I figured I'd better say something.
First of all I had no idea so many people would comment on this thread or give me good advice. Or show they cared. It made me really happy but also
embarrassed to come crawling back after this big dramatic exit.
So I guess I owe you people a response, those who still care, and to say I'm sorry I didn't listen to you.
Basically what you thought was going to happen is what happened. I started going with this guy and I really liked him for a lot of reasons. He's
cute, and smart, and Christian, and near the same age as me, and we share a lot of the same values. But what most of you said was correct, he started
making all my decisions for me and trying to control my life too much. The sad thing was how easily I went along. I'm a pretty strong-minded person
but I got so lonely. Eventually he wouldn't let me call my parents anymore, so my brother got super-angry and drove over and there was a big ugly
loud "confrontation." but it was a kind of wake-up call because I realized how important my family was.
There are two ATS members here who I kept in touch with, I want to thank you both for being very supportive. I'm sorry to bother one of you in
particular (you know who you are) so much, and you've been very patient with me since a long time ago, when I first joined. I'm really sorry for
bothering you so much. You are a very good person even though you are also an incredible jerk about women in another way, too. Good and a total jerk
at the same time. People are very confusing! Part of me growing up the last few months has been learning that, learning to accept people's
complecations and that good and bad can be in the same person. Anyway that's something else, check your u2u I wrote you something
I decided that I wanted to be with my family and people who know me and loved me, over the new boyfriend who only loved the "idea of me" and not the
real me. And I decided I want to be with my friends on ATS while we watch the world collapse together, because its happening and its not going to be
stopped! We have front row seats, don't you want to see it together too? I'll find another BF someday, I guess.
I also decided I'm not going to be such an attention-grubber too, ATS. There were some criticisms in this thread and actually upon reflection I
agree, I am too much of a drama queen. This is the new me, sober and restrained, not seeking attention, humble, quietly discussing the news and
issues, not myself or my drama-queen dramas. I'm not going to be that way anymore. This is the new party-girl, muted tones.
Thanks again to the people that cared enough, there are a lot of you, it is very touching!!! Peace on earth to all my friends on ATS around the
world. love, partygirl