reply to post by unworldly
I only joined this forum (after being a lurker) to respond to this post, happily reading the A51watcher incredible Roswell thread, and being pulled in
this direction. Hmmph.
Look I'm a young (ish) lad, generally positive person, loves metaphysics/quantum physics (have done even since at school) - because I'm just
fascinated by how the world works scientifically, and I guess what spiritual element there is - seeking the truth, whatever that may be. I'm a music
producer and an author with a family - I'm an unshaven, bit of a "bad boy" in a comedy fashion character, but who likes to quietly offer to, and go
about trying to make the world a better place... whilst looking shady, as people don't bother me generally on my journey lol!
I'm not what you would imagine, to be a "medium" (if you see me in my cold weather attire, you'd probably cross the street in fact lol!) However
reluctant I am to admit it at times, that is precisely what I am.
The accuracy of the information I give, and where it comes from scares me. I worry that I'm a fraud, I worry how the hell I know stuff my "sitters"
don't (until, they go away and research their family history and find out), I worry that I am dealing with such a damn sensitive issue - what happens
if I'm wrong?? After all, this is the most emotionally distressing of subjects as I am sure well all know too well (losing someone). And I worry, what
if the religious people who found out about me, are right, and I'm doing the devils work!! (Odd though, only happens after offering my "service" to
the betterment of the world?)
I feel sickness, pain, see images, have them "speak to me" in mind and pester me until I relent. In fact, I had closed this off years ago until
recently it has started happening to me again. Yes this "happened" to me - and the fashion it began in was traumatic and frightening.
The other thing that may surprised you guys, I NEVER give a reading in person - only ever online, or even lately crazy as it may sound, by text!!
Seldom do the people I read for know who I am, or keep in touch - they drift in, receive their messages, and move along. Few people know I do this,
so coming here and talking about it is hard. And you want to discuss ambiguity, the longest reading I gave was approximately 17 hours - and though I
would NEVER release it, I kept the transcripts, and the circumstances surrounding it were completely bizarre.
I do not know what it is, I don't know where it came from or why. But this phenomenon is real alright. I never charge, never take credit, and am
always humbled (and honoured I guess) by the experience. I hold no grudge or judgement against those excellent REAL mediums, (there are indeed a few
out there) who do it all day every day accurately, and charge for it - it doesnt sit right with me personally that is all. I always say to everyone
though on a read, often the key to understanding it thoroughly is the "character" of a read. Subtle signs, nuances that take a read from being a
series of words to having an actual "personality". I ask of (whatever the heck it is), to ensure I know as LITTLE as possible, and to deliver it in a
way that I CANNOT interfere or judge the information, and therefore tarnish it as minimally as I can as it filters through my own subconscious.
This has led to some startling revelations and some beautifully warm and tender moments where the sitter has, without doubt, known I couldn't have
known - because I didnt even realise I was doing it! This happened the other morning, to do with Bernard Matthews (a turkey farmer in the UK) -
obviously, confidentiality means I would disclose no more - but it did catch me by surprise, as it was in discussions with the 'sitter', the morning
AFTER the read - and was a piece of information delivered in a specific way I had asked for, for that person in question, and I did not even realise
till after when I was "made aware" that I had done it.
I will be willing to discuss it, anonymously here of course, with anyone, if it helps further your understanding or perhaps answers questions. I am
sure others will be out there whom are confused or frightened by experiences they have had, or others who may just like to ask questions as to how it
happens and what I experience during a "reading".
If you come to judge or bark at me however, politely do one, I am no shrinking violet and am not here to argue of its "reality" - I am simply doing as
I always do with regards to this subject, and offering myself in positive service to the world.
I hope "unwordly", that this post provides a little enlightenment and a different perspective to your question my friend.
(Sorry I meant to clarify, I NEVER charge for a reading - and seldom do I even know it is about to happen, things just seem to coincide and bring
people to me. It's really odd).
edit on 29-11-2011 by NormallyWeirdDude because: Forgot important bit - wow using the edit feature, now I know how it works!!