posted on Dec, 23 2011 @ 04:20 PM
This will be the first yeat that our children wont have any presents under the tree. they understand and are being so good about it, not complaining,
asking if they can help out in any way, trying to make little things out of stuff in their rooms, little gifts, things to wrap, for their mother and
It has been a hard year for us, as Im sure it has for allot of people, I have been out of work for some time now, so I decided to go back to school
and get an education in the IT field, so school has taken up all of my time, and my wife their mother is the sole bread winner at this time, doing all
she can do to keep us afloat, even pawning her own wedding rings(without me knowing) just to get us to this week, something I hope to change as soon
as I graduate in September, but the thing that gets me is our children, and how well they have adapted to our plight.
I dont even know why Im writing this thread, I guess to just share it with someone, a way to relieve some of the stress of it all. I know I havnt
been very friendly member at times, even abrasive. Ijust am so proud of my great children, Emerson, Amanda, and Tyler, we have explained it to them
that there wont be any gifts for them under the tree on Christmas day, and we are not just trying to trick them, and they tell us they understand, but
thefeeling we get inside knowing that they sooo deserve something on christmas day, and we cant give it to them, really hurts our hearts, and theres
nothing we can do. I guess we' ll just have to wait untill next payday and see if we can put enough bills off and get them something.
Maybe this year will be different, maybe itll bring better oppertunities, maybe Ill finaly find that job that will make everything all right, who
knows. I just know that this Christmas three kids arnt going to have a any, I guess we just need to be thankfull we have a roof over our heads and
we're warm,it just hurts.
Thanks for listening, and letting me get it out, I hope I made the right choice going back to school, I hope I can give them the life they deserve, I
hope they forgive us for this year, and I hope we can make it up to them in the future.