Were you trapped into theism by language?
Absolutely, I do think so. However, it depends on your experience.
A lot of theistic evangelical worship nowadays includes forms of self-hypnosis, natural releases of brain chemicals similar to opioids, and other
direct experiences caused by repetitions of mental hammering and releases.
Then there's popular forms of modelling behavior, including a belief that one is demon-possessed, and exorcism.
Since religion is pushed in film, the media and other daily forums, one is probably already somewhat conditioned before one engages in a conscious
debate with theism. Even the science channels today are largely based on programs about hauntings and the unproven supernatural, which often have a
religious subtext, for example.
Images and sensations are also important, however the ultimate form of bombardment is through language.
This could be good if the language has really convinced you of theism, but you seem rather uncertain.
This is good too, because it gives you time to research various perspectives again.
The self is a matter of flux and becoming and not a destination.
The only conspiracy against yourself is assuming a position you are not happy with.
You can exist happily and not be a theist, many atheists and animists do so, for example.
If you're not a theist it's only a personal conspiracy against the God or gods you choose not to accept.
And no theist accepts all of them.
So say you become a convinced theist in the Christian Trinity for example, you'd have to simultaneously become an atheist to thousands of others, like
Allah, Shiva, Zeus, Thor, Mithra and so forth.
edit on 23-3-2012 by halfoldman because: (no reason given)