reply to post by Katharos62191
Another reason I am here.
I have been told I was born without the vail. Doctors called it Schizoprhenia, and proceeded to dope me up from a young age. For such a person who
seems 100%, if you met me you would no want to put me on any man made pill. I am fine. I just see and hear things others do not. Let me go ahead and
state I haven't taken the meds I was perscribed back then, for years now, it did nothing but cause kidney problems and chemical imbalances. My family
and I are all thankful I am living again healthily and awake, off my meds. I was a zombie. I do NOT believe I am or was Schizo. And have had multiple
doctors second that opinion. Nor do I believe a lot of people who are told they are, are.. I believe we are perceptive in a way others are not yet.
And doctors do not like to hear this. My doctor the older I got, when I requested to remain off medications, agreed, but proceeded to pry and ask me
what I would see or what I was being told. Truth is she knew, I wasn't lying. And she wanted to know more. However, I felt like a lab rat after the
years of different horrible concauctions she put me on before this time, so I got out of there asap, not letting her study me any further. (She was
literally studying me) Multiple times she told me over the years I have experienced very crazy things and that my life was in no way Normal, and she
proceeded to write pages and pages on me. I will never know where they will go or what they will be used for.
I will always remember one thing she told me though.. Is that I have one foot out of the door of reality and one foot in, where do I want to go? How
do I want to live? Fortunately I don't think I had the ability to choose, I think life just stepped me in the direction it made for me anyways. Which
is one foot in the real world and one foot out..
And to be honest.. I like it that way. I do not think like others. In all honesty that is fine
I do believe in Spirits, Ghosts,entities, passed away family members and friends contacting people etc. And I have had an entity of some sort recently
follow me from House to House, to apartment. Only furthering my opinion to believe, even when I am alone, I am not alone. Just because I can not
optically perceive something fully and physically, does not mean it is not there. I do believe, my fathers mothers, my grandmother, who passed away
this last year still tries to reach me and communicate with me on a almost weekly basis. With her signs and communication, this last time she lead me
to an old box I found, full of her jewelry and notebooks. It is one of the most important things to me right now, and I wear her ring every day. I
will not take it off but to shower and other things. I feel her around me, and I feel other spirits as well. I know they are trying to tell me more. &
for the time being, I am always trying to further my perception to them. One spirit however that has followed me home to home, I can not tell its
intentions. I have had strange feelings of more extreme presence when showering, changing, laying in bed etc..Then to feel like someone is always
looking over my shoulder when in deep moments of study or thoughts. I literally feel as if some times, when I am alone and all the roomies have left.
That I am still never alone, I have never felt alone alone. If that makes sense. But this last spirit, entity thing, not of my grandmother, but
another, literally will blow my hair in front my face, (especially when I am ignoring it) when there is not current in the room, or Ill feel a hand on
my shoulder, almost every time I cry here. I can not tell if I am being consoled, or mocked.
Point being, they are real. I know a bunch of you will throw in the mental illness flag like I see you guys to do people who have real experiences of
seeing things. But I know first hand, what I see, feel and hear is real. I question its existence no longer, but embrace it.
edit on 12-3-2012 by Katharos62191 because: trying to make my post more easily readable to members