reply to post by AthlonSavage
Well, it makes me happy that our interactions in this thread have been helpful to you....they have been helpful to me too..
Who would have thought
a thread about devil worshping would lead to what I would call God's intervention on the road to healing for us both.
It is possible that Laura may have so many things posted on her FB, especially if it is a public page, that she really didn't understand you were
reaching out to her, but yeah, it doesn't look good, I'm sorry. I would take the time to reflect on what it was about her that caused such strong
emotions for you? I know you were attracted to her beauty, but there had to be more than that to become so infactuated with her. This will give you
more insight into what your looking for in a partner, and hopefully guide you toward the right woman for you, lol, and may I suggest you keep your
search closer to home !
I also had Woody draw me a card and do a reading in her Tarot thread here on ATS...she's good...my reading was amazingly accurate. My ex and I used
to love doing readings with his tarot cards and runes, I miss that
As for myself, I could use a reality check too, it scares me that I will never get over this guy and I have zero desire to meet anyone new. I have
been asked out on dates, but I'm not going to play games with other people, I'm still in Love, and casual sex isn't my thing, but I'm lonely to
feel a man's arms around me, his arms.
We actually were going to get together for a visit this mn and ended up having a fight, and haven't spoken since, and that seems to be what always
happens, no closure, old wounds that never seem to heal.....we are both hyper-sensative and the smallest things seem to trigger feelings we never
resolved. I feel he is often times cold and distant, and I guess he would say I'm needy and insecure...but I don't think I was that way before he
cheated so many times....I think he tried, but I don't think being with only one girl could make him happy, at least not me. He wanted kids, but I
was unable to get pregnant, he's only 40, maybe he could still have a family, and maybe I am being selfish to not just leave him alone.
I had a fantasy that he would read this thread and join in and declare his Love for me, that's most likely not going to happen. He's mad at me for
moving away, and the whole story is complicated, there's no way I could leave my family right now, and no way he will move here. We had plans to move
in together again, LOL, cause I guess we didn't learn our lesson the first time, maybe this time it would have worked, but now my Dad is sick, and I
am his main caregiver, and my sister is close by to help me. I understand why he doesn't want to live with my crazy sick Dad, but it is my duty right
I had hoped we could work out the distance issue and remain a couple, until my sister and I could figure out what to do, but there's nothing we can
do, he's too young and still healthy for the most part, it's his mind that is giving out, we're not going to put him in a home, she has a husband
and family, so he live's with me for now. I thought I would die when he asked me to send back his Grandma's ring, changed his status on FB to
single, and basically his life is no longer any of my business I guess. It just sucks, and it's sad.
Thanks for giving me a safe place to land today, and I hope you have a wonderful day....some girl in CA is sending you good vibes...and very much
appreciates the good vibes you have sent her.....