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posted on Mar, 4 2012 @ 01:14 AM
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I believe it is Viet Nam vets who would be the first witnesses of what they refer to as "deltas"

I have heard tales from vets long before I ever DREAMT of the thought of mind control. In many groups they would send into villages, it was not uncommon for at least one of the members of the group to snap and go on a killing rampage... shocking the other members and trying to figure out how to get control of their comrad who had turned into what seems like a robot before they killed even their own comrads.

Viet Nam might have been one of the first conflicts where Deltas were employed... completely unknowingly to them... and not uncommonly commiting suicide after their service, not understanding what came over them.

I have experienced the Delta waves they send and it is NOT easy to overcome. If I were bigger and stronger and had more adrenaline potential in my body, I probably would have killed someone with my bare hands by now and I thank God OFTEN that he designed me the way I am... regardless of how frustrating and powerless it sometimes feels. It almost literally turns you into a robot. Viet Nam vets have literally been able to begin recognizing when one of the members of their groups snapped because they start "power walking".... and they cannot be stopped. Calm, but yet so tense that every move they make is calculated. They become sharp shooters without conscience. They become blind to others around them like their comrads are just imaginary obstacles... with only one thought on their minds... completing their agenda.

Other people can SEE this come over someone... this is how unnatural it is.

That is directly related to the delta frequencies. They use deltas to create sharp shooting assassins as well, but you don't have to be a good shot.... because some of them will just prefer to burn everything in sight. Some of them will just start raping whatever crosses their path.




posted on Mar, 4 2012 @ 10:59 AM
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posted on Mar, 4 2012 @ 03:04 PM
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Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer

Originally posted by Aeons
Maybe?

Would you like to tell me if there is a radio station I *should* be listening too?


Hmmm... Not real sure what you mean.

I don't *think* so... trying to remember if anything has slipped my mind.

I get the feeling this is a trick question and i'm not offended but very very curious.

You got me...

i guess one that plays music you like??

This is going to bother me now because i think something is going on with the air waves and i don't know if you are going to tell me what you mean and not leave me wondering why you are asking me that.


Are you with a human rights organization?

Just curious.


The above quoted post is the best indication I see to verify, at least for me, that you are telling the truth.
I get slightly curious when people ask me questions that seem out of context and wonder if they are in actuality trying to drop a clue to something that I haven't considered. I suppose it is a trait not necessarily unique to people who have been targeted but your reaction reminded me of some of my reactions...including the attempt at light hearted dismissal (inference is a double edged sword and I add disclaimers to many things I say in case I inferred incorrectly).

Question - Do you ever question others' use of pronouns?



posted on Mar, 4 2012 @ 06:58 PM
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Originally posted by MemoryShock

Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer

Originally posted by Aeons
Maybe?

Would you like to tell me if there is a radio station I *should* be listening too?


Hmmm... Not real sure what you mean.

I don't *think* so... trying to remember if anything has slipped my mind.

I get the feeling this is a trick question and i'm not offended but very very curious.

You got me...

i guess one that plays music you like??

This is going to bother me now because i think something is going on with the air waves and i don't know if you are going to tell me what you mean and not leave me wondering why you are asking me that.


Are you with a human rights organization?

Just curious.


The above quoted post is the best indication I see to verify, at least for me, that you are telling the truth.
I get slightly curious when people ask me questions that seem out of context and wonder if they are in actuality trying to drop a clue to something that I haven't considered. I suppose it is a trait not necessarily unique to people who have been targeted but your reaction reminded me of some of my reactions...including the attempt at light hearted dismissal (inference is a double edged sword and I add disclaimers to many things I say in case I inferred incorrectly).

Question - Do you ever question others' use of pronouns?


Pronouns specifically... not sure, but perhaps. I do see a lot of ambiguous talk. Pronouns can replace specifics and create the potential to implant an alternate idea that will be upsetting to the one it is directed to and no one else.

for example... To argue endlessly with some troll trying to bait me into intense political discussion and intense personal subjects etc etc persistently and continuously on a forum that isn't even about politics or any such matter, but rather is a MUSIC forum for personal enjoyment where alternate conversations happen to take place and are set as bait... and then to go into ANOTHER forum to escape all the trolling of the last one and go from forum to forum to forum and be seemingly trolled by those of a similar spirit...a similar writing style..and be told things like...

Yeah... go ahead and go to your concert where there will be hundreds of idiots just like you and GET BLOWN AWAY.

maybe that wasn't the exact quote on that one but the BLOWN AWAY part is just one example of things i won't forget anytime soon.

and there are HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS of examples like this of being trolled and threatened over the years by a very familiar feeling.... to the point where I was being conditioned to think that anyone I would ever engage with or speak to or just KNOW... would start to hate me and turn against me.... as though i was cursed.

...because you cannot see them and they will pretend to be ANYBODY.

this was meant to destroy me from the inside.

this very distinctive pattern began in 01 shortly after getting my first computer. try explaining that to people and they say things like 'well, GEE..stop going to that site DUH!...people are going to be assholes, don't you know this?'...as though i was born yesterday and have no experience with people what so ever.

all the while people close to me working through a company i have mentioned (and even beyond the company) have tried to fuel the idea that i was imagining this and should be considered mentally unstable. they had close family members convinced of this. do you realize how frustrating it is to try to tell people something that you KNOW is of utmost importance and they just roll their eyes, never looking into the issues or the examples themselves and just explaining it away sight unseen as though you have brought it all on yourself.

There are many many examples of this that cannot be tied to regular rolling and no one can see unless they have followed it for some time, but it all gets written to my mental roladex.... and this is a very big way in which they intended to construct sensitive trigger mechanisms, that in my frustration and lack of being able to clarify my words in my frustration or just get people to open their eyes.... It is just meant to break me down, disable me.
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posted on Mar, 4 2012 @ 07:13 PM
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For years, i was terrified to go into public.

At the same time people close to me trying to force me into uncertain public situations where certain things will happen or certain people will magically show up and things have obviously been planned without my knowledge "For my own mental well being... to get me out... get me interacting" because of what is being trickled down to them. things they don't even understand have double meaning to me and they are so much more concerned about being accused of having ulterior motive against me they WON'T TELL ME when this happens because they think they are so keen as to what is going on that no harm is being done. Simply because they do not understand.

i try to tell them over and over to tell me of talk that might transpire or even could be indirectly related to me or any of these issues, but they seem to be more concerned about being personally blamed than CUT THROUGH THIS GRAPEVINE.

I can't seem to make them understand it is not about blaming people i know for 'talking about me behind my back"

...but that if they would just spit it OUT instead of thinking that they constantly have to treat me like a special case out of concern so that i won't be upset with them... I COULD HELP THEM CONNECT THESE DOTS... i could make them understand how THEY are also being used for things they do not understand. I can't do that in a lot of cases because although i know these things happen behind my back, they are more concerned about the repercussions of the discussion itself than what might happen to me and ANY ONE ELSE I KNOW if NO ONE EVER LISTENS!

people around me sometimes seem to get affected like this by just the circumstances in our everyday life that i cannot get them to reprioritize.... they often just get frustrated and get scared (even though i have never hit, threatened anyone of them (well, except maybe dumb childhood spats) and they have no reason to fear my anger should it transpire.

You might have no idea how bad it infuriates me to see those who are close to me be affected by these things.

it is MADDENING... and sometimes i just have no choice but to let it sleep and just try not to expect their help on things that they clearly aren't getting. i just hope they realize things before any one else close to us gets hurt.

I know this is going to sound like self pity and i admit that it is... but this has been heartbreaking to be ignored about this over a decade. Absolutely heartbreaking. It has involved people i KNOW would help me if only they could just see what i have seen.


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posted on Mar, 4 2012 @ 07:23 PM
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Yes BSD you are very astute.

It is really an insidious and clever form of psychological warfare designed to condition you over time to believe that "everyone" hates you and eventually drive you to commit suicide.

So, knowing that, that it is all just a very carefully constructed illusion, it is pretty easy to counter it. "Oh yeah, well I'm just going to go host a rock concert, and woo many beautiful women all at once using the incredible power of rock and roll!"



posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 12:32 AM
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Originally posted by cupocoffee
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Yes BSD you are very astute.

It is really an insidious and clever form of psychological warfare designed to condition you over time to believe that "everyone" hates you and eventually drive you to commit suicide.

So, knowing that, that it is all just a very carefully constructed illusion, it is pretty easy to counter it. "Oh yeah, well I'm just going to go host a rock concert, and woo many beautiful women all at once using the incredible power of rock and roll!"


that last part didn't make a lot of sense. I'm not sure where you are going with this.

I think i might have mentioned certain studies that not only I insist are very real. study of contactees. To establish contactees as ones driven SO CALLED insane by SO CALLED meddling aliens, it helps certain people in our government get funding and support to do all sorts of things... build #, make culture shaping movies, hire disinfo shills... the list goes on.

really, i don't have time to keep repeating crap for you.

THE PROOF IS THERE. If you truly want to debunk it, hire a forensic specialist and i will even meet with you.

put up or shut up!
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posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 08:06 AM
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Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
really, i don't have time to keep repeating crap for you.

THE PROOF IS THERE. If you truly want to debunk it, hire a forensic specialist and i will even meet with you.

put up or shut up!


What??

I'm not trying to debunk you, BSD. I'm well aware that these gangstalking / cointelpro / psych warfare operations exist. I'm a so-called "targeted individual" too.

What I was saying is, if you're ever feeling low from all the incessant harassment and mind control, if you ever need a self-esteem boost, just go find a karaoke bar and perform some classic rock and roll hits. SEE all those beautiful women cheering and dancing and getting horny.

It helps a lot



posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 08:35 AM
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Originally posted by cupocoffee

Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
really, i don't have time to keep repeating crap for you.

THE PROOF IS THERE. If you truly want to debunk it, hire a forensic specialist and i will even meet with you.

put up or shut up!


What??

I'm not trying to debunk you, BSD. I'm well aware that these gangstalking / cointelpro / psych warfare operations exist. I'm a so-called "targeted individual" too.

What I was saying is, if you're ever feeling low from all the incessant harassment and mind control, if you ever need a self-esteem boost, just go find a karaoke bar and perform some classic rock and roll hits. SEE all those beautiful women cheering and dancing and getting horny.

It helps a lot



ok, ok... but you know i don't trust you coffee... and most likely never will.


just wanted to clarify that.

as for karaoke... you know how i like to sing... WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU BAITING ME FOR NOW?




as for the women getting horny... i guess that means i should go to a gay bar, but that would likely just create a bunch of confusion and disappointment so... I think i will just stick to singing over the radio. i don't go to bars.

Why are we talking about this again?

Oh yeah... to counter depression from being harassed. I'm afraid i seldom feel like singing when down about this. Not to mention the fact that i was sent a dream where someone was going to try to bust me for coke using a certain lovely dark haired lady... Who is really going to disappoint me if she tries to set me up... but what's to worry seeing as how she would never have that chance anyway. i'm not that gullible. maybe she wouldn't be aware if it happens, which means THAT GIRL JUST NEEDS TO STAY AWAY FROM THAT AND WATCH HER BACK AS IT APPEARS THEY LOVE TO USE HER... or something. i don't know.

pretty sure it was from j though... saw his eyes gazing at the insane police driving like mad through the sticks... with those weird sounds again.... lucid dream. those weird sounds i am CERTAIN are a bad omen connected to TNPTB.

see the new letter i added.

guess what it stands for.


I'm still trying to figure out what they did with her... you know...RELATIVE.... You know *wink wink* her SECRET RELATIVE. i saw her in dream as well but BOY DID SHE EVER... "change" over the years...ahem.

she did NOT look like a happy camper either. Very livid she appeared. I'd be very concerned for her well being and what they might be trying to pin on her (because that is my fear in this case) and hope it is my imagination, but it's odd feeling concerned about someone with a murderous look on her face. Honestly i am not even sure if that was her but it could have been, I could see some likeness and have been noticing some weird things that point to a very interesting possibility of why this would have happened... and it is pretty trippy and revealing of what some go through in life and the pressures they experience. I wonder what in the world happened if there is something to this. and in that dream guess who ELSE was there. Not only in the dream but close to the actual physical bleedy location if you catch my drift. A very INTERESTED person very deep into VERY INTERESTING STUFF if you dig. he saw it all, yep he did and was giving me quite the suspicious leer. can't say i blame him as i have no idea what the hell i was doing in this apparently secret place.

ok... everybody else please ignore my crypticness while knowing that i am NOT making these dreams up.... i am not making stuff up. i just can't trust coffee and must converse with him this way hoping it drives him a little bit crazy at least if he can't make heads or tails of it. just feeling around some in light of a couple of recent dreams... nothing to accuse me of baiting people with... except of course coffee but he is electing himself to this for one reason or another which i haven't quite sorted out yet... perhaps I will know more by his reaction or lack there of. just using a few theta tentacles, nothing to freak out about.
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posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 09:32 AM
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Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
ok, ok... but you know i don't trust you coffee... and most likely never will.


just wanted to clarify that.


And nor I you. For all I know you could be, literally, one of the psych warfare operatives, posing as one of the victims in order to bait and taunt and run mind control on the real victims, such as myself.

But you see, BSD, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you really are.

Because the truth is this, all the gangstalking psych-warfare losers will NEVER win. They will never win, because they're nothing but a bunch of cowards.

Sure, they can do their little verbal taunts and their little mind control from a distance, but not a single damn one of them DARES engage coffee in real battle, because they know I'd give them the ultimate ass whipping of 1000 lifetimes.

That's right, I will bask in incredible pleasure as I beat all their monkey asses into the ground and make them grovel before me like the pathetic little worms that they are, my mighty seed blasting them IN THE FACE over and over and over and over........

And then I will grow to the height of 100 mighty giants while they become nothing but little ants, and then.... STOMP!!!!

And this will happen over and over and over again, beating their candy asses so hard their great-great-great-ancestors will feel it and stomping their little psych-warfare anthill right into the ground, and rocking out for the honeys, every day, every night, for eternity!!

If you grok what coffee is telling you......



posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 09:41 AM
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Originally posted by cupocoffee

Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
ok, ok... but you know i don't trust you coffee... and most likely never will.


just wanted to clarify that.


And nor I you. For all I know you could be, literally, one of the psych warfare operatives, posing as one of the victims in order to bait and taunt and run mind control on the real victims, such as myself.

But you see, BSD, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter who you really are.

Because the truth is this, all the gangstalking psych-warfare losers will NEVER win. They will never win, because they're nothing but a bunch of cowards.

Sure, they can do their little verbal taunts and their little mind control from a distance, but not a single damn one of them DARES engage coffee in real battle, because they know I'd give them the ultimate ass whipping of 1000 lifetimes.

That's right, I will bask in incredible pleasure as I beat all their monkey asses into the ground and make them grovel before me like the pathetic little worms that they are, my mighty seed blasting them IN THE FACE over and over and over and over........

And then I will grow to the height of 100 mighty giants while they become nothing but little ants, and then.... STOMP!!!!

And this will happen over and over and over again, beating their candy asses so hard their great-great-great-ancestors will feel it and stomping their little psych-warfare anthill right into the ground, and rocking out for the honeys, every day, every night, for eternity!!

If you grok what coffee is telling you......


wow... they must have really gotten to you.

did i glean something from that?... I think so, yet I am not sure what exactly.


maybe I will sleep on it and keep the coffee at a safe distance for a spell.



posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 09:49 AM
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There's been a few moments over the last few years that I've seriously thought it may be happening, but then reasoned that I'd just drive myself insane thinking about it, and there was nothing much I could do about it if it were true, so just dismiss it.

^run on..

Seriously, the chance of someone being personally staled by a government agent without having a lot of reason to think they're up to something no good, and big, is slim to none in my assessment.

General data gathering of the people? Sure.

Possible red flags being falsely triggered on innocent people, necessitating a short investigation? Sure.

Continuously throwing resources at someone who just visits conspiracy sites, or what have you?!


You're not that important, kid.



posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 09:54 AM
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Originally posted by unityemissions
There's been a few moments over the last few years that I've seriously thought it may be happening, but then reasoned that I'd just drive myself insane thinking about it, and there was nothing much I could do about it if it were true, so just dismiss it.

^run on..

Seriously, the chance of someone being personally staled by a government agent without having a lot of reason to think they're up to something no good, and big, is slim to none in my assessment.

General data gathering of the people? Sure.

Possible red flags being falsely triggered on innocent people, necessitating a short investigation? Sure.

Continuously throwing resources at someone who just visits conspiracy sites, or what have you?!


You're not that important, kid.



As if you'd know.

and the name isn't kid.

You can call me Slim to None.



posted on Mar, 5 2012 @ 10:03 AM
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Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer

wow... they must have really gotten to you.


Oh yes, they have been torturing me for many years now, BSD. Psychologically, emotionally, spiritually.

But like I said, it doesn't matter, because they will NEVER win. NEVER.

But understand something. I am talking about the government psych-warfare people, the gangstalkers.

My friends, my real friends, the ones who actually care and treat me decent, the ones who call me and email me regularly and look after me, the ones I can actually trust, I treat them like gold.

I'd do anything for them, I'd give them the shirt off my back, money, whatever. I'd give them my firstborn son. I'd give my life to save them if I had to.

That's the difference between real friends, real genuine caring people, and the cowardly cointelpro living breathing pieces of crap....



posted on Mar, 6 2012 @ 01:29 AM
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Originally posted by cupocoffeeThat's the difference between real friends, real genuine caring people, and the cowardly cointelpro living breathing pieces of crap....


people you can actually trust are priceless. people who get messed with like this find it hard to form trust with anyone. I'll talk to most anyone and if i am not in a particularly suspicious mood, most people would never know i am distrustful. i will tell people this but in my actions, I do some things that might make other think i am naive.
for example, i tend to not act real cold when i meet someone and if i have something to say and talk about, i don't consciously sit their and hold back. i don't think to myself 'well, I'm not sure if i want to engage too much bc I might start talking about something that I can't trust them with" I try not to hamper myself that way because A) i don't like having loads of personal secrets... it bothers me. B) I think that to just be yourself and not feel like you have too many reasons to hold back will cause others to show their true colors faster and C) it also allows you to explore life and the world more freely and let things just go with he flow unless intervention is needed.

for example, even if i was against anothers cause, i don't like the idea of tricking people... or lets say holding back on a strategy of how i plan to deal with them. I think it cause a karmic hmmm... constipation I guess is the word i want to use.


yeah, i don't want to be karmically constipated.

i'd prefer to just be honest and just let things keep rolling without fear, but this is very hard in this day and age. even for me. people with good intentions horde stuff... like the truth for example... or maybe something less like food or something.... when others around them might be hungry (this is a tough one for me cause I'm a tad greedy when it comes to me empty stomach because i have this complex of thinking i have been deprived of food somehow... but you got to journey forward in faith i think. You got to give people chances to better than what they seem to be... I'm not saying you gotta be their friend or talk to them even, but if you know something that could hurt them and you're thinking...heheheheee
.... I think this isn't a good mindset even if you are not doing anything to them yourself.

You have to know where you can be held personally accountable in everything you do or DON'T do.

It's hard to do that in this world.... but i think it's a sign of being strong in faith.... rather than putting you faith only in your immediate reach of control. sometimes you just have to let go.

i don't know how I went off on this subject... just thoughts.


actually i am trying to avoid a couple of threads where people are just arguing arguing arguing round and round and round. I'm not so worried about the arguments themselves, because i am kinda interested in what kind of stupid things are getting said but i know if i get engrossed... i will sit here picking it apart until my back starts hurting and i am drained of energy and have wasted my time when i could be doing other stuff. Not a good feeling... really draining and a lot of pressure in my back and shoulders because i am currently sitting on a hard plastic bin containing my shirts (the very edge of it that is sticking out and leaning over sideways to reach my keyboard that is sitting cattywhompahs on my shelf and having to turn my head to the right to see what i a typing... and i can't type without looking at the keyboard... so this is a pain in my ass. A little bit is ok cause I would get bored not talking and going online but i can't sit here and argue about dumb # for hours on end like that... no matter how bad i want to.

..and i have so many things to do which i have been avoiding, but I've also been avoiding this dank weather.
it's cold and dank but when i get warm from the heater or put on a jacket i start sweating because of the moisture in the air. I don't like this kind of weather... sick weather... back and forth, back and forth.


speaking of which... the tornado victims got a damn snowstorm!.. as if their luck hasn't been bad enough this week. i feel so bad for them. if i wasn't so far i think i would at least go and try to see if anyone is out in the weather maybe trying to get somewhere or walk and let them rest in my warm van while finding them somewhere to go. wouldn't want to do stuff like that alone but when the weather gets cold, think of how many people are just trying to stay warm. what a terrible thing to be stuck alone in he cold. stuff like that has got to make people just want to give up. what a terrible feeling, just sunk.

even if people don't let the homeless into their homes, i think people should try to think of ways where they can just help people stay warm, like run them a little heater to a shed or something. that can't cost that much. most people probably wouldn't even notice it.



posted on Mar, 6 2012 @ 07:47 PM
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coffee... Can i have a word with you, please? tell me what you think. Now I don't want your help in the form of favors, but some interesting things have transpired over the last day. Earlier this morning my heart started racing. i thought it was going to beat through my chest. I could feel it all the way down in my stomach. i felt so strange earlier and tranced out like I was going to pass out. I laid down. Going in and out of sleep hearing all sorts of weird things. One was a female voice saying "Go get them!"... and all sorts of other weird stuff... only to be left with the impression that this person, this scenario whatever it was supposed to be... it changed, as though a tide had turned.
I guess it would be pretty disturbing to realize that someone is hearing you talk, especially if it is some kind of order like this... but this is something i feel I have had to come to terms with quite some time, that others were listening to *me*

Ok, so that was really weird and perhaps i should just chalked it up to the fact that my heart was racing to the point where i was getting very scared... like death was staring me in the face. I thought about getting one of two relatives to take my blood pressure and pulse but felt so strange in that moment that it hurt to move (still does) and I have been experiencing pressure on my back and shoulders for days. today i thought it might have something to do with a tooth that tries to abcess and I periodically debride it...and it was feeling "itchy" if that is the right word (kind of hard to explain, it's way up in the gum and is just decay at this point)..and so i had been picking at it to debride it and thought that maybe some infection got in my blood stream but the damn thing isn't even swollen and doesn't hurt. doesn't really sound like the abcess horror stories you hear from some people. Didn't think it was a big deal but had to consider due to my heart racing. maybe dehydration and i sat here and got really pissed off and upset before laying down because i know people watch me and some of them pretend to be on MY side but just watch me as things like this happen and do nothing to help. typical for people in this world. It makes you wonder if some really have a soul at all. i mean how many years do you have to try to tell people what is going on with you that is making you dysfunctional to the point where you can't take care of yourself well enough to go to the dentist... and whats worse is that people all around the world have it even worse and people just don't give a sh!t. they just keep living in their sheltered worlds as leaders like Netanyaho looks at our president two days ago and says "we are the little sate, you are the great satan... we are you and you are us" as people are even on this site trying to hint about their experiences in satanic rituals and all sorts of crap that people just dismiss. that kind of crap will make you MAD when you are sitting and just trying to get a clean drink of water to take a couple of Tylenol. I mean people DO... NOT... CARE! At my own expense i have gone around making myself look like a nutcase trying to tell people about the things i have seen and been through, but that's not enough to make them care.... they REFUSE to care until it could possibly start effecting THEM.... and now we are seeing all sorts of things, some might have been trying to listen but when it gets this late in the game and new people just start coming out and being concerned but not doing anything ABOUT IT... just being concerned for their own lives.. it's a day late and a dollar short. it kind of degrades the meaning, you know? Where were any of these people back when i was just a seemingly regular person who just needed help? they were saying i had brought things on myself, now people like that want to listen and it's just a pure kick in the damn ass is what it is but what can you do... at least they are not as bad as the synagogue of Satan and you STILL have to help them when they ask for it because you have a soul! i mean maybe they just can't help being dumb but my point is that i have a bad day the last few days... today and i think the day before yesterday and the most of that i think i have done is poking people for being retards... WELL! what do hey expect? don't shoot the messenger!...speaking of shooting the messenger i've got to look at damn videos where their is a face i recognize and it really bothers me to look closely at the so called puppet being used for that video because there is something on it i have never seen before.... the ridges all over the head... like thorns. I am so damn mad today and people think this crap is #ing funny and it isn't. people are just damn murderers is what they are! and this murdering is sports and leisure for them and it just makes me damn sick to my stomach. People have no #ing mercy on how anyone else feels and i'm just disgusted to be witnessing all this and to be a part of it... cont...



posted on Mar, 6 2012 @ 08:17 PM
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and now i have to go look at more damn videos that are supposed to make these sick impressions on me and i don't know how much more i can take! i broke down and just sunk into myself right before feeling so tired, woozy and sleepy while my heart is beating so fast and hard that i can hear and it feels like it's going to come out of my chest. I sweat i felt him take my hand and repeat over and over again in a voice i can hardly hear "i will always be with you.... I will always be by your side"..and then i think about the man here in town who told me about the south pacific and they call this man crazy, but he is a witness and i believe he is one of Gods people and he is brave and goes out and doesn't care what others think and he talked to me!... when others don't listen and don't care, when i first started thinking i was going crazy at age 18, this man, who doesn't seem to talk to anyone but the spirits around him... he looked right a me and he would TALK to me, he tried to EXPLAIN things TO ME... in a time of looking for answers and getting none but i was supposed to be afraid of this man, run AWAY from this man, when others just blamed everything i was going through on me. what is WRONG with people, coffee? WHAT MAKES PEOPLE LIKE THIS? So blind, so blind...
Who cares what other people think? and even if you are scared to tell your story for fear of repercussion of how it's going to make you look, the least people could do IS LISTEN... but so many people refuse to do even that! they won't even listen when someone else is hurting and complaining! I sat here having to ask myself, would I even be able to make the choices i have made and tell myself that i know i care about other people if i had not gone through what i have gone through. I believe i would, dammit! sure I've done bad things, most people have but nothing compared to what have done. It still doesn't seem like enough and this crap isn't ending... it's not over and there are people out there suffering TERRIBLE TERRIBLE THINGS! how can i fully convince myself that i am not just a product of this? and that my eyes are opening only because someone forced them open? I feel like i have to start over... that we all just have to start over from the beginning and it just makes me feel so sick inside. the only thing that makes me feel better is to talk to him... and i can't even hear his words with my ears, i can't see him with my eyes. i can feel him but if i reach out to really feel that he is there, i just feel the fact that because of what they did, it's never going to happen in this world.... in this life time. it has to be the next one. Why does it have to be this way. why does it have to be bittersweet this way!
It's like a terrible price that we have to pay just to know we are not alone... to know that he is beside me and always will be ... but inspirit where these things are pure and the world cannot get in the way or tempt our souls to a lofty position like these people who do nothing but abuse their power! how can we ever know how it would be unless it happened. how could we ever test our souls to know the truth, to know what is really inside of us driving us. Is it love for everyone in the world, the world SO MESSED UP AND IMPOSSIBLE... or is it just love for each other/ how could we ever know unless we started all over and forgot all these terrible things the world has shown us.... that they will flat out kill you like you are nothing because you are something outside the scope of their narrow minds!

I laid here feeling certain that before it is all said and done, they will kill me. They are going to lock me up and kill me because they are afraid. they think it is perfectly ok to be mean sadistic cruel and high and mighty in their so called power to inflict in such pain they choice on another to get their own way, to cover their own ass. WHAT KIND OF COWARDS ARE THESE PEOPLE WHO FEEL NO MERCY IN THEIR HEART? have they simply never been loved? why didn't their mothers love them? why didn't they have a chance to feel mercy and see things in such a way where they don't need to go out and do this kind of crap to people.

He held my hand telling me "puppet".... I've shown you this. Don't be afraid because in your heart you know it is just skin, I will always be with you and he can't tell me more because of the process, the unfolding... he gives me just small piece that feels so full of meaning but i try to reach out to him to REALLY hear to REALLY see and then pulls away and tells me to have faith and to not be afraid to die. And i'm not anymore... i just want out of here and i want to forget.... but are my eyes deceiving me. Are they really trying to show me that they would kill the messenger.... for what? they would trick and subdue and pull the first shot like it is nothing... nothing at all to them... and the things i have seen just in people close to me that i know are following this. COLD BLOODED MURDERERS RIGHT IN MY MIDST!....cont....



posted on Mar, 6 2012 @ 08:42 PM
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here are witnesses that know what really happened and they are silenced, there is propaganda rampant everywhere. i thought we were going to it better this time but this is going straight by the word! people are REALLY THAT BAD! Some people really are of a dark nature and i thought it could have been better than this! I thought it could be different this time... that these things were a joke, a farse and that even Hitler himself has come back to say "you know what, this crap is messed up and we need to stop it"... having been made to be such a puppet himself. I thought that those secretly in acertain royal bloodline had figured out that they had been born together into an important family to change the tide... in bravery that only souls might remember... as trusted people of god, to do the right thing when the time comes because even if it is poorly understood... the basic principle is in their souls.... and i know they have seen but where are they now? Some of the ones you don't see on the TV screen have been killed? They are being killed for trying to break an important family away for corruption and the Synogogue of satan. If this is happening even to God's people.... there is no hope left in this world that we can change the tide and tell a better story with a happier ending for all. We must go through the cleansing fire of God and repent and pray that it is not eternal hellfire... neverending.

Why can't you tell your story, coffee?

As an act of obedience to God we should not attack other people, but there are satellites that should be brought down out of the sky!

The THINGS THEY ARE DOING TO PEOPLE!


Why can't you tell your story, coffee... it is YOURS to tell!

It could be a testament unto God.

I was blowing my nose and there was blood coming out... is this infection from my tooth? My heart was beating so fast i thought i was going to die... when your pressure goes up your nose will bleed. i do not have high blood pressure. what is happening to me? I feel terrible. I slept. of course during the day because I can't sleep at night even though that is very much what i would RATHER do. the sun makes it hot during the day and the night is cool, dark and i can get nothing done and have a lot of work to do. Why do I feel this way? I am not in that bad of shape. I can do a lot of work sometimes... i can go for jogs. What is happening to me now?

I woke up and felt a lot better but still tired. Trying to take it slow because i didn't want my heart to start racing again because i thought it had stopped. Still feeling woozy and weak and like an elephant is on my back, went inside a relatives house and was talking to them... i asked if they had antibiotics for my tooth because they keep things like that on hand. thought it might be a good idea to have them check my blood pressure just in case it was up and my pulse while I was at it sine it had been high.

My pulse was 123.

123!... i don't even have to look that up to know it is dangerously high and thought it had gone down. I can't hear it in my ears anymore and feel it in my stomach making my stomach actually jump with the beats like my blood is about to just burst out of my chest.... I thought it was much better and still 123!

I can't even imagine what it was earlier. i can't even imagine.

I would say i was angry but i think am too tired to be angry.

even though I know only a few people care about this, I have to figure out what is causing this.... but first i have to lay back down. I just feel terrible... absolutely terrible.



posted on Mar, 7 2012 @ 09:27 AM
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Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
coffee... Can i have a word with you, please?



Why can't you tell your story, coffee?



Why can't you tell your story, coffee... it is YOURS to tell!



Why, BSD? Why should I? What the hell does all the ATS staff and membership need to know my story for??

You don't need to know my story, they don't need to know my story. It's classified!

It's like I told you before, BSD. I don't trust you. You're obviously very skilled at mind control; for all I know you could be one of "them". And I don't like "them" very much. In fact, I despise "them" so much I'd beat every single one of their asses within an inch of "their" lives, if I could get away with it.

I don't trust any kind of gang or secret group or secret society. I don't trust cops, I don't trust military, I don't trust bikers, I don't trust Masons, I don't trust Hells Angels, I don't trust gangsters and mafia.

I don't trust anyone who resorts to organized surveillance and stalking and mind-control tactics instead of the "nice" polite ways of socializing.

So, listen up. Now I'm well aware that people have found my Facebook profile. My email address and my phone number are right on there, so I'm well aware that people have those too.

If people have business they want to settle with me, if people want me to trust them, they can pick up a damn phone and dial my number. Or they can message me on Facebook and set up a meeting that way.

But settling sh## in THIS place, this bloody minefield of information warfare, BSD??

No, no, HELL no. No, you're out of your damn mind BSD. No.

No, I'm not going to humor you, I'm not going to "tell you my story". I've already told you and the rest of ATS WAY too much information as it is....



posted on Mar, 7 2012 @ 03:30 PM
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This is an interesting thread.
Kudos to you who have shared experiences.



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