reply to post by usmc0311
First, thank you for your service and sacrifice. I can empathize but not really understand your situation, as I've never been in combat or the
However, I have dealt with PTSD and Clinical Depression my entire teen and adult life. The PTSD stemmed from a violent rape, I'm sure the depression
was also caused by it.
I, too, have spent years trying to find help. I even committed myself to a mental hospital for two weeks....and that was the beginning of the turning
You mentioned you've been on several antidepressants. If you don't mind sharing, which ones have you taken? They all work in different ways and it
can be extremely difficult doing the trial by error thing to find what works.
Are you familiar with the medication Clonidine? It's an older med, been available for decades, and is generally used to treat blood pressure.
However, Clonidine has recently been used, successfully, in treating PTSD. It soothes the area of the brain affected by PTSD, thereby reducing
symptoms. You might want to research Clonidine and consider giving it a try.
I know it sounds like I'm a pharmaceutical rep, but after years of struggling to overcome my own issues, I've discovered that certain meds do help me.
Most importantly, it sounds like you need someone to talk through your experiences with and who can help you learn strategies to deal with the stress.
Have you considered a cognitive or behavioral therapist? Generally speaking, these therapists don't just let you talk about your feelings. They help
you develop skills to deal with the sudden stress and anxiety of PTSD. I found one therapist completely by accident and she was a godsend. She
prescribed a mild anxiety med for me to take when needed, an antidepressant, and for the next two years she taught me coping strategies while slowly
weaning me off the anxiety med. Now I know how to handle certain stressful situations better, and it does help.
Family support is crucial, and it sounds like you have none. If and when you find a therapist, consider having your family attend a session where the
therapist can explain the reality of your situation and your family can ask questions. This could help them to understand your situation and empathize
Do you keep a journal? I've discovered that pouring out my feelings and frustrations onto paper allows me to acknowledge my thoughts and work through
them. After reading your entries in the short story forum, I can tell you are a talented writer. You might give this a try and see if it helps.
I'm always available if you need to talk, just U2U me.
Sending love and best wishes your way
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