I understand your pain.
Been there,done that many times.
I am 47 years old,so a little wisdom goes along ways.
Ok,you posted this.
I thank you all for your supportive replies, it's just that I have a very bad lifestyle. I have no job any more, I am not currently going to
college any more, and I used to have an extremely debilitating anxiety/panic disorder that was fueled by my hypochondria (which is gone now because I
am so fed up with life that I do not care what happens to me). She came to me when all of this first started happening to me, she was the only one
that understood and was accepting. She was my crutch that I needed or would have died. Yes, I can thank her for that, but after so much time of her
promising, swearing, reassuring, that we would remain together, I feel worse off. How could I ever find another person to accept me for what I
Read what you posted .
You do not need a crutch,you,first ,need to concentrate on yourself.
I know the pain,it can be debilitating,but hopefully you will see through it all and pick yourself up.
When I was 19,my live in girlfriend was murdered.
In our apartment we shared, by a friend of hers.
I came home from school and found her dead.
It took some time,but I was able to move on,knowing that I was in charge of my destiny,no one else.
I continued school,graduated,met a girl.
We got married when I was 22.
I got a great job,where I still work.
We divorced 4 years later.
I met the love of my life 4 years later,we got married and had kids.
Life is a journey,enjoy it while you can,cause at the end of the road,is well,you know.
May you have a most fulfilling,joyful journey.
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