I may have the same problem as you do but I don't call it a disease or anything near it. Today people have fallen further apart from each other due to
the vast amount of technology that can occupy your mind. I've never had a friend to hang around with as my "best" friend since I was little but it
still wasn't an issue. I have no "schoolmates" that I hang around with but it's still great the way I am.
A re-read your text and It just popped in my mind that I've had the same symptoms just as you did when this all started, I felt bad waking up in the
morning because I couldn't fall asleep at night, the stress just kept building up, it felt as if the heaven was on your shoulders. My heart became
weaker, my pulse became stronger during random times for example when I saw violence and etc. I was doing good living a perfect life, but the stress
just broke my plans apart and I had a tough time finding my way back.
You want to know how I got through it? Basically I've stopped hard studying for the time being because it only builds up more stress. Maybe I can
continue in a time when my mind is settled.
I kept thinking about the future how it's going to be that it's going to be hard and I won't make it. I thought what's the point of studying and
working when you're only going to die. But it's absolutely wrong to think this way, your only downing yourself seriously hard. If you know that you're
eventually going to leave this world some day, why not make the best of it?
I advice you to not take any kind of MEDICINE and therapy. Your family is the best therapy there is, when you're always down they are the ones willing
to help you stand up again. I think that they are you're solution to removing this mental "disorder", It's only made up in your brain. You have to
find a way to crush those thoughts inside your brain. Something that makes you happy, that keeps your thoughts off this world.
I can understand what you're feeling, I've lived through a war and fled to another country to live in peace. But apart from that my life as a
"perfect" and healthy student has been the worst part of my life. No one is perfect and no one will be, we all do mistakes. The wise guy is the one
that sees it and fixes it.
I can feel the burden on your shoulders and I hope you will get some ease.
The only thing that brought my chin up and kept me thinking positive was my belief in Allah. I do my daily prayers and do what I'm suppose to do, and
even If I fail to achieve in this world what's considered "education" then I can satisfy myself by knowing what's waiting for me in the next life.
A last tip, try to get outside as much as you can, If you don't have a hobby, try to jog at night, 15 minutes a day and then perhaps increase? I would
say that something that keeps your mind of off thinking is a good solution to your problem. Fix a goal for yourself, perhaps loose some weight if you
need it or build abs if you just want a goal. Do something that makes you think that you've actually achieved something! And keep your chin down, just
to not show pride above others, but keep your spirit up and always smile to others.
Volume 7, Book 71, Number 582: Narrated Abu Huraira: The Prophet said, "There is no disease that Allah has created, except that He also has created
You'll find your medicine soon enough brother, keep your spirit up.
PS: pm me if you have any questions, Peace again lol
sorry if I made it to long to read.
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