Twin Flames and how I found mine.

reply to post by mossme89


I`m going on 10 years and it only gets worse for me now that everyone is running around getting married having kids. My hair actually started falling out a few years ago from all the sleepless nights and stress. The whole self-destruction doesnt really work, took a couple of times waking up in a ditch or the drunk tank to find that out.
Talking about it kindof helps knowing that your not the only one out there feeling the same thing.

reply to post by StratosFear


Have you had any contact with her in the last 10 years?

reply to post by mossme89


Yeah, thats when it started 9th in HS. well i was about to go into the whole story but check the first page 2nd post. But when i saw her after all that time it was like nothing changed. I still dont know if i regret meeting her or not. I could right now sign into facebook or myspace and find her in a few seconds but I know the only response i`d get would be silence. Her husband might say he`d "open my throat"(exact words) but the guy looks like Harry Potter so i just let it go. If i get to meet him i`ll give my knife and tell him take your best shot i aint got the balls to do it myself. If ppl lack the conviction behind their words i got no respect for them. I told her i`d love her forever, so far so good. Its only been a few years and i have all the proof i need to state that my love for her is unconditional. Besides its not like i`m not pulling a huge long term plan.
So whats your story?, been looking over the whole thread, might have an idea or two for you.

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2nd page:
www.abovetopsecret.com...

Originally posted by mossme89
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2nd page:
www.abovetopsecret.com...

I'd like to add that there are tons of peeps out there you can feel a connection with. I know, I've spent my entire life trying to figure out why certain gyrls bother me so much but now that I've found my Soulmate (Twin-flame) I know why those gyrls bothered me so much. Like the one I consider the most beautiful gyrl ever, Audrey Hepburn. Once I found my Soulmate, I realized why Audrey had such an impact on me and why I was so drawn to her and all of the other ones that bothered me, I can see why they did.

One of them was interesting and I couldn't figure out why she bothered me so much, other than she's so beautiful, but once I poked into her life and saw her birthdate and the numerology of it, I realized why she bothered me so much. Her numerology is identical to my Soulmate's!

So instead of being bothered by the one you think is/was your Soulmate/Twin-flame, keep your eyes, ears, and mind open for the Real Her! I have doubts the one you think is Her, is Her, she's probably close to identical to your real one and the fact you had a falling out, says that. If she was your real Soulmate, the bond cannot be broken, it's eternal.

That's my take.

Ribbit

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I really hope she's still out there, actually. And what you said does make sense. Come to think of it, even though the feelings were strong, there was always a sense of disconnect between us in that we were from 2 different social groups. Even if we didn't have a fallout, I don't know if we would have been together, because I have sort of a quirky/eccentric personality, and that's partially what caused the falling out because she didn't quite "get" me, or at least didn't seem like she did.

Numerology aside, sometimes I wonder if I just met her at the right time in my life to where she caused a certain reaction from me. Before I met her, I was focused on the perfect romance, and that could have clouded my vision around her. Still, there's no way to truly know anything for sure and I'm really just speculating here.

For me, I guess you could say my Audrey Hepburn is Alona Tal. Not only is she gorgeous, but she has a sort of playful & soft side, which I really admire. Or, at least that's my interpretation of it.

for what it's worth, me circa feb 2011, recounting the abject insanity I had been through with my soul connection, I glad I found some humour in much of the beauty, profoundity and devestating pain that

THE SOUL CONNECTION CHRONICLES

1 You will find yourself, feeling like you have gone insane one day ( you might as well be communing, with pixies at the bottom of the garden and playing bass guitar with them, probably to a cheesy love ballad because signs are like everywhere) and searching Google, obsessively for explanations of what the # is happening to you

2 As a result of point 1, you will find, 9000 sites discussing this in great detail including irritating/ maddening/ and damn right alienating references to "our mission for god" "the work"(can't we just have the hallmark version like it was for like a short while) " the growth required" and holier than thou types, talking about the importance, of learning, unconditional love, like they invented the term personally, you will also notice a disturbing amount of images of pink hearts(beware they bite and are extremely dangerous if fraternised with) and on occasion a couple in a white karate outfit embracing to a setting sun, this particular image may make you feel a tad sick, given you feel like you have now entered into the realm of the certifiably insane, don't worry, you will feel like a complete loon, the following week and it gets better, trust me, the following week, you will feel like you are flying with the angels but not sure who is who, weren't their 4 in the original Saturday morning TV show, they wore spandex right ??

3 Every song, that talks of love, will suddenly make you cry like an acid loaded opera singer, on his final note (except the Carpenters and maybe a few other criminally naff, pieces, of music, these will just incense you to rage at the banality of the songs, but then again, I have an unnatural fear of Sade- Love is King and a certain curly blonde in a blue dresses and white shoes)
play me that song and it's so Justin Timberlake all over again

This song is evil, although I can go like Justin to it, and still feel like I am getting nowhere






4 You won't know who you are anymore, one minute, I feel fine, the next minute, I am crying but where did it come from( #ed if I know) is it her, is it him, is it me, what the # is it

It could be

A being awed with the tender profundity of your love and touching the god bliss of your beautiful/peachy soul, it's really awesome honestly, destiny organised this, so, knuckle down and pay attention, cuz the universe loves you and wants you to lose your job, take tablets and binge drink, start smoking again/etc because hey, you dope, you chose it (when you was in the stratosphere and we were cuddly balls of light, who had done this, 56 times previously and still didn't quite grasp it), be superhuman, that is the point of all this, to become like Clark Kent in a meditation garment(preferably white or maybe grey if the stores don't sell white)

B all the pain, man the pain, some were in nam, some had soul connections, I know nam was worse, but man, can I go to nam, now, at least that way I can run ( I must apologise to all who went to nam, of course nam was worse but hey, this is kinda bizarre anyway, though I don't see helicopters or smell napalm but I feel strange explosions of electricity and energy within, does that count ?)

C the overwhelming love of your inner Christmas tree, that is all lit up with light and feeling like you just got moved by your beloved except she is now as terrified of you as you are of her, despite the fact her soul cuddles you before you go to sleep (it also kisses your lips and holds your hand, but when you see, her, it's like a mixture of, a rom com and a psychological horror movie) but you want logic and scientific rigour, go to Stephen Hawking, you want the truth of what is really going on, go to Steve Gunn, you may not like it, but he is real(he won't tell you what you want to hear, but may confirm what you already sensed, but concluded you imagined it), and he is wise in the ways of the force, you will feel like Luke in empire, lost and in the cave, remembering your failure, no god awful child actor Anakin in sight)



5 The karma, is how, do you say, like queuing up in a supermarket and constantly waiting to be served, and it never happens, because the checkout girl is too doped on Valium, to notice, she like you is like going round in circles, kinda fixated

6 Alcohol, tobacco, big pharma, chocolate, ice cream are all suddenly really sexy and you can't get enough of at least 2-3 of them

7 Despite knowing joy and peace on off throughout your life( hot air ballons, line dancing, singing Take That on Karaoke) you will suddenly find a profound dissatisfaction with your job ( is that difficult if you work anywhere full of zombies who have no understanding of you, cuz we all live in our own little world ) and your life in general as your soul connection highlights the complete absurd lack of meaning up until this point (yes, you have been seeking it all along but it just ended in lonely joy at how awesome it is to be like a big shiny black hole in your own company), suddenly tending to those who hear voices loses any vestige of meaning it ever had(clue: it felt pretty #ing meaningless anyways but now it is on super charged turbo bass and they suddenly irritate the hell out of you with their suffering, help, I am tired off feeding everyone else, like Tinkerbell, I am a tired fairy) you will find yourself popping off to certain locations in the profound hope you could simply bump into this person so you could discuss knitwear, kettles and the highlights of teletext listings

8 You will discover the profound importance of hitting your head repeatedly against a brick wall of reinforced concrete, as you go round and round in circles in your head and the energies spin you around like a pretty carousel on a fairground, I don't care, I do care, I don't know, oh I care again, look, a radio, run, it's playing a love song, my god, it's Sade, give me a flamethrower, oh look a blonde, is that her, is that her, is she wearing Blue, man, no , not again, I am done, no I am not, yes I am, no I am not, man, I love her, but I can't be with her, because I haven't done the work( hint: it was set by this madam destiny cow, who loves you and wants you to be happy, but it's gonna take 20 years of the above before you truly get there, so man, you better be patient)

9 If your boss, mentions love, your inner opera singer, has a field day, if someone says love on the telly, it's Niagra falls all over again, movies to avoid in the next 20 years include any film starring, Julia Roberts, Jenifer Aniston, Jenifer Garner, Meg Ryan, ( she retired from this since she her soul connection did a runner) and Love and other drugs: do not watch this movie, under any circumstances: it will finish you off. Apart from being the most vivid, recreation of a sinking ship, you have ever seen, you now understand that the love story in Titanic, was not as trite as it originally appeared: why: because the reason, Jack and Rose fell in love, did some painting (Monet's use of colour not included) and made love in 3 days flat was because they had, a soul connection and neither had the chance to run, because that ship was like sinking, If Jack had lived, he would have run away from Rose, after they docked in New York and Rose, would have been looking for a 19th century Steve Gunn to understand why she was flipping and the cords, were going nuts: that is why the title song, was called My Heart Will Go On: she was singing about the heart tug (hey, she saw him in dreams too)


10 When you are not walking around in a daze, you are walking round, feeling, like you are cloaked by the warmth of someone else’s, soul, except when they're angry( it's like the Hulk on steroids, man do you feel it). you notice a strange sensation of having 3 miniature locomotive invisible trains going back and forth, to your gut, your heart and your third eye and they sometimes travel very fast and in a panic (if you have cut off contact to protect your self) towards you and away from you, sometimes you get very excited at this, and repeat point 8, switch on the pc and post 100 times in 2 hours about, how it all means something, and how you are now closer to something that has never been further away

1 Radios at work, must be destroyed, for they are dangerous things. In 20 seconds flat, you have to keep, turning around and not facing your colleagues while the latest, love song, losen that waterfall

12 When you're not being haunted by killer radios from planet Love, madam destiny cunning disregard does not relent, you compose yourself and say, I don't love her, I don't care and then turn your head to find her name on a magazine cover and it's tiny tears time once more, you come home from work, wondering why Madona singing about, two strangers, coming together as one, happens to be playing on the cab drivers radio( hey, she referenced strangers, making the most of the dark, hint: a dance floor is dark) you walk into your parents front room, to find the TV show, your Father is watching, is talking about Alison and to add insult to injury, he says it 3 times, it all feels like some strange coincidence, or barmy conspiracy, that you keep on intersecting with magazine covers, TV shows and even old men on the bus who mention her name, what the # is going on here

13 Pizza, Chicken, Wings and Chips tempt you at every turn and the will to cook, is suddenly overtaken with a

zealous desire to sate your soul with more junk food than the contents of a food court

14 As you ride the awesome wave of soul connection chaos, be prepared for the profound (really profound, Einstein has got nothing on this) comprehension deficit in those around you(you will feel like ET in ET, feeling like no one quite understands and that even Elliot does not understand(despite being connected to E.T in, like a similar way, man) when you talk of the cords, before you use speak and spell again to contact your soul connection ( you may go white and feel sick too, just like ET did and don't even get me started on John Williams Soul Connection theme)

www.youtube.com...

no wonder, it took ET so long to make contact, they were like in total runner mode and you now understand why they took, off without him at the beginning, all those issues of trauma from battles on Zog brought to the surface by their connections love of innocent plants) They will look at you, like you escaped a ward of some kind ( hint: not for broken legs)

They will search their glowing internal life dictionary for similar and ascribe your experiences as something, they can identify with, despite having no blank clue what the blank you are talking about. They will regard you with a kind reassuring expression and say it is

A unrequited love (why does she keep on staring at me, then dude, like she feels something but can't say it, anymore than I can)

B your imagination (I am just not that bright, trust me, I no longer consume washing up powder for breakfast, so don't get the creative surge I use to)

C none of the above (ok , it's anomalous, I agree, could we get Unsolved Mysteries to do, a reconstruction, and CGI the cords, tugs and soul kisses and have a man with beard,stroke it thoughtfully and conclude he has it solved)

and advise you to

A move on ( like, wow, that easy, man wish I had thought of that all by myself, like a year ago, thanks, Sherlock, you solved my dilemma, I can rest easy now)

B take up a new hobby like, white water rafting to let go( just get an oar and go for broke and it's like over)

In the meantime, you will discuss, it with a doc as you resort to big pharma to keep a job, you now loathe more than ever, and with all the imagination, typical of NHS doctors and their capacity for understanding the complex and majestic, maddening beauty of the universe, they will look at you like a drugged up carrier pigeon, with a poor sense of direction

whatever you do, don't speak to a local NHS councillor and attempt to make them understand: they will just regurgitate banal, bland,101 middle class counselling rot about

A finding a new hobby (like white water rafting, but different)
B moving forward
C working for a charity shop in your spare time to feel more worthwhile

they may appear like a smug bleeding heart liberal who just solved another existential crisis in 45 minutes, but with added, " you are totally barking" expression

15 At times you will feel like you are in X men, as your soul connection blasts you with beams, hooks and shape shifts in front of you (she even glowed once, like Dark Phoenix), suddenly it dawns on you that Professor Charles Xavier, runs a school for soul connections, separated from their beloved and understands the heart tug better than anybody (except Steve Gunn) ( that's why Cyclops was good with his third eye, he like totally knew man and had the skinny on what was going down)

and don't tell me that Dude, Magneto, was not onto something with his neat little tricks ( the pull, man, the pull )

Wolverine ( he could like totally heal) and Rogue could cause others, to feel a tad empty, like all of a sudden

Originally posted by Dharma Employee
destiny organised this, so, knuckle down and pay attention, cuz the universe loves you and wants you to lose your job, take tablets and binge drink, start smoking again/etc because hey, you dope, you chose it (when you was in the stratosphere and we were cuddly balls of light, who had done this, 56 times previously and still didn't quite grasp it),

Too true. It beats the crap out of you.

reply to post by mossme89


Sry man i did read it and i must have forgot, lots on my mind you know how it is. Does she at least talk to you? do you have any contact at all? Or would making contact even be possible?

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But in this day in age with the way society and the media seem to control the thoughts and emotions of many ppl its hard to get thru to the ones that might have their vision clouded. I mean who cares about finding happines when you can watch a desperate housewife bitch and complain her shoes arent expensive enough?

I do understand what you mean about keeping on watch for the real "Her". that maybe what some experience(spellcheck?) is just a taste of what the real one will be like.
Thats getting real close to the fine line between doubts and reality(improve upon this analogy if you understand what im saying anyone)

I would like to here from a females POV on both experiencing this and dealing with guys who are going thru this.

reply to post by StratosFear


Nope She even blocked me on facebook. I'm not sure there's even a realistic way to reach out to her. After i asked her out, she was so "freaked out", that whenever she saw me in the hallway, she turned around and took a detour so she wouldn't have to pass me. That's how things ended between us. I graduated and she's still in HS.

Originally posted by mossme89
reply to post by ButtUglyToad

 

For me, I guess you could say my Audrey Hepburn is Alona Tal. Not only is she gorgeous, but she has a sort of playful & soft side, which I really admire. Or, at least that's my interpretation of it.

edit on 14-10-2011 by mossme89 because: (no reason given)

I had to Google Alona Tal to see who she was and she is a little hottie. But in five days she turns 28. Your last one was younger than you so what you dew'n, try'n the other side of the fence?

Understand that We all don't come together with our Soulmate/Twin Flame but if you are suppose to, destiny will make sure it happens so don't fret over it, but also don't forget she is out there , regardless if your destiny is to come together this time or kNot, you will someday, it's inevitable.

Ribbit

Ps: Are you Jewish? Alona Tal is Jewish so if you like pork, best to start drooling over someone else, like maybe Taylor Momsen? (insert drooling smiley here) She just turned 18 in July.

Originally posted by ButtUglyToad
Ps: Are you Jewish? Alona Tal is Jewish so if you like pork, best to start drooling over someone else, like maybe Taylor Momsen? (insert drooling smiley here) She just turned 18 in July.

Haha I actually am Jewish, but I don't think that had anything to do with it, because I only found out she was Jewish from one of her interviews.

I don't think being 28 for her is relevant because it's not like I'm going to pursue a relationship or anything, I don't even know her. She's just my sort of celebrity crush

Originally posted by mossme89

Originally posted by ButtUglyToad
Ps: Are you Jewish? Alona Tal is Jewish so if you like pork, best to start drooling over someone else, like maybe Taylor Momsen? (insert drooling smiley here) She just turned 18 in July.

Haha I actually am Jewish, but I don't think that had anything to do with it, because I only found out she was Jewish from one of her interviews.

I don't think being 28 for her is relevant because it's not like I'm going to pursue a relationship or anything, I don't even know her. She's just my sort of celebrity crush

Well then, We can kNow without a doubt that Miss Piggy isn't your Soulmate.

Flora Cross is a mega cutie or what about Zoe Weizenbaum?

Ribbit

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Haha idk, I tend to go more for the blond girls. And besides, I don't even know any of them so saying they are my "soulmate" just sounds crazy to me.

I have a question,

Would a soulmate help fill the void when the TF is not there? What kind of love would that bring? This is mostly for those who have a bit more knowledge than I do?

Originally posted by RisenAngel77
I have a question,

Would a soulmate help fill the void when the TF is not there? What kind of love would that bring? This is mostly for those who have a bit more knowledge than I do?

First, there is a difference of opinion on what/who is a Twin Flame and what/who a Soulmate is.

I define a Twin Flame as just that, someone you relate on evey level, thus, like a twin flame on a candle.

I define Soulmate as the opposite, yet twin Soul you are born with (Yin-Yang), thus, your true lifemate if you are fortunate enough to get to come together in this thing you call Life.

So my answer below is based on that version.

If you hook-up with a Twin-Flame first, then break-up or lose them, it's clearly a possibility the reason you broke-up or lost them is because your Soulmate is in the shadows, you just haven't seen them yet.

As to a hook-up with a Twin-Flame, after a break-up or losing your Soulmate, Twin-Flames are a dime a dozen, so take your pick.

Ribbit

I had a similar experience about TF, or something that is somehow like a TF.

This is my story (I warn everyone this is not a cool happy story), if you have time, I aprecciate you read it, and comment about it.

It begin when i was like 10 or 11, in my school, there was a new girl in the class, pretty cute girl. I always thought that girl was tremendously nice, and still think that way, although we have never speak more than 5 words. One day, when I still was this young, i had a dream that I think would never forget and I never tell anybody about this dream.

In the dream, I was with her, in a round room, with the walls and the floor padded, and ALL absolutely ALL was painted in red, in the middle of the room, there was a couch with some cushions all with different tones of red. We were in this room, hanging out, having fun, pampering each other, and playing with the cushion, I remember that she was wearing a bikini (hehe).

After I had this dream, I suddenly starting having this feelings about her, this sense of curiosity about her. I always thought she was cute, but now it was like more intense.

Now i will tell the things we have in common, and then, i will explain why this is not a happy story, well not from my selfish point of view.

First, our name are the same, my name is the male form of the name, and her name is the female form (like for example Daniel-Daniela)

We both had a stutter problem, but right now, I dont have it anymore, and I think she also dont. This is one of the reason that in somecases I was shy. She also was shy, but with the time the shyness was reduced.

We have more thing in common like (not all, but some) types of music, movies, books

I have tested my name and her name in different test of numerology and stuff, and match, mostly 7 and in somecases 9 are our common number, the numbers ALWAYS match. My birthday numbers and her, gives the result of 7, for example

We also share the zodiacal sign

One of my biggest mistake or the biggest, was to tell to some people in the class, that I like her, because what I least wanted was to divulge this, especially to her (later i will tell why). But, she end up knowing, and i think this might made her think she should avoid me in all situations, guess how i feel when perceiving this

Now I am going to tell some personal things about me. I dont live with my dad, i live with my mom, my grandparents, 1 uncle and 1 aunt, crazy house huh haha... this is because my fathers had me when they were only 17.... about my dad, i often see him, he lives in the same town, and we usually go out and share time, thats good... what is not good and this is why i writte this paragraph, is that i feel that in this kind of upbringing i have been so suppressed and so repressed that i felt that I had not develop myself in a right way, although I am trying to change this. The consequences of this, have been losing friends, in the girlfriend field, since the dad influence is low, i dont have this confidence to threat a girl as a girlfriend, right now i am good talking and easygoing, but when i found a girl pretty I feel insecure talking to they... and i hate that. I must say that I was raised in a strict way, ironically, right now i am a little rebel and against some authority figures, even so, I think my believes in ethics and moral are strong and most important authentic 100%

Now to the major topic, i am always been a person who perceives things, like gestures, looks and stuff. I dont understand why, but i think that this girl wants me to be "happy", or she likes me being happy, I think this, because in one day i was talking to some friends very casually enjoying the conversation, and i see with my eye corner, that she look at me and smile, the same thing happened in one of the last day of high school, i were a tuxedo she look at me and smile. Another things that happened, was that every oportunity that i had, i look at her, and there was a time where almost everyday i look at her in the same moment she look at me, eye contact, this happened day after day for some time

Ok, i should tell, that when we grown (high school), our social groups was different, even in the same class room. in short, she was more social, and more good looking, but always a nice girl, never prepotent or arrogance, always cute and a good person, and trust me i am good in knowing people way of being. I also had friends, and some people say i am goog looking, and i am, but i need to improve that anyway

The reason that i didnt want to tell her, is because as time passes, the feeling keeps very strong, and I know that if I told her she would reject me (because of the influence of social groups, and other stuffs), and most important she would notice how I feel, so she would end up feeling bad, i dont want that. And in somethings i feel/know i am not good enough (the defective develop of myself), and i think she deserves the best mate.

In the next post, i will clarify some things.