OK, this is my first post on ATS. I am more of a lurker rather than a contributor but this topic felt different. I am 34 and have been having the same
dream since I was 10. When I first started having this dream, I was seeing the world as if it were nighttime, there were no traffic lights, street
lights, just broken buildings, bridges, and abandoned vehicles. This was the dream I had for about 10 years. Then I started to wander around the town
and I saw something reflected in a _ As I approached the window, I woke up. This was as far as I was able to go for the next 12 years. Then it
started to move rapidly.
Over the last two years I have see more than I wanted to. I was able to approach the window and saw a reflection of myself. The world wasn't dark or
night after all, I was wearing a full-on metal suit, with tubes, wires, buttons and gadgets. I had a helmet on with a tinted visor. I opened the visor
and the land was tinted orange and brown, the sky was orange/grey and I couldn't breath there was so much dust. I closed the visor and the world
returned to night. I looked at myself again and I had weapons, a samurai sword, some kind of automatic weapon that used at least 3" bullets that were
wrapped around me like Rambo, a grenade belt and what looked like a duffel bag that was full. I do believe this dream and my surroundings are the
result of a nuclear war.
I do not have this dream every night but since it has been happening for 24 years I figured it must mean something. I have sporadic mini-series dreams
where they occur over a few nights, like a story, and then they end, never to return. But they always involve death, destruction, war, and people that
are crazed, like zombies but not, as if they have lost their souls. I am always at the center of the drama, either leading a group of people to
safety, fighting off hoards of evil beings, or making a difficult decision that will affect many. I always dream in color, which is why this recurring
dream has always disturbed me because it was the lack of color for so long that made it feel like it was something more than a dream.
I don't know what is going on but for the last two years I have definitely felt different. I cannot explain it nor do I think it necessarily warrants
an explanation but I know I have been changed. Some will call it waking up, others will call it tapping into the collective consciousness, while
others simply say that some marbles are loose. I do not necessarily believe in the myth of 2012 but I do believe that our destinies have already been
predetermined, regardless of free will and the thought that if we pick action A over action B, we can change destiny but in reality it just means we
are taking an alternate course to reach the same destination. This was always going to happen - war, disease, famine, death - it was up to humans to
determine how and when it happened. Unfortunately, I think 2012 is a nice scapegoat to the self-fulfilling prophecies that humans so desperately want
to engage in.
I have always been a person that has "felt" things happening. I knew the day that my mother was going to kill herself because I felt it in my
stomach. I knew my aunts and uncles died before I received the phone calls. I knew my dad had an aneurism before my phone rang. I knew my best friend
committed suicide even though we were 200 miles apart and I had not seen him for a month. I could go on and on about the people I have known that died
or had serious afflictions in situations that were not obvious or anticipated. So I've always been in tune with things but these last two years have
been ridiculous and I only feel it is going to get worse.
Peace to all and just spend an extra few seconds telling your friends, family and pets they are appreciated...and I hope I didn't sound too loose in