reply to post by Realtruth
So... now that I'm aware of Tinnitus, and Carotid artery dissection, I will never partake in consuming a particular substence in which enduced it...
coming to the conclusion, what I experienced was Objective tinnitus, mixed with light headedness and dizziness.
Kinda crazy considering, I at one point thought to myself... "This must be what it feels like before dying."
I'm not convinced that this is absolutely the case, but it fits.
So anyways.... at this time there was a loud pulsating sound, that was the loudest ringing sound that I have ever heard in my life, it replaced all
sound. I even tried snapping, and could barely hear it, it was almost as if what I was hearing was my own manifesting of the snapping sound. So then I
began to meditate, and I was noticing moments of control, and was able to control the tempo of the ringing, and almost slow the 'rings' to a 10-20
ring per minute speed. But every time I lost focus, it speed right up, to such a speed that it sounded like one note.
Laying there, I put my hands to my face, and noticed that I could hear my watch. That's when I focused on matching the ringing to the ticking of my
watch. Then wallah!, 5 minutes of this, the ringing all but vanished. This ringing sound was no joke, and took over my cognition worse than any
migrane I have ever experienced.
Earlier in the day, I was in the laundrey room, while a friend was in the other room, talking on his phone. Randomly the word Santa, and then Santa
Clause entered my mind. Next to follow were the lyrics to Jingle Bells. lol. Less then 3 mins. later, I walked out of the laundrey room, at the same
time my friend ended his phone call. He IMMEDIATELY started singing the lyrics to Jingle Bells.
I then asked him if he spoke the words Santa Clause, or the lyrics to Jingle Bells during his phone conversation. Wondering if it was something he may
have said, that got me thinking about the topic. The answer was no, and that's when I told him about what I was thinking about moments earlier. We
still have no idea what may have brought this moment into being.
About 3 weeks ago, I was in a slight fued with a friend over work, and the lack of hours he was contributing to what needed to be accomplished. Him
being the welfare state type, always sucking on the nipple of govt. I was thinking of ways to explain to him the pursuit of happiness, work, and
alienation(both Marx, and property). As well as thinking of the over all structure that society is dependent on, how it was created, why, and what
purpose these efforts will have in the future.
Next thing you know, I yell at him to come out and get to work. He comes down stairs, and starts in how the entire morning he just layed in bed,
thinking about all of the exact same topics that I stated above. Amazingly, he expressed his views, that were an almost exact carbon copy of what my
philosophy and attitude is towards work, happiness, and the future. This was drastically different from what he had been preaching over the previous
couple of days.
Next, I was having a conversation with a friend of a friend, who has been diagnosed with MS. He is very well versed in the bible, and is actively
involved in his church. His main passion, for the rest of his life, is exposing the truth behind the ruling powers that have contributed to the
current situations that humanity is facing. When I told him I was fully aware of many of these elitest, and know that it goes far beyond the American
government, he was very pleased.
Then came the conversation about Muslims, and Christians. In which he expressed a very defined stance in regards to how the 'infedels' and muslims
must be stopped, and yada yada yada.
I then started to quickly think of points I could make, and references that I could use to combat his stance. I thought of a few things Jesus had
said, also words found in the Bible(no, i'm not a christian(totally different beliefe of god)). Then also thought about works of Francis Bacon, and
St. Augustus in regards to 'Just War' theory, some MLK, and others. The next thing I know, he's recanting everything he had previously said, and
started using the very same references that I was going to use. I was amazed... I don't know if it was me, or if he came to this reasoning by
himself. He even brought up a lot that I was unaware of, in regards to how these philosophies were constructed, and what they derived from.
Maybe none of these events were anything special, but for me... it only goes to show the true power of thought.
Maybe I'm a Jedi, and I don't even know it lol. Any one want to become my padawan?
don't worry, I wouldn't either