I thought I would share my life experiences surrounding my first kundalini energy rising. If you are comfortable with the idea, I would like to hear
yours too. In the galaxy far, far away......
Hahahah... I was only 17. Struggling to come to term with my bad childhood experiences. I was
trying to live my current life as a college student interested in studying law, while every night my childhood memories were haunting me. I was an
outcast, for reasons I wasn't sure. There must be something different about me.
Yes, I was different. Anyway, I was trying to find out how to
feel better about myself when everything I was doing in the present reminded me of my childhood. That wasn't fun. It was like being this helpless
little child again. Somehow, I read enough from the "self help section" to realize that I needed my adult me to heal my little child me inside.
Somehow, I discovered Nietzsche and Carl Jung. Was it fate? Was it some spiritual forces at work here? I was alone at that point in my life and
somehow I came into contact with right knowledge about my life. I read Nietzsche. I was on his program for a while. Carl Jung analyzed him. I
understood EVERYTHING about his analytical psychology. As a result, I understood Nietzsche and my life. I was on my own program, the unconscious
hero's journey, while I was trying to be a college student, first year. I was consumed by my own spiritual and psychological issues that I didn't
really care about my college education.
This is one thing I always proud of. I would unconsciously write about Nietzsche and Carl Jung in my English class that I didn't care about the
actual class assignment. You guess it. The English professor decided to fail me. How was it possible? They hated Nietzsche so much they would fail
me?
I believe so. Could you believe it? These clowns hate certain thinkers of our time so much that they would fail you if you ever read or
write about them? I wrote about my entire life and to realize how my childhood experiences were affecting me. And how Carl Jung and Nietzsche were
able to provide a world perspective framework for me to understand the world. The writings empowered me. I felt a empowered. I felt by knowing
about my whole life, I understood the world. I inadvertently underwent some sort of psychotherapic treatment in the real world setting with real
world consequences.
I left this college quick and had no desire to even transfer the credits I earned there to another college. I wanted to
pretend I have never been to this college at all. I began to look for another college to attend to.
In the meantime, I received the kundalini energy rising after waking up from my dream. Only recently I have been reading up on Zen to realize that I
received enlightenment from the transmission of the mind..from the One Mind, from the Original Source. In another words, there was some spiritual
immortal beings decided to pass on enlightenment to me from my dream. As a result, the kundalini energy opened up my all of my chakras in the
psychical world.
After the my first experience, I was able to duplicate the experience just simply by meditating. I didn't know anything about meditation back then.
I would sit still in a full lotus position. Somehow, my mind was quiet and still automatically. Not surprising since I left this stupid college
which was reminding me how unworthy I was. I have healed my childhood and resolved all internal psychological conflicts. The kundalini energy would
rise up without much effort. This lasted for weeks until my next semester started in my new college. Enlightenment does not make life easier, it
gets only hardier. My past life karma emerged during the time I was in this new college. I ended up have to confront a whole new level of struggles
in epic proportion.
The experience (my first kundalini energy rising) was phenomenal. I don't want to use the word bliss. It was like all the energy I was using to
please the world was withdrawing back to me. I felt Atman or the Self. I felt every part of me existed, as if my consciousness was inside all over
my body. The heat sensation and the intense radiant light on my forehead.....they made me feel special. They made me feel that there was and is a
reason for my existence.
BTW, this was taken place before Matrix, the movie... You bet, I love Matrix and everything made so much sense in the movie.
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