reply to post by MrUncreated
I don't know if it will help or not, but awesome username, awesome avatar, and very descriptive prose. You have a lot going for you already. In the
one paragraph you give fate the 2 middle fingers, but later you say you don't feel like you were supposed to be here at all. Well, to that, I say
keep giving em the finger, and keep on keeping on!
Whatever you are experiencing is for you alone to experience, and it is for your spirit. Christians say God doesn't give anyone more than they can
handle, but that is just stupid, of course he does! That is why some people don't make it. They give up hope. God gives you as much as you need to
develop your spirit in the ways it needs developed, but there is no guarantee you can endure the struggle or reach the evolution you need. Still,
don't give up. Never give up! If you are hurting, then you are still alive, still in the hunt, still experiencing whatever this existence has to
offer. No matter how bad it gets, if you are still feeling it, then you are still evolving, and you are still here, and you need to just embrace it.
It's not easy, it might never be. Expect the worst, and anything less will be a relief!
By the way, the original pain sounds like a kidney stone. You probably need a real hamburger!