reply to post by sled735
I try to explain one (especially to remain neutral):
During my younger years (say about from ages 16-22; I'm a male aged 25 now), I would always have "puppy love" or "crushes" with certain girls (at
the time - in high school), classmates, co-workers, etc. (of the opposite sex). So, when I was in my last year of high school, one particular girl
caught my attention (due to her beauty)....and of course, "puppy love" kicked in! I would see her in H.S. football games (she was a cheerleader),
H.S. lunch period, and also walking to and from classes.
Then High School ends, and unto community college. And here I am, in my Early American History class, on the first day of class; the professor is
checking the attendance - calling out names.......until suddenly I'm ready to fall asleep.......and then, interestingly, my professor calls a student
by the name of Ashley and her last name (no I will not reveal last names)........I WAKE UP....OH NO (I'm thinking to myself)!!!! Then I look
straight, and only straight with my eyes wide open, only to know that she was my H.S. crush (the cheerleader) after hearing her voice. Then I'm
looking for her (hilariously, I looking for her using the reflection of a television from the front of the classroom - that reveals the whole
classroom).....UH OH, SHE'S BEHIND ME (confirming and thinking to myself). Then as I am looking at the television, she is looking at me (but not the
television luckily!): I think she might of reacted when I jerked my face up after her name was being mentioned.
So the next day, knowing that she is now in my classroom, I look for her and she still sits behind me. And as I am glancing at the same
television.......(my worst fears came true) she looks at me, also using the same reflection of the television. SOooooooo, both of us are now looking
at each other by the use of the reflection of the television (and do keep in mind that class is still in session - er, the lecture). My legs were
shaking from the beginning, I'm breaking into sweat from every stare I get from her by the reflection of the television. So, maybe until the middle
of the semester, here I am, a nervous-wreck, and trying to listen to my lectures (I then knew I needed to record my lectures) and I then decided
(telling myself), 'enough is enough', I have to look away from the television, and then one day, I reluctantly did. SOooooooo, after all the staring
we both did; after all the things we did to impress each other (by body language - not ONCE did I ever meet her) I did look away from the T.V. for
GOOD (and then I was able to better pay attention to class). So after this moment, I would hear her voice answering questions; BUT then the days I
would peek at the T.V., I would see her face staring at me - with the look of innocence (what did I get myself into!?). I continued to abstain from
looking at the same T.V.; and then strange things were happening since I took away my glances from the T.V.; one day, I had to talk to my professor, I
thought it was just me and him....BUT WAIT!!!!; after talking to my professor, THERE SHE IS, RIGHT IN THE CLASSROOM STARING AT ME INNOCENTLY! I had to
leave, and I'm shaking my whole way to my car. Another day passes by, and I hear her talking on her cellphone, saying that "there's this guy in my
classroom; he is a chauvinist pig." After that random quote she made over the phone, I begin to wonder: what in the world is happening to me (I mean,
really, "chauvinist pig???" whats that supposed to mean)!? So, now the school year ends, AND WHAT A RELIEF!!!!
Um....yea....it just doesn't end there, unfortunately.
SOooooooo, here I am, at work!!!! I'm a bagger/cart pusher for a wholesale retailer (12 miles from where I live), until one day (couple of months
later after my semester ends), as I am bagging and (its like, literally....POOF!!!!) across the rows of cash registers, from where I'm bagging, THERE
SHE IS, staring right at me from across!!!!! (now I'm freaking out - keep again in mind - I've never met her before). SOoooooo, OH GREAT. Every once
in a while (days, weeks close and apart sometimes) within a time period of a year I would see her in the store and outside (in scantily clad wear:
"houchie" shorts, t-shirt) getting a shopping cart. On one day, after pushing a roll of 10 carts, I turn around: THERE SHE IS STARING RIGHT AT ME
about 15 feet away (at that moment, I conspicuously jerk my face away from her with a frown).
But (it had to end sometime), one day she walked to her car with another person; and I followed them. I heard her mention about me and how, "I think
he doesn't like me." and as soon as I pushing a stray cart to the front, I look back at her......WHAT, SHE IS STARING AT ME, with her mouth down -
in shock!!!! After that moment, I NEVER saw her again. Why? It turns out I had a surreal dream - explaining everything about it.