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What about when a dog, or rabbit runs out in the road and get hit? Do these entities control that too? Or, what if a child walks out in front of me, but I swerve and miss? Does that mean bad entities made the child walk out in the road, but good entities helped me swerve?
Originally posted by icepack
it is my believe, that when a child runs on a road and a car hits it, there are non-human beings involved. these beings decide the fate of the child.
Originally posted by NotAnAspie
strange days... i want to pt my PM reply here in case i wind up just repeating when i talk about this more. i omitted yours. i hope you don't mind me answering it here.
what in your life is driving you that makes you feel like you are working for the devil? money?
i have to say, i honestly never feel that way. i simply know there are things i can't decide for others. i don't. i just express how i honestly feel but perceive others being manipulative to simply push their agenda... which does not equal good from word go.. it can't. Done against a person for what? how is that ever justified? that sounds exactly like the thought frames that form in the minds of others and gain up against me and i am certain that i never do that to others. i would not stand for it and it is sickening to think of all the times it has been done to me. there are many ways to attack people. when i am angry i lash out but i do not act and i do not build premise and i do not gang up on them, talk about them behind there back, spy on them, conspire against them, mess with their life, lie to them... i do not do these things and even though something i feel extremely bad and focused on all that is negative against me and others it seems as this almost contagious entity that has many true and real manifestations... i never feel like i am working for the devil.
i may feel it is hopeless, i may feel i am CONTROLLED by the devil which is in this world, i may even feel things like that my contact has made mistakes, doesn't care or is messing around with other women but i do not feel like i am working for the devil. in fact i KNOW I am not.... but i do feel the devil is close... very close. it makes you feel like you have never really been happy and you are in an endless wheel of pain and you can't help others because you have no power here but if you could, that is how i feel. abandoned, nothing changes, the cycle will just keep repeating itself. it's almost like i'm aware when the pattern of some kill program starts and when it stops and repeats itself, waves of pain, cycles of pain... a pattern, an inescapable pattern. i do not feel i work for the devil, i feel he is trying to kill me and he will win and i will be born again and he will kill me again and it is just death death death and never any happiness, any love, any peace... and it is just in so many people...and it is actually traceable. some seem to not be effected by this at all and just live their happy lives. some seem to just be kidding themselves, but just think you can flip it like switch like it is your imagination when in fact the pain comes first and there is nothing there to comfort you. pain will make anyone depressed. the stupid details of life can usually be dealt with and the mind KNOWS THIS. it's not your mind, it's the pain. It has done all sorts of actual things to make me ill and when it is gone, it's gone. it makes me very angry at men who just throw away things like nothing matters. lie about anything to construct their way, pave their path, hold on to things. it's all a game. no it is very real and loved one suffer and it is maddening... for those who have resisted. tried hard to see the misery of others, the pain we all go through, to have compassion, to deserve it... but to feel hated and attacked rather than loved.
i am here right now alone, but i feel loved. i do not feel like my love has ripped away from me as so many times this is exactly what i have felt... because it has been... and it's happening to others as well as we speak..and it's an ongoing cycle in this world and yes it is demonic but in those moments i cannot see his face.
because if i could, i would not feel that way. i would not feel alone.
i hope you find some way to stop feeling like that because that is disturbing.
hmmmm.... you feel you are being used... in what situations exactly? it's hard to imagine what you do in life.
so you feel like they are kind of pumping you up at times for some unclear purpose but are increasingly becoming aware because of the patterns, the seemingly artificial intelligence behind it. maybe like a program? or is it more like an individual? can you feel the agenda, can you perceive it. do you have sight of what it could be and how it would personally relate to you?
people try to convince me all the time it is my guide... why would they do that? why would they bother?
What about when a dog, or rabbit runs out in the road and get hit? Do these entities control that too?
Or, what if a child walks out in front of me, but I swerve and miss? Does that mean bad entities made the child walk out in the road, but good entities helped me swerve?
Originally posted by icepack
imo, the acting of these beings does not make sense, it is partially absurd, misleading, pure evil. it sometimes feels like, they expend effort to create a reason so they have "ammunition" to punish and to get into a judicial position and rule over me.
its not one entity or person, its a group of them.
Do you feel the attacks manipulate your dreams?
"Nightmare". The word derives from the Old English "mare", a mythological demon who torments human beings with frightening dreams.
Originally posted by jonnywhite
reply to post by Strainz
I think you're tapping into the dream center of your mind. Ever had a dream that you remembered? If you do, you probably remember people talking. Imagine that happening when you're awake.
That was fun. You can ignore everything I wrote here because I am not a psychiatrist nor do I even know what I am saying. But I thought I would give it a shot and see what I can produce.
I hope you're ok and can deal with this and don't let it beat you.edit on 6-5-2012 by jonnywhite because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by icepack
reply to post by NotAnAspie
hmmmm.... you feel you are being used... in what situations exactly? it's hard to imagine what you do in life.
this happens randomly. atm, i am in therapy and not able to work. i am able to work occasionally when the interferences and disorders are gone or weaker. in these phases, i do research or recover from the spiritual attacks.
so you feel like they are kind of pumping you up at times for some unclear purpose but are increasingly becoming aware because of the patterns, the seemingly artificial intelligence behind it. maybe like a program? or is it more like an individual? can you feel the agenda, can you perceive it. do you have sight of what it could be and how it would personally relate to you?
i have the feeling these beings condition me, they "tune" me for their interests, which are not clear to me atm. it seems like they act only to stress me, to bring me in a bad shape, so i make mistakes, so they can punish me.
people try to convince me all the time it is my guide... why would they do that? why would they bother?
imo, the acting of these beings does not make sense, it is partially absurd, misleading, pure evil. it sometimes feels like, they expend effort to create a reason so they have "ammunition" to punish and to get into a judicial position and rule over me.
Originally posted by strangedaysThanks for the reply. Im basically taking a body/self inventory of what I have and what I feel I can do, and applying it. I believe in myself to do this, and its great and I know its something I would go the distance for, but I guess I cant have it all you know?