Hola ATS! Been a reader since late 2009, never bothered making an account, didn't feel the need to really post anything back then, however, I had a bit of a spiritual awakening of sorts a few weeks before Christmas. As a result, I ended up reading this forum and doing research on the occult like it was my job. Tonight I just randomly decided to make an account because I'd like to join in on the discussion some, ask a few more questions, and hopefully learn a lot more about the world around me.

Few things about myself:
Libertarian oriented
Fifth Dimension/Source Field oriented
Avid reader of several other conspiracy forums
Amateur comedian by night, driver by day (driver is the single best word to describe what I do for a living, not because it's some secret or anything, think the movie transporter, but with less guns, violence, and all being legal.)
Have a better grip on chemistry and physics than John Doe, I'm definitely no scientist though, and will make no claims of the latter.
My baby is my 1979 Firebird T/A, I can be concerned about metaphysics and the environment and still love my gas-hog of a past-time....right?

I have something in my profile about believing I may be an "indigo" from what I have read, though I'm not going to sit here and claim to be the next great prophet. I've always felt a strong desire to help people, and I've always felt I was put here by whatever power (my own or that of a greater force), to help my people, mankind, be happy. Whether I'm an indigo or not doesn't really mean much to me, it's just a title that explains a lot of how I acted growing up, particular events that have happened in my life, and how I feel about the world. Like I said, I'm here to learn, not make proclamations.

Whatever happens, it's good to finally be a member of the ATS boards, and I'm happy to be here.

Go Steelers! Great team! Welcome to ATS posting. Enjoy the site. People here are nice, if you want to learn this be the place.

salutations , will trade ya obama's soul for ya car . its a very good deal whaddya say ? check ya sanity at the door and revel in the madness thats ats

Welcome to ATS...buckle up the ride can get bumpy...floor it when you can...

Haha, Im a diehard raiders fan, don't really know how it happened, but thanks to everyone for the welcome, appreciate it.

Also, if I take the trade for the soul, do I get decision making privs?

Noxanonymous,

What sort of awakening did you have? and what got you into spiritualism in the first place?

Mifflin County is the name of the place if anyone feels need to verify his claim.) Anyhow, after graduation, a month after, to be specific, I was involved in a high-speed accident. I thought driving 90mph though a 45 degree turn very short in length with a rwd truck that had bald tires in the rain was a good idea. After two spins, a roll, and going ass-end first into the side of a mountain, I learned I was wrong. And walked away unharmed to tell the tale. Cant say the same for the vehicle, but what I remember from the accident is what sparked a deep change of heart about spirituality.

When the truck was spinning it felt like it was minutes. I was in the air in the cab, I wasn't freaking out. I felt no concern. I didn't know what was going on, but I was guided into laying in the bench seat and pulling the back over. I looked to the passenger side towards my feet and saw a bright light. I closed my eyes, unconcerned, waiting for the noise to stop. I thought I had died when it stopped, made no attempt to open my eyes, just thought that was the end of it. A few seconds later I realized I was still breathing and sat up. I checked myself, nothing broken, I could move. I climbed out of the wreckage and waited for responders to come. I broke down later that night about it, but for the time after the accident I had a very strange tranquility.

Afterwards I began experimenting with "stuff", and getting more into the counter culture scene due to the influence of one of my close friends mothers (she was a hippie back the 60s). While exploring these substances I had many "spiritual" instances where I felt like I was one with everything, one with the universe, I had hallucinations where I felt I saw the future, I would even say at certain points I felt I became other objects in the room where I was, almost like everything was an extension of myself. Of course, at the time, I was doing this for fun, rather than for spiritual awakening, and I passed off the majority of these feelings and hallucinations as just drugs in my system. (I cleaned this up quite a bit after rereading the drug talk policy, and tried to remove most references to substance names and methods of use.)

Then along comes December 2011. My brother had been going through a similar period in his life, and was finding a mess of information on the new age movement. He was reading everything about the 5th dimension, from vibrational frequencies to a Galactic Federation of Light that was to come and stop TPTB once we made it to the 5th dimension. He presented me with the Source Field Investigations, which to me explained a lot I always wondered about, he instructed me to websites to learn about Indigo's, which he claimed we were. He asked me to help him learn. Over 3 days we spent a lot of time reading, and for the first time in my life, I was reading information that I not only accepted, I vehemently believed it and had faith in it. Something just clicked, it felt right. David Wilcock might not have everything all together correctly, but he got the gist of it in my opinion, and that led me to do a lot of reading on the New Age Movement, Starseeds, and the like. Suddenly everything I felt my entire life was put into an explanation that made sense to me. Between the websites, a few bits and pieces of ancient aliens, and a lot of watching The Universe and Through the Wormhole over 3 days on netflix and youtube and the like, I felt relieved, I felt less worry, and it was at that point that I started my "ascension" I think. This knowledge aided me in finally conquering fear. I read the conspiracy stuff on this forum all the time, on GLP, on many other sites. We live in a world where we can die at any second, whether it be from atomic weapons, solar radiation, a global pandemic, or something as tiny as a single celled bacteria. This information freed me from fear, and since then, I've noticed a complete lack of negative emotion in general. When I meditate now it's dramatically different from when I did before, I cant do it nearly as long, I feel sensations I haven't felt before, feelings I could actually compare to orgasm in pleasure and in intensity. When I can't hold it anymore I begin to feel a bit of pain in the center of my head, and once I'm back from meditating I also find myself EXTREMELY drained and wanting to sleep. Dreams afterwards are always vivid. The drain afterwards is a lot like the drain after a very intimate sexual encounter with someone you deeply care for, just that "I'm so dead but that was amazing" feeling. I've also noticed the tone I've always thought was natural in my ears has grown louder over the past weeks as well. Can't perceive much more about it, it's just a lot louder, and it seems like I can tune in or tune out at will to hearing it over everything else or not hearing it at all. High pitched, consistent. Best way to describe the noise.

Ultimately, my, "aha!" moment to what I think is the start of my ascension was the point where I became free from fear of my physical death and that of the death of my people and my planet.

I'm not sure I am an Indigo, like I've said before, my brother is damn sure though. I am sure, however, that we do all come from the Source (I prefer the name Force, because it makes explanation to people curious about it A LOT simpler by drawing similarities to Star Wars, especially when talking about the light, the darkness, and how it makes up everything). I believe our creator rests within every atom of every bit of substance in the universe. I believe you, reading this, and me, are both divine beings, gifted with the ability to empower both ourselves and everyone around us. I believe in the coming Golden Age, and it's not because I don't want to work, but because I desperately want to see our race in peace and happiness. I want my friends and my parents to be happy. I want them to be free from fear, even though we live in a world that should scare us more than ever before. We are all riding a wave at this point, and no matter how many rocks this wave hits, it's leading us all back to the same place, no matter what you call it. Heaven, Shangri-la, etc etc. I call it home. I can't remember how it looks, though I know in the back of my mind I've been there, and I know it's beautiful. And I know the first step to realizing and remembering is freedom from fear. All fear.

If you have any questions or want some more information feel free to ask.

Welcome to ATS. I was actually a member for a couple of years before I really got into replying to posts and threads. I am enjoying myself immensely (sp? lol). I think you'll do well. Just remember in the end, we are all just beings looking for comfort in any form we can get it. And a little happiness and enjoyment is the icing on the cake