When Life Just Gets Too Much

Phew I went through some dark hours last night and I got myself into a pickle. I am grateful for your help to everybody on here, I think talking to you may have helped a great deal. I am already seeking help and I have regular psychologist visits, unfortunately for me Gamcare and the AA/NA cannot treat me during the time I am under treatment because you cannot have multiple types of thearapy at the same time. I did contact gamcare and they basically were about as useful as a chocolate fire guard. However I have woken up today to find a new posative, I looked at my daughter in the morning and she gave me a big smile and I thought, hey it doesn't matter what happens, I will always be able to see that smile so it is all worth it.

I have started with an action plan, I am handing over all my financial affairs to my wife so that I cannot spend it on gambling or drugs. The alcohol isn't so much of a problem because I do not ever feel like I need to drink and I would never drink on a work night. So today we start a fresh, I taken a christmas present back to the shops today and got a refund, thats £370 towards my insurance. Just need to find a way to raise about another £150 and all will be fine.

Again may I thank those that took it in their hearts to help me last night,

Originally posted by michael1983l
Phew I went through some dark hours last night and I got myself into a pickle. I am grateful for your help to everybody on here, I think talking to you may have helped a great deal. I am already seeking help and I have regular psychologist visits, unfortunately for me Gamcare and the AA/NA cannot treat me during the time I am under treatment because you cannot have multiple types of thearapy at the same time. I did contact gamcare and they basically were about as useful as a chocolate fire guard. However I have woken up today to find a new posative, I looked at my daughter in the morning and she gave me a big smile and I thought, hey it doesn't matter what happens, I will always be able to see that smile so it is all worth it.

I have started with an action plan, I am handing over all my financial affairs to my wife so that I cannot spend it on gambling or drugs. The alcohol isn't so much of a problem because I do not ever feel like I need to drink and I would never drink on a work night. So today we start a fresh, I taken a christmas present back to the shops today and got a refund, thats £370 towards my insurance. Just need to find a way to raise about another £150 and all will be fine.

Again may I thank those that took it in their hearts to help me last night,

Wow, That made my morning.

I thought about you all night. I said a prayer for you...(hope you don't mind).

Someday, you will look back at last night. You will not believe how far you have come.

People do care....

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Brilliant Well done.

I hope things continue to go well for you.

Thanks and no I don't mind you making a prayer. As they say things can only get better from here so lets look to the future.

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Michael1983,

I am new to this sight and after the thread dropped off of board I had no idea how to find it again. Like others I have not stopped thinking about you. So much so that I made up my mind to scour the site to find this...and I did and to my enjoyment it appears you have taken the right steps. NOTHING is more important than being there for your kids, and I loved what you said about seeing your little girl's smile. They need you...don't ever forget that. Keep walking down the new road you are on...we will be thinking about you!