posted on Jan, 13 2012 @ 09:19 AM
reply to post by lcbjr1979
Isn't it amazing how strong the attachment can become for people who have never even met? I know there was a HUGE collective sigh when your wife
said you were going to be okay, and then when you were coming home!
I know you don't think yourself a hero, but hero's rarely do.
But you know that society often views firefighters/paramedics as hero's based on
the jobs that they do. You, however, took that a step further. After you were shot your actions spoke of your true nature. You did something that
the boys own mother and step-father hadn't done; you protected him. I have no doubt that during his darkest moments, he is going to remember your
face and the fact that someone
thought his life was worth saving.
Your nightmares are normal. It is part of how the human brain sorts through the intense emotions without totally losing it. Talking about what
happened (as hard as it may be) will be a big step in sorting it all out.(and I don't just mean the facts but how you were feeling) I don't know if
you are only meeting with the counselour or an actual debrief 'team' (all the people involved in the call that day) but if it is just a one-on-one,
ask about a formal debrief. I believe that discussing the actual events, play-by-play and hearing it from all the different views and what they were
(from your partners, to the police, to the dispatcher) is key. You know how your brain is constanty playing that scene over and over
and over and over again? Putting it all out there and seeing it through their eyes to complete the picture helps to interrupt that cycle....it isn't
a magic fix, but it is a begining. The brain acutally has several levels of processing that it goes through and getting past that first one can be
the toughest. If you find that, after a couple of more weeks, you are still having a hard time sleeping, or are still replaying it constantly in your
head, are irritable, angry or depressed than you probably need some more help in sorting it out. It'll be a long process but it seems like you have
all the support to help you get through it!
Don't push yourself too hard or expect too much. Oh, and watch out for all the political threads...