Originally posted by creatureme
You are not alone, I have this feeling all the time. Except when I get those horrible anxeiety attacks. I kind of feel empty. I miss the emotions I
felt when I was a child. I think... For me at least - all the constant flow of digital info that surrounds me at all times, drowns me. This makes me
into a robotlike doll... it feels like... And I get so angry sometimes because other people around me also drown into this mess. They dont have time
anymore and as long as they can have contact through facebook, its enough for them.
Yes, it definitely disturbs me that so many people live through a screen these days. I think, more than anything, this is what keeps me interested in
things that are old-fashioned. Nobody knows how to
do anything anymore.
I have found that making time, not allowing myself to be caught up with statuses and articles and video compilations has really grounded me. I feel
like I am present and I am alive when I'm outside and nowhere near technology.
Those real human relations are slipping away.. And without that dinner with that friend or that familymember - that trip or that piknik - for me, is
making me feel this kind of emptyness or the sense of feeling emotionless.. And very, very lonely in a really weird way..
I don't think that's weird at all. In fact, it makes a lot of sense. We have lost our communities and those bonds with the world around us.
I know exactly what you mean. When I read a story set 50 or 100 years ago, there is so much emphasis on interpersonal relationships with friends,
neighbors, townspeople. Nowadays, most folks don't even know their neighbors names, let alone spend time with them.
It is disheartening.
And that again makes me feel.. this despairing emptiness. This is one of the main reasons that makes me depressed I guess.It feels like almost no one
- that I now used to know - care a damn thing about me as a person nowadays..
I actually only have two friends - people I talk to daily and spend time with -, and they are both related to me. So, yeah, I know what you mean on
that one. I rarely even speak to my other family members. Basically, the only time they initiate interaction with me is when they "like" a picture
of my kids on a social networking site. The fact of the matter is, the only reason I even do any social networking for personal use is so that my
relatives can be a part of my kids' lives - even if it is only in that digital format.
It is empty. These shallow and weak relationships... they are not real and there is nothing to hold them together when things go bad.
So I located the root to the problem by reflecting when writings this.. So it seems this is a lack for me. Do you have any important un-materialistic
lacks in your life that may make you feel like this?
I don't know. I really don't. I don't really feel like I miss having friends. I don't feel the need to go out and meet new people. But, at the
same time, I do like to converse and debate and hear new ideas. I guess that's why I visit this website, because there are people who discuss things
I am interested in, but I don't have to deal with the shallow and dramatic interactions of stereotypical society.
I don't know what I lack, other than a feeling of complete security/safety.
I feel like I don't know where I am headed in this life, what my purpose is.
All I can do is live and breathe and do what I feel compelled to do. Maybe these things I feel compelled to do are what I am supposed to be doing in
the world.
By the way! I went to my first UFO conferance this weekend 
You think I should do a thread on this? Dunno if I remember it all - but it was very
cool being there 
(and actually boring at some point) 
I do think you should write about it, I am interested in what you learned there!
Just tiny, tiny lights, moving in formation... 
