reply to post by silent thunder
I sat here for 20 minutes after reading those three, Silent. And I still dont even know how to begin to answer.
From time to time, when you aren't being all...whatever it is you are, most of the time...you have a way of just..swooping down and destroying
my ideas with your...truth? Is that what it is? Sort of. Like a dash of cold water. And its a fact that I got what I asked for. This is my
roundabout way of trying to thank you, and failing as usual.
But. Well. first things first. because there is more than thanks. After that gift, I owe you nothing but honesty, and public honesty like you said.
And honesty is not always only thanks, is it? You are right, its why I do what I do here. I never realized that dynamic so clearly as I do today.
And, honestly, Silent. Its a little more than I'm ready for. Your posts here today made me feel like I went into a fast-food place and ordered a
burger and fries, and got served a 12-course banquet instead. And I know you speak from the heart (a strange and alien heart it is, but a real one).
Your words are of great value to me when you do that. Fortunately it doesn't happen too often. I don't know how many 12 course banquets I can take!
I'm being a little bit snarky because I'm flustered. But again, I got exactly what I asked for, without knowing it. I went into the fast-food joint
and complained about the burgers, and lo and behold. A banquet. But a banquet takes time. I'll be thinking about what you wrote for a while. I'll chew
So, thank you, silent. That's all I can say. Once again.
Its a good thing you have your flaws, otherwise I wouldn't be able to respond at all. (And that's an even bigger roundabout complement from me, in
case you don't realize!
And so in that spirit, one peep of protest, if I may. In the face of your symphony of truth, allow me to pull out my humble
kazoo. Be it ever so humble, at least its mine.
And however inadequate and flustery and silly it makes me feel to respond to your symphony
with my kazoo, I also realize its a relief, to have a kazoo, after all. Because it means I'm me and not you.
So maybe you don't have to worry
so much about me after all? Dare I pipe up, with my kazoo-like...could you be projecting a teensy bit, mister man? I'm not going to fall off the edge
of the earth quite yet. Something for you to chew on. Maybe you can teach an old dog a few new tricks. If you have a dogwhistle. Or a kazoo.
But will come back to the banquet/symphony and work my way through it, kazoo or no kazoo. You're a heavy dude, ST. As I've heard you yourself say
about people you admire. It's a funny expression, and fitting. With all the positives and the negatives it entails.
And on that rusty little peep of protest in the face of a payload of truth, I will shift, or modulate
, lol, away from the kazoo and muster up a
string quartet, at least I can manage that, if not a symphony. (see, I can work the metaphor game too
) A nice string quartet, of humble thanks.
Not just for you, but for everyone
who has read or written something in this thread. A better way to end than a kazoo:
reply to post by Everyone in this this thread
It strikes me now, I've said "thank you" to every poster so far in this thread. And I meant it every time! And in a different way each time! How neat
is that! I'll get around to answering each one individually, but after silent's, that's all the heavy truth I can handle for today, at least. But keep
it coming, if you feel the urge to respond! The best is yet to come, right! Always!
This is the best thread for me since I left ATS last december for a few months to be with that awful man-boy, as I think of him. Not a single one of
you has been mean, and each of you has helped me in your own way with your comments here.
I'm not alone anymore!
The...public confessional...(what an awkward term, But fitting of course) works its magic when I needed it.
So... Thanks ATS. All of you. Makoto ni arigato gozaimasu
. "Makoto ni" is really the only way to say it, there is nothing in English
(especially American English) that carries the same sonorous, ancient gravitas of that expression. The conventional translations ("from the heart,"
"sincerely") fall short. I guess we'd have to go rummage around in Greek or Latin for that kind of dignity in the West. But I'm not studying Greek or
Latin, I'm here, in Japan
of all places. A place where the gravitas is still alive, alongside all the silly pop culture stuff that's more
noticible. I think in the end I like the gravitas Japan the best, although it's harder to digest. So: makoto ni
thank you all, ATS, every one.
from the heart. I'm not lonely anymore!
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