I'm writing this on ATS because it's the only place I feel it will fit into. There are similar threads here, but each of them are describing the
thoughts of an individual, a certain person, who feels the things in her/his own way, thus, interpreting them accordingly.
Since few months ago, I started to feel something. Well, could be the little man on my shoulder whispering in my ear. Of course, this IS a joke.
However, it started, as I said, few months ago... three, four or something like that. It's something deep, almost unnoticeable at a first glance but
it is definitely there and, in time, it grew. It grew not to the level of being a certain thing like pain or discomfort but it grew.
Now, before thinking "Oh, this is another fear-monger or deranged guy! Get a life, f.f.s.!", please, hear me out.
I am 43, father of one, 15 years husband, computer programmer and skydiving instructor. I am an educated man, with a very clear sight on life - at
least, that's what I like to think.
I am crazy in reasonable limits, but who the hell is completely sane, after all?
Anyway, before telling you the things I want to tell, one more thing: as skydiving instructor, it's my obligation to attend regular medical checking
for obvious reasons. I have no health problems at all; last time when I checked it turned out that I am a healthy adult male.
Now, into the rabbit's hole.
I live in Romania; for those of you who don't know, it's a Easter European former communist country, East from Hungary, West from the Black Sea. I'm
not going into details about the country itself because it's not relevant in this context.
However, there is one thing I must tell you: Romanians are fatalist people; most of their thoughts are not what you could call "good thoughts". Being
exploited way beyond their limits since the day our King, Michael the First, was forced by the Russians and Jews communists to leave the throne in
1945, the Romanian people became a pathological pessimistic one, not trusting anybody, being convinced that the future will only bring chaos, poverty
and desperation, no matter who would rule the country.
That's enough information for now; I hope I was able to create you an image.
Since 1945 to 1989, the communists ruled the country. Not ruled, raped might be the proper word. Again, I'm not going into details about this, but if
you want to find out more, google "ceausescu regime" and you'll see what I'm talking about.
In December 1989, there was a REVOLUTION in the whole country.
Well, at least that's how it was called then. The communist regime was overthrown-ed. It wasn't a peaceful thing; hundreds and hundreds of people died
shot by the government's forces, assassinated by infiltrated agents, killed by obscure forces which are yet to be discovered even now. Well, they were
but not "officially", so nobody was punished for the crimes that took place back then.
But it's something else I want to talk about. This long - too long - intro was necessary to create the proper image for the things I want to tell you
The revolution in 1989 started effectively on December 15.
However, LONG BEFORE THAT, there was a certain "something" in the air. Something without name, without a face, without a body, like a huge static
charge floating above, filling people with inner vibrations and making everyone sure about something which is definitely going to happen. And it
happened. It happened suddenly, when nobody could expect.
I can recall the tension in the air long before the date of December 15th; we were looking at each other without words, with hope and fear in our
eyes; until then, the people were making subversive jokes about the regime but they suddenly stopped, like it was an order propagated along the
thoughts' matrix. If I could describe the whole climate those days, I could say: SILENCE, WAITING, TENSION. Think about a whole country in this state
and you'll figure why I have goosebumps writing this, even now, after so many years.
Let's get back to the present days.
Something is happening, again. I can see it on almost everyone's face, moves and words. People became suddenly more and more strenuous, nervous and
agitated in a very silent manner - like a small animal in the corner of it's cage, trembling and shivering inside. Usually, the people are pretty
aggressive here but lately they aren't the same. Generally speaking, is like a huge energy is building somewhere, inside of something, growing to the
point where it will erupt... but how? And when? Because, you see, I'm 110% convinced that there isn't a matter of IF, but of WHEN.
I'm looking around me and sometimes, the tension is so dense that it almost can be touched. There's a low, very low vibration, somewhere: maybe in the
air, maybe in the sky, maybe into the ground or, maybe, in our collective EGO, as a whole.
Sometimes I can perceive it like erasing every border and every obstacle, connecting every single people around the World, a huge SOMETHING.
I don't know what it is. Maybe it's nothing. Maybe I'm a nut - probably. But it's the second time I am feeling this.
I have been talking to my friends, my relatives, my family. Most of them told me that they know what I am talking about because they can feel it too.
Some of them don't. But they know I'm a wacko sometimes, ha-ha!
As I told you, it's the second time I feel like this. I am looking around, seeing the familiar places and faces but they are somehow changed. It's
them and yet, they're different but I am unable to explain which way they're different.
Is there something in the making? Is something coming to us? Are we going somewhere and we're not able yet to figure where? Is the Earth itself
sending us a message? I don't know. I'm not scared, but I'm impatient. I can't wait to see if something will happen and what. Are we on the verge of
fundamental changes? I don't know.
Or maybe I'm just completely nuts? I have a full life, a happy family, many friends but I feel like something new and huge is just trying to enter our
lives. What could it be...?
I'm not running for flags and stars, no. If the mods think this kind of a thread is one too many, delete it. If you think I'm nuts, I know that I am.
But if you're experiencing something similar, I would like to know how you manage it, keep it under control and, maybe, what do you think it is and
I hope I was able to make my point in a decent understandable manner; English isn't my native language so if there are some errors in the sentences,
please, bear with me.
I really appreciate the time you spent reading this and if you think your time was lost for nothing, I'm sorry, honestly.
Good thoughts for all of you.
edit on 20-10-2011 by shansen because: correction
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