posted on Mar, 31 2012 @ 11:22 PM
reply to post by ALOSTSOUL
I empathise greatly, I have always questioned the world and have an over whelming passion and need for knowledge. I have recently had a rather
difficult time with my parents over this part of my personality, my dad has called me a fruitcake, insane ect. This was over Christmas and like
yourself I suffer from panic attacks, they are a coping method and I see them as a physical alert from my body that I need to accept I am not ok. Kind
of like a warning signal that somethings wrong, so of course over Christmas I had panic attacks galore. I hate them but my philosophy is take the
warning and make time to look after yourself. The problem is when your eyes are open to the REAL world unless you are surrounded by like minded
people, I find you feel detached from things and can feel like you're going mad in normal situations, work ect. I am returning to university as a
mature student to study Sociology and Philosophy as I find it all fascinating and want to put my interests into something useful, but whilst
researching the course I came across a book called A treatise of Human Nature by the philosopher David Hume, I read a couple of pages that I have
pasted in below, it really helped me somehow. He talks about the mental battle you have when you have a questioning mind. Can I ask a personal
question, don't worry if you don't want to answer it but do you have a faith in your life? Through my interests on everything within the world, I
bought myself a bible to read up on revelations as I noticed a lot of people mentioning this within threads in relation to New world order ect,
however I have continued to read it and have found it a great comfort.
A quote I have always loved and I never knew it was from the bible until recently -
"Do not be conformed to this world, instead be transformed by the renewal of your mind."
"Never be afraid to fall apart, it gives us a chance to rebuild yourself the way you wished you had been before."