Fifth year Journalism student on academic probation. If I don't get my grades up, I am suspended from my university. I get A's in my major courses,
but do horribly in non-major classes. Currently, the worst I am doing in is Accounting.
I have no car.
I haven't been laid in over year.
I have a [snip], leaky, crooked, horribly built 1 bedroom apartment my parents pay for because I am over $100,000 dollars in debt and can't hack it.
If I got a job, I wouldn't be able to get my school work done. Without a job, I have to keep asking my parents and this makes me feel incredibly like
a guilty, worthless mooch. The closest store I can get groceries from is Dollar General.
The only place I can afford to do laundry, is my landlords moldy basement. My clothes either get dirtier or their stains move to other spots.
I want to exercise and gain back all the muscle mass I used to have, but that requires more and better food than I can currently get - and
subsequently money I do not have.
The only real friends I have ever had are the ones I met here in school and they are literally all leaving me come May. I may never see any of them
again. Alaska, Pittsburgh, Portland...
I have no cable. My TV sits on my carpet floor. I have no couch - only a single, puke green lazy boy.
My dog that I see only when I come home is going deaf and blind. His legs are weakening, and his fat lumps are growing. He is most likely dying.
My brother got a $60,000/yr job right out of college and is now married to a beautiful and charismatic girl who is younger than all the girls I have
had sex with, and that is not many.
If I drop out of school, I get to go back home to suburbia, surrounded by idyllic families living their dreams, whilst I will probably be working
indefinitely at Ace Hardware.
My only passions are photography, playing guitar and listening to music. I used to write, but have not had any inspiration in the longest time.
I have never felt so worthless.
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