"Feelings about things wayyy outside the box, that cannot be explained. Connections, coincidences, and some straight out crazy things that happen in a
persons life, that can cause them to feel this way."
Anyway, I was weirdo since I was young. It was actually quite stubborn and rebellious as a child, I complained that (and I quote my young self) "these
darn teachers aren't teachin us anything" since first grade. While that is not completely true as I did do a lot of learning, I refused to buy into
the system as a child.
Also, I went to a Catholic school. While I am spiritual now, by the time I got to 8th grade I was a hard-core atheist. I remember hearing about 9/11
(happened when I was 9) and Muslims. Even then the whole "they attacked us because they hate our freedom" did not make sense to me. As I got older,
what really got my gears turning was the fact that there are so many loyal followers of multiple different religions around the world, and they are
all sure they are right. I saw the hard-core-religious fanatics at my school and church and I realized the only reason I believed it all was because
everyone around me did. I also realized that it works the same way in all religions, so around 8th grade I decided to say "screw it, I am not going to
believe this until I learn about other religions etc"...
After that I began to listening to Immortal Technique. I probably wouldn't be on these forums today if it wasn't for Tech. Also, during my phase an
atheist, I was kinda depressed and anti-social. I didn't really care about what everyone else did. I never liked sports for example. During the rest
of high school I spent a lot of time on the computer, from posting on forums, to learning about online marketing(I have now written a course on online
marketing from my experience, it's self published on my own website). Bottom line was, I wanted to be independent.
My first of two senior years is when I developed my spirituality as well as a social life. Over that year and in the next one I got into a lot of
trouble with my newly earned internet money, I will not over the details of that.
edit- Also during this time I got into studying and practicing OOBEs, Astral projection, and lucid dreaming.
Since then I have also gotten the opportunity to travel to some really cool places as well as do community service there. Including Morocco(a Muslim
country), South Africa, and Mozambique. I met people there who were suffering REAL poverty(like TV commercial status), and when I said "met" them I
mean actually spending time with them and talking, not just looking at them from a safe distance lol. That really "woke" me up and made me realize how
#ed the global dynamic was. I also had the opportunity to meet real revolutionaries in SA that fought against the apartheid, people who fought in the
Mozambique civil war which just ended in 92, as well as real modern revolutionaries in Morocco who told us about having some of their friends killed
even in recent years by the gov there.
Besides that, I have ALWAYS wanted to learn more about "WHAT is reality" "WHAT makes us selfaware" "basically WTF is going here?" - because I feel
like these questions are not truly answered and many go through life accepting incomplete answers, and answers I indeed got.
Trinity: I know why you're here, Neo. I know what you've been doing... why you hardly sleep, why you live alone, and why night after night, you sit by
your computer. You're looking for him. I know because I was once looking for the same thing. And when he found me, he told me I wasn't really looking
for him. I was looking for an answer. It's the question that drives us, Neo. It's the question that brought you here. You know the question, just as I
Neo: What is the Matrix?
Trinity: The answer is out there, Neo, and it's looking for you, and it will find you if you want it to.
edit, just some weird experiences I thought I'd ad- also when I was a wee little boy, when I would goto bead to fall asleep I would see weird things
like florescent mist and crap like that in my room. Also when I was in about 3rd grade, I woke up and saw some sort of angelic-luminescent-being near
my bed, I sat up in my bed and had a weird feeling that it was all OK, so I went back to bed and didn't think "WTF?" until the next morning. Just a
few years ago, I and two friends, all sober, saw some weird morphing balls of energy over the Chesapeake Bay .
edit on 14-12-2011 by CREAM
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