why not do your homework and talk to that
person? If you speak of compassion and understanding. Why not practice what you preach? Why not try and understand the person instead of trying to
change them through your point of views? It seems to me, I have mastered this trait. But others remain in limbo. So what gives? I listen, and I
understand. What I don't understand is, why do people contradict themselves? Never make a promise you cant keep.
I hate the fact that the food and water is being poisoned by those in power. It makes me feel cornered depressed, anxious. Every bite I take to eat,
makes me question whether or not that food will cause harm to me.
I hate the fact that chemtrails cover my skies. I feel like I am being attacked. Surpressed. I feel like I am someone to be killed or quarantined like
a virus. I miss the old skies.
I hate the fact that the news media lies to people every day. And that people remain asleep to it's corruption.
I hate the fact that nothing I do is ever good enough. Every thing I say or do, I still get judged upon. Why? because I am different? Because I have
heart? Because i care? I used to think caring was a weakness. I tried to empower myself by becoming cold. After my last relationship sev years ago. I
vowed not to fall for anyone. I vowed never to let this weakness take over.
I hate that people say they are friends, but end up doing the opposite. They instead contradict themselves by pushing others away. It's the same story
of the world only different author. It has caused me to be paranoid on who to call a friend. It is why I have such a tight nit on letting people
I hate how people worship money and materialism instead of valuing what is truly important. I hate how im judged for not having a job or working my
way through life. To many I may just be a beach bum, or someone to just step on, spit on, and pushed aside. Again where is the compassion and love
people preach about?
I hate how Ego has taken over this world. How peoples ego's cloud their visions. Hell I admit my ego tends to become a loose cannon, but at the end
of the day all I really want is to clarify my intentions. For I mean no harm to anyone. I try and stick by the golden rule. "Do unto others what you
would like to be done to yourself."
I hate how I feel isolated, and no where to run. How every corner I turn, has a shadow or a zombie waiting for me. I realize, that me saying the word
"hate" spells Irony in this note. But I am only human, I am not a saint, nor do I want or claim to be one. If I make a mistake I am at least honest
I hate how my family and so many other families fight because of money. It tears friendships, family, and relationships apart. Almost 100% of the
worlds problems is because of money. It is the source of "evil" and depression.
I hate how you dont have a fancy car, a woman will not take a second look at you. Same goes vice versa with guys. It is the shallowness that I
I hate how I have to explain in 100 different ways to people that I am not what they fear. That I am but THEIR projection of what they fear. Fear is
an illussion, the mind plays tricks and at times they become clouded in judgement because of a mistake one makes. They turn one small action and make
it bigger than the world. And turn it against you. I am not the best writer in the world. I still struggle with words, and while this seem to be an
excuse, people do not understand the word "autism" and that my main language is SPANISH. I am still learning words from the dictionary as we speak.
And I am trying to write a novel!
I hate how unforgiving this world can be. I hate how the bullies in my past made me live in fear and caused me to hide. It has made me despise this
world to a point where I would rather watch it burn. Even I have to admit that Gaia needs cleansing. But does this make me hate humanity as a whole?
I dont hate humanity, I hate the actions and egos they bring. Of course my own ego is no saint either. The battle of duality has been taking it's
toll on me and I have had heavy losses. But what makes me different than you?
I hate how people assume that I dont love myself. When I actually do. I simply have a hard time dealing with people I care about. Because I wish i
could solve their problems. What happens to them affects me. Why is this so hard to understand? yes we ALL have to deal with our problems and I
realize that talking about it doesn't help much. But it does allow things to flow, instead of bottling things up.
You want to know what a true friend is? Someone who is there for you through your bads and your worse. Only 2 people in my life has allowed me to be
me and never held anything against me. . Others I havent known well, are still in my circle because i see good in them.
Despite all the crap I went through with others, all that has been done. I still have the abilty to forgive. I may hate, and become cold. But a simple
act of kindness makes all the differences in the world and it's enough to soften my heart at times, unless im blinded with rage.. I am aware I am
wrong on expecting people to stand by what they preach.
Sometimes we as human beings, need someone in the physical to talk to. Someone to hug or show appreciation to. To give and get affection, which to me
is very rare.
I hate the fact that this world is ruled by lust, fear and fiction and not love. Love is divine, lust is ego based. My whole life I searched for
what love actually meant. When I found the answer I was surprised. But I realized, that this world lacks love. This is why I have had trouble finding
Experiences is what makes up a personality. To judge me because of what I say or do or feel. You are ultimately judging yourselves. By rejecting me,
you reject yourselves.
I am the black sheep. I am that kid that cried in the playground after being bullied. I am awakened to how the world truly is. I see things for what
they are. I see things so many of you fail to see. Does this make me more special? No, it simply means I am a veteran in a war against ego. It means I
have my scars of battle. And id rather die than to give in to egotistical beliefs.
I realize now, that everything happens for a reason. But I wanted to be clear on one thing. I am only human. Before you judge me, live my life, walk
in my shoes, and feel my sorrow. That is the only way we can come to understanding one another.
At the end of the day. We are all one. One with Source, and one with eachother. If we ourselves do not change. How can we expect to see change in the
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