posted on Sep, 20 2011 @ 02:33 PM
Hey enlightened one! I was reading quite a lot of posts in this thread, I would like to ask you some questions and I would really, really appreciate a
few answers (You may shed some light to a lost seeking soul).
I'm considering myself as a 'spirit having a physical experience'. I'm aware of the illusion that physical life is so my main focus in life is in
spirituality. My biggest frustration in life perhaps has something to do with the unhappiness of people around me (regardless if they are close
friends or strangers) as I know and feel we are all one and whatever I do to others I do to myself so I treat others very kindly as to myself, always.
I'm dedicating most of my life in finding my own peace of mind. I'm not seeking to have a rich physical life, I will be very pleased with having just
enough and live very simply. I've traveled very long distances for it, and i'm still traveling. I gave up on my soulmate which was my difficult
decisions in my life, my 'one' as she was and still everything for me in order to move to a different energetic location on Earth so I could perhaps
just let me 'be' (Which is working but not as I thought, i'm still carrying myself everywhere and my contradictions everywhere).
I know that we are creating our own reality. From personal experiences, I was always choosing intuition over anything, and I place my faith in it more
than anything else in the world.
The past weeks i'm experiencing a lot of pain, frustration and depression from my life and from the decisions I've made, I don't understand why do we
need to experience duality. I would give up on that instantly. I'm practicing oneness, unconditional love, i'm trying hard to always be who I really
am regardless of what might people think, i'm on the process of recognizing myself as love so others would see me as love first. And by that, to raise
mine and other people's vibrations around me. Trying to aim them to themselves as I know everything we need is in ourselves.
So sorry for all this long post, I just wanted to give you this 'background' on my life. I just don't understand what part is missing? If i'm
considering my consciousness to be close to an enlightened one (At least by my actions or intentions). What and where could be my missing puzzle? I'm
really lost in this spiritual path that i'm on the verge of losing faith in my own self and in spiritual life. It all seems very confusing and so
Please, I would really appreciate a word of advice. It doesn't have to be something good, just a piece of truth that i'm might missing.
With great love to you and all there is.