posted on Oct, 13 2011 @ 12:49 AM
You are absurd.
You grew up a gifted child in a stimulating and loving family framework, things came easy for you at school, anything was possible, in AWE you
spontaneously lived, and lived fully with your whole being.
Now, you live a lonely and limited life of IMpossibility as if no longer worthy of what life has to offer, and the sheer joy that once was, now
fleeting, if not all but gone, as you enter middle age. You are absurd!
In high school, although you could have aced the whole thing and gone on to university and accomplished anything upon which you set your sights, you
decided that the love of others was more important, so you gave up your gifts and talents to "party", only to learn, many years later and perhaps
much too late, that one cannot find fulfillment by seeking out love without to fill a lack of it within, and that drugs and alchohol cannot bestow the
grace of a childhood lost. You are absurd!
To compensate, for "hiding your light under a bushel basket", you now seek to prove, when those around you may expect either nothing or secretly
hope for the best, to prove them WRONG, at any cost, and get even with them for "causing you" to forsake the best part of yourself (no one likes a
showoff), by literally becoming the missing love itself, if such a thing were possible, or, if expectations are high, intentionally disappoint,
refusing to live up to such absurdly unrealistic expectations. You are absurd!
You rebel against your own authority, and even refuse to wake up in the morning to go to work, manufactuing in your sleep-addled mind, any and all
manner of justifications, including the notion that you are "changing the world" in your dreams! You are absurd.
People on the street, especially where you live, look at you with an inward smirk or with veild suspicion as you seek to meet every eye in mutual
recognition and friendship, and babies cannot take their eyes from you. You think you might be crazy. You are absurd.
You sit, typing into and reading from a discussion forum called ATS, completely addicted, and without recourse to live the life you are avoiding, but
hope that as a direct and sole result of your participation there, you will singlehandedly bring about the omegapoint of the cosmogensis of the
noosphere, and herald the coming of nothing less than the kingdom of heaven, and the second coming of Jesus Christ. You are absurd.
You call yourself the "eternal optimist" and yet are so lazy that you don't actually DO much of anything at all! You procrastinate to a high degree
of skill and self-deception, exerting more time and energy in NOT doing the very thing you planned to do the day before. A "leader of tomorrow",
being an all-or-nothing type of guy, you choose nothing today. Why do today what I can put off until tomorrow, is the lie you tell yourself, day and
day out. "Thank God for Monday!" is your Friday's declaration of joy and eternal freedom. You are absurd.
You say you are love, but you don't even love yourself!
NewAgeMan - Rob. You, are utterly absurd.