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posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 08:31 PM
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AnonymousKid,
First of I am going to start by stating the fact that everything you just wrote to me, resonated with me.
I will secondly state that you, my new friend, for being 17, 18, are extremely intelligent and articulate beyond your years! I find it fascinating! I am happy to meet you!
Also, I am thankful to read yet another reply, of another person experiences things similar to mine! To learn what they learned or gained from it, and how it effected them.

I do thank you again for taking the time to read my story and write such a well written response to me. You are fascinating and I feel I could talk you if I ever met you in person as well. I am impressed with the amount of things we hold in common. I hope we can use that advantage to help each other in any ways we may need.

I enjoy hearing about you asking your presence to basically prove to you, it wasn't yourself making it up, which I have tried and tested myself before.
The fact you learned something so cool and simple, yet complicated and known to you at the time, proving you were not 'messing with yourself' so to speak, is great!

I am also happy to have met someone else who thinks as positively as you do about the 'Ascension'. I too have researched and studied for a while on that subject. I thank you for the links and I will study them further!
I would really enjoy to learn more about you and hear what made you come to be this way, being enlightened at 17, and being as for sure in yourself as you are today writing this post. You seem very well grounded and positive in your theories and beliefs and it is quite enviable.
Please keep being such a cool person! You are very interesting to say the least!
I think you are the perfect type of person who can stick to your beliefs, and ascend to a higher state of content well being.
Thank you so much for stopping by, sharing similarities, and stories! Do not ever hesitate to u2u for cool conversation on your cool happenings and life!
I will get back to you as soon as I research your links further!




posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 08:43 PM
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GilesCampbell,
Thank you for taking the time to actually read my post and respond, since you are not on here a lot, I am flattered. Please do come back and further discuss these things with me! I am thankful that you came here for my reassurance.
I do however, feel your pain on the seeking help, and when doing so, doping you up to the point of exhaustion. That was one thing, extremely hard to deal with on medications. When you are literally diagnosed to the point its hard to get up some days. I was a lazy zombie is what I was I'll tell you that. I do not believe Bi-Polar disorder would bring on those types of eye opening side effects, I believe you should take what you experienced however you want to without a doctor telling you how to take it.
I will further check out your page to learn more about you! And hope you stay in touch to tell me more none-the-less!
Taking the time to write one post was all I needed. I am happy to meet you. Thanks again for taking your time reading my story!



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 09:07 PM
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That bird and fish die off was'nt that in Arkansas a couple of years back? Or was there another die off that i have'nt heard of yet?



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 09:26 PM
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lokdog,
Thank you for taking the time to read my story and respond! You happen to be very very observant, my friend!
However, the massive bird and fish death was not restricted to one state. I do believe the number of Arkansas animal deaths greatly exceeds states around it.
I do find the whole situation of great worth to futher investigate. However, concerning the fact they will never come out and tell us what is happening, we will have to try and figure it out ourselves! I am determined.



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 09:29 PM
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You have a U2U



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 09:34 PM
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Hellas,
I will read and respond to all of my u2us, as soon as it allows me without giving me the "Flood control..." page upon clicking reply!
I will respond to everyone ASAP



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 09:43 PM
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Thankyou for your post Katharos. You sound like a nice person



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 09:54 PM
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I read your whole post and enjoyed it, you've had a very interesting life so far. god knows what else is in your future haha, but im sure you cant wait to find out. Judging by your experiences and your reactions to them I reckon I can say with confidence that you're gonna be alright, just keep following your path you're paving yourself and you'll be fine. your attitude is correct, don't trust anyone, but respect everyone, and don't ignore your intuition cuz it will literally save your life countless times

i can relate to a hell of a lot of what you've said, especially your opinions on religion. and i've shared some of your experiences with dreams/sleep paralysis/sickness/chemtrails/"alien" encounters

i believe that people like us are here to participate in this consciousness shift everyones talking about. because you cannot deny that we think very very very very differently to our parents and grandparent's generations. so different it's almost..... alien


you cant deny that one epic story is unfolding here for humanity and i'm honoured to be a part of it. and anyone who talks you down or cant understand where you're coming from are just men and women of the past, stuck in cyclical thought patterns that have held back earthly civilization for millenia

just remember friend, you're not crazy, all the other motherf*ckers out there who attack you for these thoughts are the crazy ones! what the hell is so wrong with thinking outside the box anyway? even if you WERE crazy, you're not hurting anyone. where do they get off telling you that how you're living is "wrong"? you should be pitying them, not they you, because they're the ones stuck inside this hopeless materialistic life where they will never comprehend their own significance/power let alone yours. what a lonely life. they lose out here, not you. you're one of the few here on planet earth who are open and sensitive to the metaphysical things our "civilized" species has denied to our own detriment for only god knows how long. time for a change! screw the haters! it's YOUR positive energy that's gonna make a righteous difference in this section of the universe, not their negativity!

there's no peace without unity! we're all included in that formula, and the sooner we realize it and stop fighting one another over petty disagreements the sooner we can actually be proud of our people for once instead of fearful of them. stay strong soul soldier you're in for a hell of a ride by the sounds of things (we all are) but would you have it any other way? sounds to me like the groundwork for a very interesting life has been laid out for you. have fun



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 10:00 PM
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Wow...an awesome post to say the least. This made my evening. I haven't experienced anything close to some of the stuff you talk about....but I have had a fascination with the "unknown", metaphysics, hidden human potential, etc. for a long time and I believe what you were writing about. I used to experience lucid dreaming a lot along with sleep paralysis. I've had similar experiences with some sort of dark "entity" while in that state; it's not pleasant to say the least.

However, I think we have many undiscovered gifts that remain buried because of a world we live in that is based on lies....western medicine, psychology, science, and especially religion. Our great "institutions" and "leaders" would be out of a job if we knew the truth of this universe and what we are really about. I wish I had some of the perception you have but I realize that we have what we have for our own reasons and learning levels. Thanks for posting!
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posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 10:42 PM
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Thank you, your sharing is nothing short of beautiful.



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 11:12 PM
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Wall of text. Couldn't you have said what you needed to say but make it shorter? I don't think many people have 3 hours to read an essay.



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 11:39 PM
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RevelationGeneration,
Thanks for your opinion! Like I said, I respect every single persons opinion on here!
However, I do sometimes feel my mind moves very fast, I am able to think, speak and write at a very fast pace that makes some people who can not keep up and comprehend uneasy.
I do wonder though, do you read? Do you open a book and stop at page 6, to go, these are too many words, I suddenly have no effort to understand what this text is saying?
I thank you for at least attempting to read my story, even if you found it frustrating. To be honest, this thread is very short compared to what I originally wrote and wanted to say.
I do long to meet individuals, who can keep up with me mentally, and comprehend a 6 page story.. I do believe childrens books have more pages than my thread. I also believe I have actually met quite a few people here the last few days that can keep up, thankfully!!

I do however apologize for causing your frustration! If you do want to discuss anything in my thread, instead of about my thread, I am very happy and open to opinions!!
Thank you for stopping by and posting!



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 11:41 PM
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are you h



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 11:41 PM
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Subscribed to read later, just wanted to say that your were born 2 weeks after me.


Edit: Also, I've glanced at your background about 10 times thinking it was a white dress on a bamboo hanger
Then I took a closer look. Funny how my mind does that...
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See, I did it again. It's not even your background, it's your avatar. Thought it was all one. Nice blending Haha
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posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 11:43 PM
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Thank you so much arcanewings!



posted on Mar, 13 2012 @ 11:54 PM
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Explanation of Chemtrails : Mosquito Spraying.
Explanation of Dreams of Osirus / Iris : You have been slowly understanding how life works.
Explanation of Healing with the Mind : Everyone can do it, all you have to do is absorb the energy around you. (If you understand what I mean, please do help explain what I'm trying to inform those who haven't yet experienced the absorbing of energy).



posted on Mar, 14 2012 @ 12:04 AM
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When I was younger some things happened to me that I don't even quite understand, I devoloped weird traits. When I was five they thought I had ADD because I didn't focus, but later they would learn I didn't pay attention for different reasons. It's not so much I'm not paying attention, but when I am alone I can quite often get lost in my mind. I just stare and if someone asks me something I will look to them and tell them about an amazing dream I just had. I guess it's just really vivid day dreams, but I have what they call escapism. If I'm unhappy, or depressed I try to remove myself from myself. Kind of a dissasociation. Anyways, sometimes I don't mention, it wasn't real, I day dreamed it. So when I tell you about the daydream I was having fighting vikings, or talking to a dead guy. People think you're nuts.... Well, when I told my dr this. He didn't think it was right. So I got put on medication, did counseling and they thought I was developing schizophrenia, But at such a young age !!!!! I know, this was fixed later on. How ever then one night I got sleep paralysis, and outside my room I swear I saw this witchy looking shadow hang it's . out of my attic. I flipped nutsack and started getting paranoid and wouldn't sleep. So wouldn't you know it, stronger medication. Eventually they had me so god damn doped up I spent a lot of time in my own world in my .. Auto pilot, no emotions, little reaction. A pretty little blonde green eyed android. So eventually as I got older I didn't want to take my medication. It hurt my stomach, and went you don't have emotions, or care what people think pain is the only thing that does matter. Not, to mention it's hard to be uncomfortable when you don't have any one to distract you.

School was incredibly difficult. I was in my ., my body just moved but I didn't want to interact. So, one day I started not taking the meds. As well, the old Dr. Braun was retiring, and I had a new doctor. A lady, who listened to me. I told her the meds hurt my stomach. I told her I couldn't feel anything, that I didn't understand things, so people thought I was stupid, but I just couldn't be bothered. So she decided to re-evaluate me.. It was found that a bigggg mistake was made. Mostly on the part of my family, the dr and myself for explaining things as a child might.... SOOOOOOOOO

As I get off the medication, start to make friends and see counselors it was found, that I'm just a little different. I have an " extremely vivid" imagination. I saw, my wolves under my bed as a Kid. I pointed and said doggy... This freaked the hell out of my parents. Their vulnerable, cute boy saw Dogs. What would a little kid confuse for Dogs with red eyes. Oh, maybe Rats. They ripped the room apart looking for them, but there weren't any. I knew they were wolves, my wolves. My mom, said when she lived at home, as a teenager she saw this weird witchy thing in her attic at her mothers house. When she hit 18 and graduated highschool she met my father, at a ripe 20 years old my mom had me, and in the hospital one night before I was born. She got paralyzed, and this evil dark menacing shadow was at the end of the bed. It then climbed up on the bed and grabbed her leg, she snapped upright in bed screaming for it to go away. The next night at midnight I was born.

As a teen, in highschool I had my regular woes, but my vivid dreams became lucid. I learned how to get into my own world. A world, where I was in control. Later, I learned to go even deeper, and leave this world. Have out of body experiences at will. This was Amazing, and today I hone these skills further with the Enochian meditation. Anyways, as I started " Traveling " I started become twisted, and distanced. I started to resent my reality, I hated the world, and I felt unsatisfied with my body. So I started building my own worlds in my lucid dreams, and searching for something better in the astral. I spent my time cursing the world, hating this living prison, when there was all this wonderful universe, and different realms to be explored. My negativity, started to attract dark things. Truly, evil nasty things. I would have sleep paralysis and see these dark menacing beings that would watch me. They would just stand there and watch me. The scary part was, sometimes I would fight it, and they would come and I would awake and try to get up to confront them, or throw my phone or glasses of water from my nightstand. I'd wake up and the door would be open.

Now this should be terrifying on it's on, but I can't help myself. I have to know why they are here. What they want, why are they looking at me... So Genius, rebelious Ilyich. 19 and master of his many worlds. I decide to start communicating with them. I start with my girlfriend, we play with a ouiji board. Nothing fantastical, but it starts me craving more..

out of room. P#1



posted on Mar, 14 2012 @ 12:06 AM
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Originally posted by Katharos62191
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Awakein,
That is alright, I do understand! Considering I have met some people that are diagnosed, who are completely off their rocker, so to speak. So I do not feel you should have to explain yourself for a completely legitimate response.
You're welcome for the compliment, it really is cool. It reminds me of one of my favorite old movies, A.I... just with Obama instead. Hope all is well and that you have a great day!


For fun, I'll explain my avatar for you and other non-Trekkie folks. Ya see, in Star Trek TNG, There is a race of beings called the Borg. They are basically a collection of races that have been encountered throughout the galaxy and assimilated, then fitted with these electro-mechanical ability-enhancing gizmos masquerading as crappy props.

Captain Picard gets nabbed by the Borg and gets assimilated into the hive. He becomes the official spokesperson of the Borg due to the fact that he is already bald and it saved them a lot of time retrofitting him with the obligatory skull plumbing and were very appreciative. Plus it was more scary to the crew of the Enterprise.

To elaborate - the Borg operate as one mind among all of the beings of the collective. They are incredibly powerful and if your race encounters the Borg, it's curtains for you - hope you enjoy the new flexible PVC sticking out of your . and the pasty complexion.

Anyway, they are all powerful and they assimilate everyone into the hive-minded collective, and as they happen upon you as you are snacking on Doritos and watching Oprah, They (through their new spokesperson the former Captain Picard, now known as Locutus) have but one thing to say to you:

You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile.

And they aren't kidding.

So you can see the parallel that I've made between the evil Borg and Obama, as his agenda quite mirrors that of the Borg: To assimilate all of us into a socialist collective against our will, surrendering all of our thoughts and decision-making to the collective (government).

In the show, the humans triumphed against the Borg. How life imitates art....




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posted on Mar, 14 2012 @ 12:29 AM
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PArt #2

So this young asian girl I meet in Royal westminister Combat Engineers, introduces me to this game she used to play with her siblings and family. I can't remember the name, or where she is from but you write the words on the page with pen, then use a pencil and draw a circle saying. Pujin tabee pujin tabee washa say gra say. Repeating those words, then the pencil will stop and hold erect. it will then move and circle the alphabet characters, numbers or other things written on the page. This works best, two people on the pencil resting between the finger tips of the two hands. The pencil will move with the accuracy and force of a writer balanced between the tips of fingers... This gets weird. We get supposed spirits in my house, who tell me about themselves. Right out of a horror movie. I never see these ghosts, at least not yet. I then want even more, but I don't get time until my early 20s. second year in the service, one more to go. Don't get the time to play childish games....

After I finish my time, I get to go home. My family is so happy to see me, I talk about the tings I was taught by Sgt, Menzies ( I think she was phillipino.) My mother immediately says, oh you've been auto writing !!! She talks about these women her and my aunt know. I learn how to autowrite by myself, and these women warn me to be careful what I'm inviting in. This scares me, I can open a door and not close it.. Ooooo yeah okay. I'm all powerful right ? So I stop anyways, because my mother asks me too. Eventually the shadows start to get bored. I see less of them, and eventually they stop coming.

How ever, one night as My girlfriend at the time and me were trying to go to sleep. Just as I'm about to drift off I see this girl at the end of my bed. In a knee length white night gown. I shoot up and she isn't there. This kind of freaks me out a bit. Well, eventually I start catching glints of light out of the corner of my eye. Things start getting a little weirder. I feel like someone is around. Sometimes when I come in a room, I kind of get that feeling someone just left the room, or is around the corner 5 steps a. of me. Eventually I have a really weird dream and in it there is this little girl with brown hair. I don't dream about her specifically. I just see her as a minor character. I don't think much of it, but me and my GF decide to give autowriting another go. The person who we are talking to calls herself Doop, well at first. I am later to find out she is called doop because she has six fingers.... So doop, tells us she died. Young, can't remember the age or if I asked. She's not from here, I think she said she was greek or something like that. Anyways, she draws her hand, with six fingers. ( we asked her to draw herself... Pencil and page it looked childishly creepy... So I become fascinated with my new friend Dajni. I learn to love her like a sibling. I know she isn't real, and I seldom do I mention her. I begin to autowrite on my own again, and start getting into wicca, chaos magick, druidism, runes, meditation and of course my visits to my perfect world as well as other worlds further and more amazing then ever.

I meet my wolves, I meet a man named Ghaylan who has lived many lives and is a fierce warrior. Through my meditation I learn to communicate with my guides, and as well with Dajni, and eventually the shadows come back. Creeping on my walls, slinking along the roof. Standing and staring at me. I start to feel immensely ill. I start to look iggy pop esque, my now black hair in a huge notted 80s rocker mess... My mother thinks I'm on drugs. I feel so drained all the time. I never sleep for fear the shadows will watch, but I keep meditating. I keep autowriting. Eventually I start to see things while I'm awake. People, standing and watching. When I go out back for my smokes, I see a man in the rodadendrin.. a perfect outline shadow. A man, in a bowler holding an umbrella. Just staring. I start to see people at my fence peeping through. A girl with messy blonde hair, super cute but I can never see her eyes. This progresses and I Start to hear the Fey in my garden at night. Eventually, I start to see two very large white wolves in the yard with me. I have two dogs, so they aren't other animals my shepard hound crosses have ripped squirrels, moles and coons to pieces, they would be baying and freaking out if a real flesh and blood animal was there. Besides, they noticed them and respected them, I was the alpha, then the wolves, then my dogs. The Alpha, then the adults.... As well, a large strange giant of a creature. Incredibly shy, and not very pleasant to the eye, later which I would learn to be an Angel would talk to me from beyond the bars on my deck. Always partially obscured, and always in the shadows. I can see it, but it's shy and wise.

out of room end of part #2


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posted on Mar, 14 2012 @ 12:31 AM
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hi i have never before typed a single word on ats even though i have been visiting this site for many years now i coudnt even tell you how many.since u took a gamble and posted this thred i will write this.every single thing that happens in this world happens for a reason ''reason'' is the fundamentle principle for everything that exsists every action and reaction start and end with reason.you me and god exsist due to reason.believe it or not we are all the same, i wish i could save u all but i cant and that kills me everyday.there is only one thing that seperates us and that is understanding or not understanding.to tell u the truth i feel like an idiot just saying all this but maybe theres more of a reason for me to rather than not.hope this helps u that is my only reason.understand reason and reason understanding.
you have made the right choice.

''he is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose''




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