posted on Jan, 17 2012 @ 02:34 PM
Let me just start by saying, I AM NOT GONNA GET OUT OF BED TODAY! Am I having a pity party for myself? Probably! Am I frustrated? That and more! I am
so happy to be a part of ATS, but when I joined I have been creating crazy stress on myself because I realize I might be outta my league. My first few
threads, which I thought were very cool, seem like crap compared to all the great, intelligant, and informative threads I been reading. I would love
to make it to the hottest topics chart sometime on ATS, but hell, working a full time job to try and make ends meet,(my checking account was overdrawn
today when I called the bank) has given me no time to do research. My adoptee says it takes them weeks of research before they even begin to start a
I have made it a point to write about my boyfriend in every thread because he is so anti-ATS. He is a good man, and treats me better than anyone ever
has, but HE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY TODAY! He is a Dog Musher and thinks on my two days off a week, I need to be outside with the dogs helping him.
That's his thing; Mine has become ATS.
However I am beginning to wonder if I belong here. General Chit Chat has become my area of choice, because hell, that seems to be all I been doing
lately. My Area 51 thread got turned into a joke by a member saying,Oh the Ol Wall of text" which now I know what that is. My introductory thread,
well lets just say thinking the guy on the videos is hot probably wasn't a good start. (they probably think I am some dumb young girl with hormones
acting up) I have gotten some good feedback from those who have taken the time to read some of my threads and really understand, (thank you so much)
but dang I think I am in over my head here sometimes.
Oh, and I have no idea how to post links, qoutes from other sources correctly, and God forbid me try to post a Youtube video. It took me three weeks
to figure out how to get my avatar! I am not giving up, but maybe I should. I mean really, who cares about anything I have written in this anyways.
Heck at the moment I am laughing at myself for even wrtitting it. No Stars, or Flags, or Chart Toppers for me!!! Yep, Not leaving the bed today!