After I lost my mom unexpectedly, I became very interested in the subject. I did a lot of reading - spent a small fortune on books until I finally
turned to the local library (duh). Anyway, I know what you mean about looking forward to it. After my loss, I admit I was very depressed and
grief-stricken, and I wanted to die to be with her again. But once the grief lessened, I had to come to terms with a new emotion of looking forward to
the experience, even though I hope my time doesn't come for several decades.

I think this was fueled by what I considered to be visitations from
my mother. It boosted my confidence that there are better things waiting for us after this life.
Have you ever watched the show "Angels Among Us" on the country music channel? I think that's what it's called anyway. I was never really "into"
the topic of angels and never put much thought into whether I believe they interact with our daily lives, but that show would give you some anecdotes
on visions of the "other side" in more tragic situations. I only watched it a few times, but a lot of the people on the show tell of angels guiding
them out of bad situations or keeping them company in a car accident while waiting on the paramedics, etc.