posted on Jan, 8 2012 @ 02:31 PM
i tried to make a nice long reply and i lost it due to my internet shutting down on me.
as you know already i have a dark side when it comes to serial killers and horror, now that i replied to a couple of your other replies...
This is a great topic I BECAME VERY EXCITED AND MADE A HUGE POST im so sad.
ive always had a huge interest in the dead and undead.
I became very active in photography which lead me to photo shopping and doing photo shoots making people look dead. long story short i was
hired/volunteered for a couple of groups in town as official photographer and having all kinds of PR and fun doing what i loved.
It turned into a little more than a hobby. i made the biggest mistake someone could make and gave away too many secrets. How to do horror makeup
applications and all that stuff, i had taught myself by using my sister as a guinea pig and one of these groups just took off without me after i told
all of them how and what to do to be a successful zombie. our local zombie walk #ed me over.
i did a ton of pr for the other group who used my pictures as advertisements and that group, a group of pirates from the renaissance also FU(ked me
in the meantime there were some good parts, i did some photo shoots that were very successful but i made another mistake of trying to turn this into a
profession. Did some shoots that were normal and it really ruined the experience for me.
i went back to doing shoots for bands instead of normal people but it wasn't gory enough for me, and they don't pay well, or at all in some cases.
so i tried to sell some of my dark art pieces and had no idea how to get into that and failed as well
currently im just a twisted individual that has given up on the camera, whose house looks like a pirate/dungeon i use my Halloween decorations and
such all year long. its an obsession and way of life.
i cant let too many normal people visit. one time i let a drunk neighbor in and she thought i was a witch LMAO
so i tried my hand at decorating, didnt work out too well, my style is awesome but its sooooooooo impossible to get my style without going to all the
after Halloween sales, antique stores, and random collecting. i also have a lot of donated antiquities that people are just like omg she would love
in the future i am so obsessed im going to make the outside of my house look old and run down like a creepy cabin, i live next to a lake so my pirate
flag flys high. anyone that comes in here know they are in the dark side immediately but mixing it with the pirate/horror/ renaissance, and antiques
they look at it more now as a museum than a witch house...
unfortunately it takes money to do all this, so ive slowed way down, am depressed because of it, have a ton of bills that are piling up because im
bankrupt but cant afford bankruptcy so in a way its good that nothing i have is normal because its not like they are going to get anything for a clay
skull if they take my # or a cat eaten picture of skulls with a cooked frame ect.
a collection of death, past, failed businesses, pets, and oddness.
im a true freak who is disabled and on over 7000 of medication a year whos lost the motivation for their darkness and really really misses it. it
scares me that i may in the future be willing to give it all up to have my darkness back, and my motivation for dark things. i miss it sooooo much.