The crucifixion was a marriage proposal.
If we accept this marriage proposal, we must become dead to this world.
To me, that was a scarier thought than hell.
I no longer believe in Hell, in the eternal fire and damnation sense.
My hell - without realizing it at the time - was my life before I could hear the Holy Spirit.
"Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it."