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Originally posted by ADHDsux4me
In regards to the biblical verses, the meek, and false prophets.
I can understand, why you would aside from the sideways glances, want to keep quite publicy about your gifts and predictions, but to play devil's advocate. I see you not going against god for having the gift, and using it for small personal things.
Now if you were to go on public TV, and unlock the secrets of the universe for everyone, that could be perceived as false prophetism.
However, You could clearly state how conflicted you are about it. You don't want to outshine the creator, but you feel you were given this gift to do work in his name, and that you are a just a conduit, and no more special than your everyday person. Also explain, to those who would listen keep the bible in their hearts, in no way do you want to overshadow Jesus or God. They chose you to have this, but their teachings are far superior to what you have to say, and take their word above all things.
As far as meek goes, I think humble would be a better explanation. Jesus was humble. But Old Testamet God Sure wasn't lol! BOOM Fire and Brimstone! New testamet, love and turn the other cheek. When did the paridigm shift happen? LOL
You were chosen to have what you have for a purpose. Is it to suffer with it silently, or is it to bring help to others through you gifts in the spirit of love your neighbor?
On that note, If I were to ask for some of your wisdom could you, and or would you help me?
I could use a little re-assuring on some things, and I would be honored and humbled if someone would. At many points in the last 10 years up to the now, I feel a futility, and could use a little help divining whether this is supposed to be this way.
We all exist in more than one world. ... maybe I'll write more about that someday.
Did you ever talk to those 'voices'? Just curious.
And you prayed to God but He *never* responsed?
I have a few suggestions, although may not useful.. Try to concentrate on something that ordinary people are doing, make friends with ordinary people, appreciate and talk with them on their interests. Get closer to the nature, and enjoy the peace of the nature. If what you are seeing and hearing are not due to psych problems, then you just have to shrug and take it easy, regardless of your lack of sleep. It is your world, and you would need to be generous to it. Maybe after spending some time on having fun you could sleep better.
Wow.... dotgov, I'm not experienced at all in this field and I don't know how to help you out, but that story is *really* fascinating, and has me amazed.
I know you probably have answered millions and millions of questions about the subject but I was just wondering if you possibly could have kept any of your art or writings? If so, would you want to share any of it? If not, thats cool too.
you are smart....i wish i was that smart like you =(.........ive got plenty of life to go i guess...............
as for your story it was the best story ive ever heard........i never met any1 with these "powers" or abilities heh i guess this is like a once in a lifetime moment.......and the title of your thread "a drugged veiwer" you are drugged but you are like.....almost immune except for the tranquilizers....which makes you just a veiwer
I read the entire thread and I wanted to comment. While reading your words, I get two impressions:
The views of a highly intelligent and opinionated individual.
The views of a scared, emotionally shocked 8 year old girl.
What I mean to say is, I see a lot of that little girl residing throughout your posts. I wanted to ask you some questions, please note I'm not trying to offend you, and you need not answer ANYTHING I ask if you'd rather not, this is more for you than for me in many ways.
1. When you first had this "poker game", you're stating that this "entity" was a real, physical manifestation in your room yes?
2. You got a "gift only you could see", and shortly afterward in a journal you had, you "met" this "protector" correct?
3. How many voices in your head can you identify, do each of them have names/ descriptive titles?
4. Can you, if you try really hard to, can you focus and call forth any of these "voices" at will?
5. You gave a very general overview of your home life as a child. I'd like to know what your feelings were to both of your parents. Which was your "favorite"? Was there any history of sexual, physical, or emotional abuse against you by ANYONE(father, mother, realative, teacher) before or during the initial contact of either the entity or the "protector"?
6. Was your father not only absent a lot, but also abusive towards your mother? What exactly made her leave him? Why did she decide to not take you with her? There may be a "root cause" to this you need to face.
7. This person you live with now, do they treat you like a woman, or like a little girl? Which do you prefer to be treated as?
8. Have you ever fully discussed these different voices with any of your doctors, have they every mentioned anything in relation to multiple personality disorder? I know your situation is not plainly indicitive of such, as you seem to not "act out" the voices in a first person manner, but I'd like to know, just the same.
9. Have the voices ever been mean, or spiteful? Do they ever wish for you to do illegal acts or exact harm or vengance on others? If so, how easy is it for you to "resist" those influences?
10. Have you ever tried to "control" these "voices"? Have you ever tried to silence them? How did they react? Were they mad at you? Did they act disapprovingly?
My best wishes to you DotGov, whatever you're dealing with, few if any of us can only begin to imagine. Best of luck to you dear.
Originally posted by ZeroDeep
5: Interesting, this number is very interesting. Amuk, another member of this site has had an odd experience with this number and little girls; i just had a similar experience with 5 women (26-34) a couple of days ago in my dreams. I was very distraught, and hope it never happens to another. I would suggest taking a look at our friend Amuk's thread: www.abovetopsecret.com...
My experience was very odd aswell: these 5 women were some sort of hit-women,and from what i can remember, they captured/killed 5 men and brought them to a hospital. I remember see a large room, very large, high ceiling. There were bodies on the ground, and the women were injecting needles into them; whatever the needles were for, i have no idea. One man seemed to have his legs decapitated, another was bleeding, no, the blood seemed old, but as if he had suffered light trauma. The next thing i remember is being under a surgical bed -- hiding under it --, but i could see the women, 2 women, dressed like nurses. One of there faces was clear, short lond hair, sharp features, very fit, and beautifull. The other was vauge, and only her hands and some of here body was visible. I remember a body on the bed, naked, and alive. The women whose face i could not see took a knife, and cut his penis off, all this time i could here screams of torture; i was absolutely scared stiff under the bed. The women whose face i could see looked up at a window, a noise had been made, as she looked up, i could see her face getting very tense, then changing into something very demonic, yet human. Frightening dream...
Life has an odd way of conveying itself, very odd way. I'm a student of Philosophy and Political Sciences (1st year), and in my occasional stroll through the library i came across a section dedicated to physcology and abnormal behaviour; " Understanding Schizophrenia ", for some odd reason, caught my eye, and i decided to check it out. I woke up around 2:30 in the morning last night and started to read it; from what i have read, you may be suffering from Schizophrenia. But, don't take my word for it, i've only read around 27 pages
Originally posted by MKULTRA
Hi Dot,
You are a mighty brave person, to be able to withstand the trials and tribulations that you have endured. I implore you to "hang in there", no matter what.
I have but one question for you said:
We all exist in more than one world. ... maybe I'll write more about that someday.
Could you please elaborate on this a little, if you have the time? I've been thinking about this very same subject lately..