Okay, my name is Andrew and I been lurking this site for a good week or so and today I decided to make an account after finding out some interesting news about me today.

Today while preparing for the super bowl, I was talking to my mom how I really don't believe on the existence of god. All of the sudden she flipped out, but today was different because she never flipped out on me before, she just tells me to go to church and get my mind straight.

Anyways, she flips out on me and tells me to sit down and listen, So i do. Her first words were "Today I will tell you something you do not know and since you are 19 you should know about it now. So my mom explained to me that when I was living in our old apartment (we live in a house now) that when I was 2-3 years old I used to wake up between 2-4 a.m. and scream, banged out the wall and bang on my knuckles. Speaking in different languages and tongues. This freaked me out! and I always wondered why I had a broken knuckle. She told me one of those nights she hold me and prayed to god and apparently it went away.

Now I do not remember any of this well of course cause I was so young, but I do remember when we moved to our new house I used to wake up around 3 a.m. and scream, my head was hurting and I was so dizzy, I felt like someone was spinning me, the world felt different, I used to have vivid dreams of me killing and dying. It stopped after a few months. I was 7 years old. But I just thought I was just having bad migraines lol.

But before my mom told me this today, I have always feared of going to church, whenever I am forced to go to church I feel like crap and so out of place, I do not know why. I am also very interested in ghosts and paranormal subjects, especially demonic subjects. I had always felt like someone was watching me, and I hear voices here and there. I also had thoughts about selling my soul to the devil, and becoming evil, sometimes I would out burst about killing and being "evil".

It never bothered me, I have never ever thought I was possessed or anything like that, I just live my life like a regular teenager in college, I party, drink, Do not smoke, I have fun. I just have those weird moments and thoughts. And after the incident when I was 7 years old nothing has happen, hopefully *knocks on wood*

After hearing this story my mom told me, It kinda makes sense, what does this mean??? Should I look for some help? But All I can say is that no I don't have any type of ghostly experiences, like seeing ghosts etc. *knocks on wood* lol

If you have any information for this thank you

P.s. I talked to my family after what my mom told me, and they all confirmed that it used to happen when I lived up north in New Jersey but they never told me, so it doesn't come back to me.

It could be related to something that manifested itself into your child psyche. In other words, there could have been something going on at the time that caused you to have episodes, but, it is not to say that it was cured by any supernatural intervention.

If your mom was praying for you at the time she was also likely making real efforts in other means to improve your quality of life. That in itself could have ridden you of the episodes.

That's about it. Without more information a detailed analysis of the situation can't be made and I wouldn't recommend publicly posting all the information related to that time period anyhow.

I'd say this is the result of forcing religious beliefs on a child. At a young age the mind isn't fully developed and the imagination tends to take over quite often when we are kids.

You may not know it, but simply being told "you will go to hell if you do bad things" and teaching kids about the attrocities of hell, the devil and who knows what else. It impacts them subconciously, and this is probably what you were experiencing. Especially at such a young age, these things are bound to happen.

When it does happen, be it short stories of the devil impacting a child's mind until the imagination takes over... it's only going to force believers to believe in god even more.

I'm not talking about you personally but rather the many children that seem to have been brought up by religious families and experience what some might call "possesed". I hope i don't sound rude or anything, it's just one way to look at things and the one that makes sense to me. This is one of the reasons i am against people teaching religious beliefs to children, as it can change people dramatically before their natural personality even begins to develop.

I see you've started your first thread...Flag from me...star too.

We met in your intro thread. I *sensed* absolutely nothing evil in your energy. Quite to the contrary, you have a gentle soul. Don't let other people push their fears onto you. I surmise, someone did that to you as a very young child.

Keep growing in your personal strength.......

Bright Blessings,

Des

eh, but what my mom told me, and my family knows about it too is still kinda of freaky to me. I'm pretty sure that isn't normal stuff.

Sounds like a cross between anxiety and a very open mind.

Where does your soul take you?
What is it YOU want to do?


You are in no danger. The crossroad is before you, what is it your heart wants you to do?

Follow your heart, it will answer your questions.

I used to have the same behaviour you had when I was a kid, the weird part is I remember clearly when that happened, all those years.
In my case, all was because I had very very crystal clear like dreams. And those were normal dreams a kid haves, like, dunno, being She-Ra, Spider Woman or a Power Ranger, dunno. I used to hit the wall on the side of my bed with fists and kicks, yelled and argued in a very loud volume and wake up my mom at least 3 times a week. The time span of this dreams was from 3 to 14 years old aprox.
I've never had any issue by going to church, because i see them like pretty buildings and nothing else (i'm a chaoist), however, when i was a kid i was catholic and i was in a catholic school too and i went to mass everytime we had one... Then I started to question my faith when I was like 14-15, and now i'm 27 and your god doesn't mean anything to me

anyway, you're not the only person who fought by night in their younger days, and I think that the "speaking in tongues" part must be an add-on of your mom to get you ass on the church again. It's a classic!!!.

Originally posted by InsideYourMind
I'd say this is the result of forcing religious beliefs on a child. At a young age the mind isn't fully developed and the imagination tends to take over quite often when we are kids.

You may not know it, but simply being told "you will go to hell if you do bad things" and teaching kids about the attrocities of hell, the devil and who knows what else. It impacts them subconciously, and this is probably what you were experiencing. Especially at such a young age, these things are bound to happen.

When it does happen, be it short stories of the devil impacting a child's mind until the imagination takes over... it's only going to force believers to believe in god even more.

I'm not talking about you personally but rather the many children that seem to have been brought up by religious families and experience what some might call "possesed". I hope i don't sound rude or anything, it's just one way to look at things and the one that makes sense to me. This is one of the reasons i am against people teaching religious beliefs to children, as it can change people dramatically before their natural personality even begins to develop.

edit on 6/2/2012 by InsideYourMind because: (no reason given)

I agree. OP, you are not evil or are you? You´re so young and your brain has not fully developed. You don´t like church so what? You are in the phase of becoming the adult you will be. Don't put to much stock in what your mum told you. What you do and contribute is what defines you. Not that you were a todler with sleeping issues.