posted on Apr, 8 2012 @ 08:13 AM
As long as you indulge your apathy, it will consume you, and it's only one of many 'real' experiences available out there that you can explore. I
will tell you this though, ATS is not the place to be if you seek to get out of this cycle of depression, as there are far too many mal-contents
roaming the threads here. Theirs is a life of negativity. I'd suggest getting away for a while, shut off your 'cell' if you have one, put it in
your pocket and abandon the internet for a while. Get away, and travel to a destination that includes quite a bit of time outdoors in a forest or
desert or whatever National forest is available in the area you are. Northwest? Southwest? northeast? southeast? I suggest you take a trip towards
four corners, Utah, Arizona, New Mexico, Colorado and camp outside in nature if you can, see what surrounds you, the like minded people you will
encounter, even if their likemindedness is between them selves. You needn't become same minded as them, but observe and be yourself, just be an
entity of your own creation. The experiance will define the wold around you. I would bet you'd make a connection, that would be a 'moment in time'
that you alone would encounter, a time with a spiritual meaning, an epiphany of sorts, an awakening to your own existence in time and your place of
intent or action. At a point like that, 'and it will manifest' you will begin to see where your place is, and what contributions or experiances you
will be part of. The collective that you are part of, that you make a difference in. the Nature around you. And he harmony which you are part of. I
think your perception of harmony has been abandoned, for what ever reason....Apathy, disapointment, loss or pure boredom.
I'm sure you will get the usual rants here, but they are part of the problem, their negativity is toxic. There on the other hand will be a couple
suggesting as I do, that you change your surroundings and seek a higher frequency of existence. A meaningful moment, even if only one of observation
of that that is around you, the harmony from which you can tap and replenish your diminished 'power', where you can meditate the exquiset
magnificence around you. There you can absorb and re-route your 'intention' towards something of value in the 'Cosmos' I'm not talking all new
age feathers and candles, mystic and guru stuff, but instead your own self there to absorb the awakening there for the taking.
................just a thought. Life at least provides the time to seek these things, where depression is only good to wait for an end. Don't fall
for the negativity, set yourself a quest, a roadtrip, alone or with a friend. Share the experiances and 'events' you will come across in your
journey. Journey now, or make your plan now and impliment it, get out and Go... "Gone beyond, gone beyond beyond, hail the traveler.