posted on Dec, 9 2011 @ 07:35 PM
Those that "HAVE" a life... such as going to College, having a family that cares about them and although perhaps being an arsehole family or not being
one genuinely cares about that persons well being. Is proud of them. Has brought them up to be independent and strong busy bodies. Well when your on
the net, you don't have that kind of family, you can't go to College because you never were a "SCHOOL" person who made straight As and could get by
easy in school or you couldn't or wouldn't be able to study because the stress was too much for you or you even couldn't "PAY" the loans for College
or get your parents to do... ect. ect. blah blah blah you get the picture by now I am sure. It sucks "PERIOD" and all you can do is try to smile and
say you "CAN" do it. While the other people who are lucky and have offers ((I have had one from mine but I did have issues with school so yeah.)) and
are lucky to even get into College and stay there seem to have more friends and a better quality of life and seem to not care about anyone but them
and not put out time for others that much. Well yeah... I've been noticing those types of people can't afford to care about anyone else. But some
times I wonder if they could make the effort a bit more. An example... I work a part time job that pays #ty for my grandparents just to make money to
get by. I wanna get a job but the pressure is so much and I don't know where to apply to that much now anyways because I know my family wouldn't want
to be driving me to work everyday and one they will be gone and dead some day. I am under pressure to get out on my own and although I vent and talk
about it I dunno how to put action into the situation because "NO" one wants to break their bubbles and if they do and could they would and its just
this place is a mess. What do you do when your forced with little options and you can barely have the strength to go exercising let alone do chores
because your taking care of a bi polar mother and your grandparents aren't helping any and wont even make the decency to call the doctors repeatedly
to put her in the hospital so they can keep the community hushed about the situation. Man... I am just saying I wish people could learn to throw this
to the side and just start helping people... or at the least make about ten minutes for that special some one you care about and make them feel good.
I dunno... I do it all the time.... and I just am worn out. Sometime I don't know if I should quit or not. I wish I could. Rant over.... I just
wanted to get this off my chest.
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