posted on Jan, 5 2012 @ 11:43 PM
“Look and you shall see, listen and you shall hear, touch and you shall feel; but not with your eyes, nor your ears, nor your hands, but with your
soul. Alas, glory is its name, not from the mouth of princes but from that of indigent; not from money but from family; not from pride but from
humility. Follow my voice as it speaks to your soul; allow my words to be your guide. Read the words I have engraved upon your heart; trust them and
follow them so.
Submit; not from fear, intimidation, or ignorance, but from love. Allow me to speak to you and through you; be my soldier and my healer. Fill the
hearts with compassion, the eyes with tears of joy, the stomachs with bread, and the souls with my love. Go forth and be my apostle. Defend me
jealously; preach me fervently; love me ceaselessly; and worship me passionately. Be my caretaker on this Earth and the defender of this light. Unto
you I place this burden not from odium but from affection.
Thus spoke the LORD GOD.”
Awaken I must from the humble slumber. Not to partake in harm or plunder. For my heart has been spoken to from the divine. Unto me God gave
instructions to go forth, with the wisdom of the sages and the spirit of the saints. Loyal I shall be unto the almighty for all of eternity. Others
may speak ill, curse, or shun; but my devotion is to God, the omnipotent one.
My searches have led me to the darkest corners of my soul; a place of revulsion, dread, and woe. As I sought the light even while it seemed dim and
far away, forgetting my mission sometimes along the way. It is not one to take lightly nor can it be done effortlessly, your search for God is a long
march towards truth. For how better to describe the creator, the father, the friend, and the guide; than all that is good, all that is sweet, and all
that is true.
Abandon yourself, depart from depravity; lift up your spirit beyond this reality. Transcend the limitations of this material location in search of
oneness with God the almighty. Waiting is he upon my arrival, to welcome me into his eternal kingdom. That is my journey henceforth, to reconnect my
spirit to his in Holy Communion. Being yet another fallen creation, the path towards unity is often met with unfortunate spiritual stagnation.
Nevertheless I march onward, cross in hand.
But why do I partake in such devotion? For what purpose is this religious commotion? I feel in my heart a yearning towards this reconnection, much as
a child feels the yearning towards his deceased mother or father. It is not out of fear of reprimand or damnation; not because of popularity or
status; not from wishful thinking of an afterlife or Heavenly bliss. But for the same reason every believer in God has; what is the meaning of
Man has asked this question when faced with the centuries of perpetual adversity. War, famine, death, disease, poverty, tragedy, terror, and
unimaginable pain have been suffered by millions every year on Earth. Many turn towards the Heavens in wrath, “why hath you forsaken me God, why?”
they ask. Often it feels to man like he is alone with no meaning or purpose for his continual survival. Why fight when death awaits you? Why love when
heart ache awaits you? Why smile when injustice awaits you? Why try when life always conquers you?
“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish?
2 My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, but I find no rest.” – Psalm 22:1 – 2
In this world of pain and suffering how could a just omnipotent being exist? But, is it not true, that if you knew not pain there would be no
happiness? If you knew no death, then how could you cherish life? If you knew no cold days, then how could you know the warmth? If you knew no
loneliness, then how could you know companionship? If you were not separated from God, then how could you really know his presence?
“Try to exclude the possibility of suffering which the order of nature and the existence of free-wills involve, and you find that you have excluded
life itself.” – C. S. Lewis
God bestowed upon us free will of which we may use to express ourselves, destroy ourselves, and renew ourselves. It tests the spirit of the man with
many appetizing alternatives to the goodness which waits patiently for us. We preoccupy ourselves with infantile desires, indulge in shallow things,
and pleasure ourselves with the irrelevant. Distracted are our hearts, minds, and souls, with the petty and simple; like a child at play in the mud,
rejecting a vacation to Hawaii.
The hearts of man have cried out for God, but they have fallen on deaf ears. The distractions presented to him are too much for his mind to reject.
Heart, cry as you will, for your request will go unanswered and your desires unfulfilled. But, not mine. Not my heart. It shall feel the warmth of the
divine embrace. It shall feel the touch of God’s grace; and mind, body, and soul, all the better for it.
“Come, come, whoever you are.
Wanderer, worshipper, lover of leaving — it doesn't matter,
Ours is not a caravan of despair.
Come, even if you have broken your vow a hundred times,
Come, come again, come.” – Rumi
History has given us men of great virtue and vigor for God; for that I am grateful. But above all, God has given me my life; for that, I give unto him
my devotion. However one goes about worshipping their creator, I pray that all of their questions shall be answered. And for everyone who cries tears
of sorrow – may they be dried up with joy.