posted on Mar, 11 2012 @ 05:49 PM
So more inside info, but this is not eye witness - but I guess I still have more inside scoop than others would.
The guy was KNOWN at WPI - He was a patient there, at least once prior, only months ago. He had a bag of pills with him - that was the "suspect
package" which required the bomb squad to go apechit. I suspect the bag was full of all the medications he was given on his way out when discharged
from there. The story we all heard, as I was leaving the hell hole, was that the shooter was a former patient who came with the intention of shooting
the doctor who treated him while he was there.
Looking over some comments following my reply earlier -
- There was NOT a hostage situation, however a patient MIGHT have called in a fake tip to the news before the hospital lockdown was complete.
- He was ID'd by the prescription bottles they found in his bag - at least this is what the staff assumed once we found out he was a former patient,
and he had a bag of pills with him.
- Many patients, including me, are on SSI (Supplemental Security Income) - I was in the medical alert/isolation ward of WPI. Everyone on the floor
had their own medical problems, aside from whatever psychiatric conditions brought them there. On my floor, I met 4 people who were there willingly.
They have major medical issues, and often times treating medical problems on top of psychological disorders can be a neverending pill game. When they
hit a crisis, they check into the hospital and stay there until the doctors can find a better drug combo for them. One guy willingly there has been
there for 2 years now - he has no plans to leave, because he would only go to a nursing home.
I guess I am lucky - the meds I am on usually work fine, but following my medical #up 2 years ago, I now have even more problems than before to throw
into my mix. The FDA recently lowered the allowed max daily dose of one of my meds, Celexa, to 40mg in 24 hours. I have been on 80mg a day for
years... but I have managed to avoid the heart damage they now say it can cause.
What do patients do when their health gets worse, and the have literally DOZENS of doctors working on them that are rarely in communication with
eachother? Each doctor, each specialist, has their own medications to push... each one of those drugs has side effects, and then one of the other
doctors tries to treat those side effects with even more drugs. The drugs are treating the problems, all while each drug is causing some sort of
permanent damage that you will later have to deal with. I am lucky... my psychiatrist works with my primary care doctor and they oversee all of my
medications. I am regularly checked for early signs of known side effects, and there are red flags in my file indicating a slew of medications I
can't go near.
Being unwillingly stuck in WPI is a wretched situation. You have medical problems that are slowly killing you, and your full-time job is going to
doctor offices, hospital stays, trying to keep your medications in check and trying to maintain some "normal" life which only includes doctors,
hospitals, basic hygiene and food. Everything outside of that is a luxury... your energy can only focus on keeping yourself alive, and eventually the
task of keeping yourself from succumbing to depression becomes nothing more than an impossible dream. That is where all those damn psych meds come in
- you have to take them... you can't do anything else right now to make your life better, all you have energy for is trying to just survive.
I do not see any reasonable way to improve such situations. I take a proactive stance in my life - I try to live as much as I can, I get back up
every time I get kicked down... but sometimes it is just... impossible to find the strength to even breath anymore. Physically, mentally,
emotionally... you are drained, alone, and pumped full of drugs that seem to make everything worse when you actually need them most.
I think that shooter was a shmuck, and I do not condone what he did, but I surely understand it. I left there wanting to kick a few of the staff in
the balls. When you get out of there only to fall back down again, you fear going back there... getting locked up and pumped full of drugs, then
shoved back out to go back down in the #ter. Neverending cycle of it. Where does it end? How can it?
Until they figure out a good solution to prevent so many problems like this, they sure as hell better work on their security and emergency protocols.
But I have a feeling nothing will change... aside from maybe putting in a metal detector and a glass window to protect the granny who is at the desk
in the lobby (who was a nice lady, not sure why the guy shot her aside from the fact she was an easy target).