
muppet

nice post!
I don't think it deteriorates your soul at all. Yes, it is disturbing... I was downloading videos on Kazaa one night and got one of the 'snuff
films' on accident... pissed me off, but I forced myself to watch it a couple times and come to grips with the reality of mortality. It was a good
thing. Later that year I was doing a 'book' for 3D design class and decided to do a piece on death. I spent a whole night just looking at pics of
people who were dead, then I had to save them, open them up on photochop, adjust to greyscale, and crop each one to fit the art. It was disturbing,
but I put myself through it. It was a book, and I haven't opened it since I displayed it... not sure if I even have it anymore, lol. But the point is
that it gave me a greater appreciation for life. My understanding of the entire human world was expanded with one great big blow. To tell you the
truth, as disturbing as it was, it was an amazing thing, looking back on it... no video game could even compare to the realization that a body is
dead. Incomparable.
I do hope that I don't see anything in real life, though... I've seen enough death in RL, and it sucks. Even hunting animals pains me... and I hope
that I get a good kill, just for the sake of the animal (I'm slowly turning vegan, lol... too primitive to go vegan, though

... I much prefer fish
and chicken to beef... but Elk.... MMM!!! Richest meat on the planet, IMHO! sry... off track)AARGGH!!!! I hope I never have to go back to living in a
cave.... I'd have some serious issues. The need to watch death? We are primitive. We need that reminder that we aren't stone. Makes one person
appreciate the other... unless it's all you see all day long, like EMT's.
AAhhh... yes, ask an EMT about this.... they will give oyu a completely different perspective on life... be warned, though... some of those guys are
pretty disconnected. One of my best friends (R.I.P.) was an EMT.... heard some twisted stories.
[edit on 8-9-2004 by Earthscum]