This thread reminds me of my own encounter. I don't know whether she was a twin flame or not, only that I felt something, a bond, that I had never
felt before. I'm pretty rational and logical and I kept trying to tell myself it was just a crush, I didn't actually like her, etc. But then I'd see
her and all of that went out the window, I knew what I felt and what I felt was real...
Anyway, I met her through rather odd circumstances, at least for me. I saw her standing alone one day at school 2 years ago and decided to just go up
and talk to her. I hardly ever did things like that, I was pretty shy, so this was odd. I started talking to her more and after that briefly talking
when I saw her in the halls. Then, we started hanging out to do homework in the library. It was then that I started to really get weird feelings. I
felt totally at peace around her and a feeling like "home", that's the best way I could describe it. I could tell she felt something too and that she
enjoyed my company. Well, I came on too strong and messed things up. Long story, but basically I ended up offending her unintentionally and then it
went downhill from there.
We avoided each other for months, and I fell into a deep depression. The best way to describe it is like falling from Cloud 9 to the darkest place
practically overnight. Yet synchronicity followed. We'd go to the same place to avoid each other, or I'd run into her at stores 30 minutes after
school. Then, she started thinking that I was stalking her. I apologized and avoided her until this March. I started talking to her again and things
were going okay, but then I came on too strong again and scared her away. I ended up asking her out in a last ditch desperate move I probably
shouldn't have, but at least now I know. I would have regretted it not knowing if she would have said yes or not. But, even then, when I was around
her it was like nothing else mattered, it was just the two of us.
Still, just knowing her has probably been the most positive influence in my life ever. I've changed the most in the last 2 years than the 16 years
before (I'm 18) and for the better. She inspired me to become a better person.
The defining characteristic between us is that we both have very strong reactions to each other, much more so than normal. After I messed things up,
whenever I saw her, I felt a fear so intense that it was incapacitating for months, yet didn't have that with any other girls. She also seemed to
react intensely to me. She was casual around many other people, even her boyfriends, but dead serious around me.
And another thing, when looking into her eyes, I felt like I was looking directly into her soul and I saw myself in her, if that makes any sense. It
probably doesn't really...
Fast forward to now. I haven't seen or heard from her since June. I keep trying to forget her and move on, and come within days of doing so, but every
single time, all the feelings come flooding back. Since then, girls have shown interest in me, but having felt what I felt, I know in my heart that
the only cure is someone who I would like as much or more than her. Many days I wonder if I'm insane but as much as I try to push these memories and
feelings out of my head and heart, I just can't. I can't rationalize with my feelings. I don't know, just wanted to share my story. If anyone has
comments on it, feel free to share. I'm still trying to sort through this in my head and my heart. It's sort of a tug of war between my heart and
head. My head tells me I'm nuts and I need to move on but my heart keeps pointing to her.
Originally posted by StratosFear
But heaven without her will never be heaven to me.
edit on 7-10-2011 by StratosFear because: (no reason given)
So true, I feel the same exact way.
edit on 8-10-2011 by mossme89 because: (no reason given)