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Originally posted by AnIntellectualRedneck
I was actually raised in a household with a pretty stringently Christian father. I wasn't raised in the type of Pentecostal church where they handle the snakes, but there was a lot of speaking in tongues and being "slain in the Spirit" and that sort of thing. My dad was one of those that thought Harry Potter was Satanic, and one of my acts of "rebellion" was reading those books right under his nose
I had secretly always held beliefs that were more pagan in nature, and I lived with my cognitive dissonance until I was about 14 or 15. It really hit me when I was 16, on a mission trip, and realized that I simply couldn't give out those religious pamphlets. I couldn't tell somebody that my religion was right when I wasn't 100% sure, I couldn't give a child something that would tell them they were going to Hell just because they didn't believe the right way.
So I began exploring other faiths, my own thoughts, and I found that each step out of this process to be extremely painful. I could not believe how psychologically painful the act of deprogramming myself was. It was very freeing, but it was also extremely painful.
I'm from a community where Christianity is far and away the dominant religion, and I'm here to tell you that having dissension in the ranks was not going to be tolerated. I was naive enough to think that just questioning things couldn't hurt or pointing out different ways of looking at them could be cool...boy was I wrong. People knew about me being a little heathen, and I was not well received in most circles after that; some kids (and yes even a few teachers) were actively hostile.
I guess the point is that overcoming it is not easy, and it hurts, even for somebody who had misgivings about the whole thing from the beginning. I can't imagine what overcoming a hardcore upbringing of any religion or philosophy would be like for somebody who'd never really questioned it. They would pretty much be rewriting their entire psychological makeup in my estimation, but do you think that's a fair picture?edit on 9-2-2012 by AnIntellectualRedneck because: (no reason given)
Amish are threatened with hellfire and expulsion from the community if the youth want to leave to go to college and get an education.
Some Amish youth do indeed separate themselves from the community, even going to live among the "English", or non-Amish North Americans, experiencing modern technology and perhaps even experimenting with sex, alcohol and illegal drugs. Their behavior during this time represents no necessary bar to returning for adult baptism into the Amish church.
Most of them do not wander far from their family's homes during this time, and large numbers ultimately choose to join the church. However this proportion varies from community to community, and within a community between more and less acculturated Amish. For example, Swartzendruber Amish have a higher retention rate than the New Order Amish within the Holmes County, Ohio community. This figure was significantly lower as recently as the 1950s. Desertion from the Amish community is not a long-term trend, and was more of a problem in the early colonial years.:102
I ran into people like you every single day as a kid, and I can tell you one thing that I learned really quick: people like me scare the crap out of most of you. I chose a different path because I chose to trust my own heart more than some book, and that makes you lot uncomfortable. It might be because you wish you had the guts to do the same, it might be because it makes me different, and it might be because you've been conditioned to believe that everybody who doesn't believe exactly like you is out to get you and wants nothing more than for Christianity to crumble.
But in the end, I trusted my own heart and mind over what I was told by other people, and that's really all there was to it.
In the end i just wanted to find inner peace, and i had the need for redemption because i had done things i couldn't take back, and things i couldn't apologize for to my sister who died at the age of 21 just after my rebellion and decent into evil. I needed redemption and there was only God in all the universe that was offering it and that is Yahweh through his son Yahshua.
I was actually raised in a household with a pretty stringently Christian father.