What my title is eluding to is waking up in the spiritual sense while still having to deal with the world around you that is fast asleep.

Sense my early teens I’ve been on a journey, a journey of knowledge. What started this was a book I bought titled “New Age Hypnosis”. Through reading that book I had an OBE. No I can’t prove it too you even though I can describe the events clearly. Ever since that moment I HAD to know more.

So as the years past I read a library, of sorts, of books on the corresponding subjects. i.e.: Astral travel, NDE, paranormal, eastern religions and new age teachings. I learned a lot and I also was left with a lot of questions. I was definitely traveling down the rabbit hole, until recently. A friend let me borrow a book she had just finished reading and she told me that it would change my life. Now, I’ve been told that MANY times before, so when I’m told that I take it with a grain of salt. Boy was I she right.

The book is Eckhart Tolles’ “A New Earth”. If you are searching for the ‘truth’ of this life/world, this book is the one to read to help you find it. **Spoiler alert** the truth is essentially getting rid of your ego, and this book is almost a step by step with how to do that. I can’t say that my ego is gone but it is definitely on its way out. 

The help I need is that after seeing the world for what it is, just one ego trying to overcome all the other egos. It has become difficult to manage everyday life with seeing the world through my new eyes. It isn’t all bad because it has helped me with my relationships, with patience with my kid and to deal with people in a new/better way. As well as to make me a better me.

The problem lies in that now the societal world around me has become bland and almost pointless. I feel myself with withdrawing, just wanting silence and calm. It’s almost as if when I’m still is the most exciting thing I can do. Watching the ego run world has becoming sickening and distasteful. I still have fun and love to live life but now I find joy in the little things. Last night I was eating a pop sickle after dinner and I found myself just enjoying every bite as if it was the best thing in the world.

So my question to the rest of my ATS family is that for those of you who are on the same journey as myself, how do you cope with this dream/nightmare of the 'real' world once you see it for what it REALLY is?

I think Bill Hicks said it best.

"It's just a ride."

ive been in the struggle you describe for about 20 years. i find the main focus has to be of service to others. every contact has a reason/purpose behind it even if i dont understand what is happening. people are attracted to your energy pattern and they come to you to be healed. it is all subconscious so dont try to figure any of it out. if you focus on yourself then you fall into the ego trap. you fall into im bored to im special and any of the spectrum in between. be ego free and serve/do the best you can and the rest explains itself when the moment arrives.

Originally posted by zyrktec
ive been in the struggle you describe for about 20 years. i find the main focus has to be of service to others. every contact has a reason/purpose behind it even if i dont understand what is happening. people are attracted to your energy pattern and they come to you to be healed. it is all subconscious so dont try to figure any of it out. if you focus on yourself then you fall into the ego trap. you fall into im bored to im special and any of the spectrum in between. be ego free and serve/do the best you can and the rest explains itself when the moment arrives.

I agree. I've always felt a strong pull to service to others, even before I started reading up in all of this.
And also it is a paradoxical stament to strive for enlightenment because you then put substence to somthing that has no substance therefore making your efforts null and void.

Oh what a wild ride it is.