posted on Mar, 21 2012 @ 12:42 PM
Hey bro, I've BEEN there ok? When I was 21 I hadn't been laid in almost FIVE YEARS. Still have no car. Never went to college. Almost every day I
have to ask myself if its time to put away my pride and apply for food stamps and welfare money. It's hard for me to work because of physical and
mental disabilities like a hurt back and depression and I've been told by a professional I probably have ptsd from finding my mom dead... I could go
on, but I don't want this to turn into MY rant. I never feel sorry for myself.
I always think about those who are wheelchair bound or worse, those who are homeless, those in 3rd world countries who are oppressed viciously,
those who live in areas that make Americas ghettos look like PARADISE! And I wish I could help them, and I do. Even though I am poor as F###, I find a
way to hand out gloves, hats, sandwiches, blankets, to the homeless in my area. And it makes me feel good. Not because I get to be around people who
have it worse than me, but because it makes my life feel like its worth something and I actually meet interesting, kind people. My own people.. Maybe
you should try getting to know the needy people in your area, people who can identify with your struggle. YOUR people.
I struggled with drug and alcohol addictions as a young man. But you know what I discovered? Life is a series of peaks and valleys. I admire the
proverb used by Hispanics that goes "Smile now, cry later." (sometimes "laugh" is used in place of "smile") I used to never understand it, until
I realized it really continues to say, ....then smile again, then cry again, then smile, then cry, then smile, then cry... And so on until the day you
die. As you get older and gain wisdom and experience, you learn to deal with the crying moments better, and you learn to make the most of the
laughing/smiling moments and make them last longer. Things WILL get better if you keep trying.
Unless there is something about you that you stubbornly refuse to change that is making people not want to be around you. Life is all about
relationships with the other people you must share this earth with. Do you respect their right to an opinion? Do you SHOW that respect? Do you have
annoying habits that drive people away, like getting too drunk at parties, or refusing to shower, or biting your toenails in public? Life is also
about constant self improvement. This is mostly mental self improvement involving the things you say and do when in certain situations.
A lot of girls are not into guys with tons of muscles. I have the finest girl I've had in my life and she doesn't care that I'm slightly pudgy,
and have no six pack abs... I used to have no self confidence, and girls saw through the false confidense that took it over the edge like I was the
coolest most badass guy ever. Just be yourself. Admit where you are not the best. But don't whine to them. I treat my girl like a princess. That's
what matters most, I think, is how you treat them. And you don't have to have tons of money or be Bruce lee, they just have to see that you love them
enough that you will do Everything in your power to take care of them and protect them and make them feel special and loved.
Get some comet or bleach and clean out that moldy basement. Or find another place to live that cost around the same.
Think of what you do have. Parents able and willing to pay rent? Holy sh# man, you're so effen lucky! both my patents are dead and gone and the rest
of the family disowned me during my drug and alcohol abusing years due to their super Christian abilities. No I never stole from them or Anything like
that. They just heard I was drinking and drugging and that was IT.
You're in college right now? Holy sh# man, you're gonna have a way better chance at earning a living than I ever will!
I promise you this, one day you will look back on this and laugh. Meanwhile, men, women and children in Africa will continue to starve and catch AIDS.