I realize that the following will not please everyone. Perhaps it won't please anyone. C'est la vie; Que Sera Sera.
1. I earnestly confess, repent for and apologize for unnecessary contentiousness, anger, self-defense, and lack of sufficiently turning the other
cheek in my postings.
Repentance is primarily between myself and God. However, I once belonged to a church where a glib "I'm sorry" was not sufficient . . . and I felt they
made a good point. Repentance is about Turning From a flawed, destructive, sinful choice and TO a constructive, redemptive choice.
And, as I noted in my title, the offenses were public, so I think the repentance ought to be as well.
I realize that no list of my flaws or sins would be complete ENOUGH for some hereon. Tough tacos. This is my current reality and what I can earnestly
own with authenticity to my personhood and my values.
I think "self-defense" is a good weather-vane. It has been my observation that when I or others get TOOOO wound up in self-defense, then there's
probably too much emotionality involved. It's probably past time to let the wolves take all the bones and think of themselves as victors rather than
join in increasingly bloody gnawing and sharp-fanged ripping asunder.
That does NOT automatically mean I'll never write another single word or sentence in my own behalf.
[color=9999CC]By way of Definitions
. . .
I consider contentiousness too strong an element or component of arguing for the sake of arguing or for ego reasons or to prove that one's . . .
wellllll you likely get the idea.
I don't consider ALL ANGER to be wrong or evil. However, in a text based context over topics easily involved with intense passions . . . it's mostly a
I realize that my personality and style tend to foster other perceivers as labeling me as VERY ANGRY when I'm NOT angry at all.
Soooooo, it seems to me, I need to work extra hard at insuring that any occasional fitting anger is well and fittingly worded on ATS.
IF ATS is now decreeing that there are to be NO angry or angry appearing posts, then I'd appreciate it if someone would make that clear to me and I'll
do my best to make that adjustment, too.
For other things folks think or are convinced that I'm guilty of . . . I have no problem or little problem apologizing, repenting . . . even
publically, for things I authentically see myself as guilty of.
My own integrity to myself, to God and to others I relate to prevents me from apologizing for things I'm utterly convinced I"m NOT at all or
significantly guilty of.
I realize that mileage may vary.
We all have our own unique constructions on reality.
2. I don't know how many cheeks I'll have left to turn but I'll endeavor to earnestly do that in the future.
And, I'm not guaranteeing that all my postings . . . whenever I feel up to such again . . . will fit other folks' constructions on reality as "turning
the other cheek."
I don't see any Biblical mandate to always be a useless wimpy doormat.
Nevertheless, Christ meant what He said and I'll do my best to apply it in the ATS community in fitting, persistent, Redemptive, overcoming ways.
3. Springer's: "[color=33CCFF]Act with genuine and honest desire to discuss and share in a civil manner with respect for ALL points of view and you
have nothing to fear
Is MUCH easier for me to wrap my understanding and practical expectations around than all the other statements on that thread.
That's one of the more HOPEFUL sentences I've seen recently. I don't know how it will play out or be operationally manifested but at least that seems
practcial and doable--even for my strange cognitions and constructions on reality.
I do have a ton of '[color=9999CC]honest desire to discuss and share in a civil manner with respect for ALL' ATSers and thereby some significant
degree of respect for all their points of view
Expecting me to say that I believe that all points of view are
in my view
would not be a fitting expectation, imho.
Anyway--FWIW, there you have it.
If this is in the wrong category, I trust it will be moved to a more fitting one. This seemed to fit the most, to me.
edit on 10/4/2012 by BO XIAN because: forgot to change a word