Alright, this is a CONSTANT bother to me. I might bore you at first, so stick with me... It doesn't seem like it, but I really do have a point.
I grew up with the most proudly ignorant types of people--wannabe gangbangers as cousins and ignorant rednecks as other family members. I swear, these
people take serious PRIDE in their stupid violent and retarded ways. Love to fight, love to hurt people, and love to act like they're doing it 'for
their family', and they swallow EVERYTHING they hear on the news. Your typical ignorant Southern American family... and I was the same as they are
when I was younger. And, because my cousins were guys and I was a girl, I had to kick some serious ass in whatever I did for them to take me seriously
and accept me, you know... like a wannabe gang. I even fought them once as an initiation thing. It was stupid, but I was 14 and looking for
acceptance, so don't judge me. I took pride in the same ignorance and violence, and spoke EXTREMELY stupidly, an accent I can only describe as
Then, a year or so after I moved away from them, I got involved with new friends--people who weren't pot headed wannabe gangster retards and who
actually knew how to speak, and I became more like them... then, met my boyfriend, who's very informed about things that are generally "above top
I freakin hated him for a while, because he'd tell me these things--these extremely depressing, horrible, evil things all the time, and it
ruined--f***ing SLAUGHTERED--my optimistic outlook on life. Then, I started seeing it--the holes in the logic in the stories on the news, the
symbolism, the general constant corruption in the ranks, and people, it PISSED. ME. OFF.
I had always hated authority, but only in a misbehaving teenager "no one's gonna tell me what to do" way. Now, I'm so deep into these things that I
can't go a day without finding a new conspiracy, speculating on it, and prepping for it. I feel like I have a lot of ignorant years behind me to make
up for--plus I have a family to look after (not so easy to do when you're my age, but whatever).
Now, its safe to say I'm completely opposite from how I was 4 years ago. I have to think deeply about everything--which is extremely frightening and
stressful to me, because I never used to allow myself to do that... it scares me. I speak much more intelligently... more or less... and My boyfriend
and a few friends are an organisation of teenaged conspiracy theorists who speculate, prepare, and spread the word. I'm totally proud of that,
Sometimes, I slip back into my old way of thinking without realizing it... the "it's okay, the world is your oyster, the rules are there to protect
you, and everything on the news is true" general outlook--the outlook of most Americans. But my family sees it that way--and I can't just leave my
family, because I have little siblings to look after, and I want to make sure they know the truths of the world as they're growing up so they aren't
shocked by it like I was. Being constantly surrounded by ignorance and bliss--by the people who taught it to me, the people who raised me--is so
freaking frustrating. I'll forget the truths and dark secrets for a while, and I'll become happy, and work hard on my classes in school, and start
thinking about jobs and college...
Then a friend will call me up and start talking conspiracies... then I'm like "Oh, yeah... I forgot... this world is evil and everything sucks..." So,
first I get angry and depressed, then I get on websites like ATS and start chatting and posting like a banchee and making new youtube videos to make
myself feel better, more like I'm taking action when I'm really not, kind of like I'm doing right now.
I guess my point is... between the world we see and the real world, there's always a line. On one side is the world's message and influence, the
"everything's fine, you should get an education and a job so you can have a bright future, and meanwhile, the government will take care of you and
fairies and pixies and unicorns..." and on the other side is a dark, but truthful voice, whispering all the horrible truths in your ear, every time
you look at that pyramid on the dollar bill, or the Roman pillars in your so-called Christian churches under big clay words that spell "A vision for
the world" and clay moldings of all the continents... the obvious NWO signals that everyone ignores because they're all in plain sight and no one
thinks they're out of the ordinary. And when I see them, that voice whispers in my ear and makes me want to point it out, and scream it to the world,
because I'm so frustrated that they can't see anything without being pointed to it.
Sometimes I forget about the truths... and I get drawn off by the dream-like trance the new world indoctrinates you with, and controls you with. I
don't want that, nothing pisses me off more than the thought of being controlled. And then, on the other hand, as much as I want to know the truth to
keep from being controlled, I hate to hear it. Everything about it angers me so much I just want to kill something... it's hard to ever be happy or
hopeful when you're exposed to that information.
Point being, where's the line between making yourself out to be like an all-informed conspiracy theorist and someone who's ACTUALLY taking action? All
of us are on these forums to make ourselves feel more in tune with the dark truths, and to feel like we're actually doing something, but when we log
off, how many of you store supplies, stock up on weapons, have a plan for every plausible SHTF possibility, and above all, stick your necks out there
to open more eyes?
How many of you believe whatever you're told, be it on ATS, or on Fox news? Honestly. And how many of you feel like the thoughts and ideas and the
whole world of conspiracies is just online, and when you log off and go to bed, or go to work, it's not there anymore? How REAL is this dark world to
I wonder if I'm the only one who has a problem with being led off into the world of ignorance... People like me, who are bred from ignorance, but who
try as hard as they can to break away from it, probrably always have this problem... feeling as though the world of conspiracies and the real world
are two different things. I could be wrong, but I doubt it.
Of course I don't wanna believe everything about the h1n1, freemasons and illuminati connections, population control, ect... but looking at the facts
in history, choosing not to believe it would be choosing to believe that all the connections linking those things with major world events and
monuments are just a million amazing coincidences. I'm not THAT gullible, OR stupid.
Look into the future, taking into account whatever conspiracies, NWO wise or otherwise, you actually believe in. Do you see everything the same way 20
years from now? That you'll have a job and a house and everything is fine?
Or do you see some demented ghost town of destruction, anarchy, death and martial law, centered around the all-seeing eye?
Or something in between?
My point is--how real are you about uncovering the truths, spreading the word, and surviving it? Seriously. Think on it.
Posting on forums with lengthy intelligent words doesn't make us special. Taking action does. Quoting David Icke, "Knowledge is not power... the USE
of knowledge is power."
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